#mytab

Well lets say I'm glad no one reads this as I know that I've officially hit rock bottom I've managed to give up on you but I'm hurting now and more that I have before but I know today was the last time I'd see you I'd of hugged you and not let go I mean you might not be perfect to others but to me you are and I could never force someone to love me and your proof I ruined things and well I'll never have another chance and you have her and she's the one you want to marry and be with she wants you so much as well I am so jealous and I understand that even through every cuddle and hug we have had it'll still be me in bed crying tonight knowing that I've had to let you go and that I'm the one who has finally to let go of you and this idea I have held so dear to me because you don't love me and never did or will