#naudrey4ever

I’ve seen Haven’s episode 3x13, “Thanks for the Memories” so many times and everytime I watch Audrey say goodbye to Nathan, I cry just as hard as the first time.

When she’s finished saying goodbye to Duke and turns to face Nathan…that pause before walking forward. Like she has to prepare herself to do the impossible. To say goodbye to the love of her life. And then Nathan looking lost as she says goodbye to each person. Breathing and panting and crying like he can’t believe it’s happening. Like he doesn’t want to believe. So much is said with so few words.

The moment James asked Audrey who she loved, you saw it on her face. She knew in that moment that it didn’t matter that she didn’t want to leave Nathan or Haven. That she'd give up her life as Audrey Parker because the thought of killing Nathan was never an option. Never something she could even fathom doing.

People saying that in the end, Nathan chose a “copy” of Audrey and wasn’t ok with Lexie but was fine with Paige just don’t see the big picture. Brian Milikin himself has verified that Paige is indeed Audrey and that she will remember everything.

In S4, Nathan knew deep down that Audrey was coming back. He knew she had to still be out there. That’s why he never was ok with Lexie. In the series finale, he knew Audrey was gone forever. There was no more 27yrs, no more troubles. So seeing Paige, he knew that it was Audrey. That it was truly her. That she had to have had a part in her return.

Words can’t describe the state of elation and euphoria that I’ve been in since the series finale of #Haven last night. It was the definition of an emotional roller coaster! One minute I was laughing, the next crying, I couldn’t keep a handle on myself. It was the best series finale I have ever seen in my entire life!

When Audrey had to leave Nathan again, I felt my heart break. The thought of our loves not getting their happily ever after was physically painful to my heart. Haven has always centered around one thing, no matter the era, the trouble that was plaguing the town, or the mystery they were quickly uncovering, it was about one entity. One epic love. #Naudrey. They have been and will always be the literal “Heart of Haven”. I have never loved a ship the way I do Naudrey. Even my #Charah comes in a tight second to them. (#sorrynotsorry Lynsey for not having O up there LOL)

They have the kind of love that touches you deep in your soul and you don’t realize it’s taken your entire heart until you’re lost in the sea of Naudrey.

To see Audrey come back as Paige and have their son (#OurSon GAH! Every. Damn. Time!) with her was more beautiful than words will ever truly be able to capture. They’ve been given a second chance to re-experience their once in a lifetime love. They get to fall in love without the pain of the troubles. Without one of them always having to be the “savior”. Without drifting apart to protect one another. They get to live and love and raise their son together. They finally get to take that Sunday drive.

I know people say it’s a TV show, but I have no shame in saying that Naudrey has and will always have my heart and soul. They are what love looks like. True soulmates. Thank you Haven for giving us this pure and magnificent love story.