#n.p

I remember what you taught me.

Holding my face,

Quietly uttering:

"Don't give yourself over,

Until you can look them in the eyes.

Don't settle.

Not in your career,

Not in Love,

Not in life."

I made a promise.

I made a promise,

One I intend to

Sheepishly keep.

Because,

Maybe,

Maybe just for a moment,

I could receive

the Truth

Of what they have always seemed to see.

That power,

Hunger,

Eros

Was always embedded in me.

I stare you in the face,

Through pixalated squares,

We meaninglessly laugh,

You go back to your day,

And I gasp for air,

Wondering if I'm the only one feeling this way.

All you spoke of,

Is how you didn't want me to get hurt.

And I always knew I was going to break,

Without regret,

Because I would rather

lose,

Knowing I chose Love.

So I could see the lies,

I could no longer snooze.

That I could be saved,

As if my path

Is some burden placed upon me,

And not the birthing of my creativity.

My sweet tender Heart,

It has Loved,

And it has lost,

And in the end,

My Love becomes ever soft

Sweeter

Juicer

More compassionate,

More color,

More wise,

And there I'll be,

Staring God back in the eyes.

// follow the feeling - n.p

“make yourself comfortable.” rina herself sat down on of the wicker chairs, picking up one of the scripts. “it’s a horror movie, we’re set to film soon and i want to get a head start on getting my character down.” it might not be a huge production but it was important enough to her. “i will pay you for your time in money or food or a gift, whichever you’d like.”

It gets better. It really does get better. I’ve spent months and months thinking that a broken heart would be the end of me, that I was not going to be able to recover, but here I am almost a year after with my heart beating normal all over again. Now that I understand a way better what love is I see how wrong I was, that was not love nor life. I still have my ups and downs, but I have things to look forward to and those things are so worth living for.

Hello, angel! How are you?

About your career: The Emperor, Page of Wands, Nine of Wands, Eight of Cups (reversed), Eight of Pentacles (reversed).

My cards recommend you a career of action and command in which you have to be the leader of a group of people. Any career in leadership and action, an active career and that you can have a leading role. However, collaboration with other people at the career level may be a problem in the future, although it isn’t something that cannot be solved. On the other hand, the fear of starting projects can be a problem to find the right career for you. The Emperor is related to Aries, an initiating, germinating sign, someone who starts projects so that others can continue what they started. That's the kind of career I’m referring to when I talk about "action and command." Careers related to business, industry, creation and even politics or social issues can be perfect. The cards advise avoiding making decisions quickly and without thinking, since you may be making mistakes in your future. Don’t be afraid of making mistakes, but you must learn from your mistakes to find what you really like and enjoy. Be aware of any mistakes from the past because they can help you avoid making the same mistake again in the present or in the future of your career. It is important to leave any career or study that is not giving you satisfaction because that is not the way. Choose what you really want to do and not the career others recommend or expect from you. The cards talk about a change in your studies can greatly benefit you. If you have already chosen a career and you aren’t sure, the cards ask you to review your decision and get a glimpse of whether it was the right one or not. Changes in this area of ​​your life will always be positive if you make them with enough confidence.

About your job: King of Pentacles, Eight of Wands, King of Cups (reversed), Queen of Pentacles (reversed), The Lovers.

The cards talk about two job options in your life. You may have to choose between one of them or simply have two jobs at the same time. However, the idea of ​​deciding is very present in your working life. The moment you decide to enter the world of work, my cards announce quick news for you. It’s important you look for jobs where you have to work with more people, since jobs with partners may be the most recommended for you. If you have worked in the past, the cards announce your next jobs will not have much in common with your past jobs, as you need a renovation and open new work paths.

Your workplace will be a bit chaotic and emotionally unstable. However, you shouldn’t worry too much about it, as it will be a temporary phase. On the other hand, it’s important the manipulation of third parties doesn’t affect your decisions about your work or your working life in general. You may find some job options that you don't completely like, but you should keep in mind that in the end, your desired job will appear. Stability will not be on your side, but everything happens because you must make a decision about your work life to renew yourself and achieve the goals you want.

Good luck, love!

“Mất ngủ cũng có cái thú vui của nó đấy. Đêm lạ lắm. Nó chỉ là khoảnh khắc vụt qua đối với những người ngủ sớm, nhưng dài như cả một cuộc đời đối với những người thức trắng. Không ngủ, tôi thấy mình được thêm nhiều thứ.”

{N.P - Banana Yoshimoto}

she took a glance at the idol next to her as she got settled. “i hope you don’t mind if i join you.” things were already hard enough as it was, she hopped this wasn’t someone’s bad day. “the place is full...i shouldn’t have took my time getting here.” that was the biggest problem, she should’ve come right away. 

things hadn’t. 

“i don’t know if i want to go for more tv-drama’s or try and push for more movies.” that’s why she had a few different projects in front of her. “and more than that, i don’t know what genre and character i want to go for next.” things blended together at some point, it was less clear cut. “how would you go about it?”