#nawraya

I’m always trying to seem deep or to think deeply, to bring more meaning to certain stuff while disregarding other events. It flows based on my wants and my desire of things to become, not the reality and the facts. Dismiss the facts, the things are what you link to them, how you categorize them and the way you view them to a certain extent. The limit there, is in fact, reality. The things we can’t reach, the sadness we cannot grow apart from, the helplessness that crawls in ur mind each time u think of a solution, the wounds that keep bleeding under the bandages, it’s the minutes u can’t spare, the tear that falls due to gravity, the crowded world is indeed too big to be controlled under our hands, that’s reality; a call a scream a prayer of billions to become. A story is too complicated to be told. An endless track of dead wishes, new wishes, dead people with old wishes, new people with ordinary wishes, most people with basic life-essential wishes that would give them the lowest right to be the lowest form of a human being; to exist.

A raw draft, that’s the script going in our minds, unedited. Everything beyond nature and species is human made ; letters, words, concepts and theories, it’s all made to understand the things we cannot control just to find a loophole to slightly alter these stuff, to be in control, or just to feel superior, like we’re not as helpless as we are taught to be.

To feel lost is when you understand you gained control, you won’t feel lost when someone else is showing you the road.

Limitations to humanity comes in different forms, the fact that we cannot write all the contradictory thoughts that come to our mind at the same second, not even if we try to sort it out for hours, there’s always a missing thought, one that passed without u even noticing it, or a lost thought that if you try to find, you’ll waste a hundred other thoughts along the way. We cannot even be fair to our own thoughts, let alone anyone else’s. Processing opinions is hard when you view all the sides, picking a side is hard because all sides are partially right and partially wrong. They all make sense to someone not necessarily you, you alone are not enough to make it “ true”. If it’s wrong to someone then that makes it partially wrong to u too, but u pick and choose based on your desires and your ideology and what seems right based on your previous knowledge.

It’s all nonsense, it may not go beyond your mind, but it may as well travel in waves to the whole universe.

“ the whole universe could all be a lie “

Why are we so sure of space, and sea and flying on an airplane? It could all be mind tricks ..

But it is real because it influences a bunch of people at the same time which confirms it’s existence. But also people could exist only in your mind.

An old repetitive thought excuse me.

I wish I could have a script of my thoughts, it would be interesting if someone could write them without being processed, so pure and imperfect but genuine.