#mysaviorlovesme

Today I came to a fuller understanding of objectifying a man. I viewed him as a source for validation, empowerment and fulfillment. To what end? To my own end. How I love to feed my pride and vanity. And what was I willing to sacrifice? The scary thing is, at times I was willing to sacrifice a brother’s integrity, purity and maybe... his salvation? 

Now to that last point, God is sovereign and no matter what I do I can not get in the way of His saving power and for that I am thankful beyond measure. My God, how I need more of your love for your people, for thee. It’s a painful thing to come to terms with how sinful one is, and even more painful to realize that one is more sinful than what they can even see. But according to a quote I once read, something only hurts when there’s something wrong with it. The thing that hurts is my pride, and well that’s all wrong isn’t it? 

Praise God for the people in my life. Praise God that His light shines in His people at unexpected moments and in unexpected ways. Randomly after karaoke with a friend we prayed for the object of my recent temptation. And in that moment I felt a shift in my heart that lead to its restoration. Purity will be something that I struggle with for the rest of my life. But my God will bring me closer to perfection each day until that day I am face to face with my true love.