#need wine

i came out as bisexual about 2½ years ago and I've struggled with understanding myself whether that is in terms of the label or knowing what my preferences are. I didn't question it much, it just felt right. But now I've come to a point where I'm questioning it. I've been researching the difference between pansexuality and bisexuality, and came to understand that they're really the same thing. It's just a matter of what label you're more comfortable with and what you identify with. I find myself confused and scared? I mean if i decide to come out as pansexual it doesn't really change anything, now does it? It's just a new label. A new word. Im not definitive about any of it. I just feel like I'm floating around- trying to find my place. Trying to find what fits. Don't i deserve that too? Something that fits just right, something that accepts my crooked corners and twisted ways, something that makes sense in my head. I want that.

It's sunday, I hope to have a nice day alone working on my illustrations, getting ready for my next interview or for my first podcast.

Is it too early to start drinking?