“Well hello Y/N, I do apologize to have to meet with you like this, but from what I witnessed, you seem to be a fighter, even as you heal. So I thought it was best for us both you learned the fastest way possible when it comes to me.” she took a moment to pause to see if I was absorbing her words. Then she proceeded.

“My name is Alexandria, I’m Roberts wife of 30 years, to make it simple and move on from a subject I hate to discuss, your mother was a weakness of my husbands and in short, how you became about. He refused to kill your mother or you, which is why I sent my men to it. They didn’t do a very good job, which is why you're still breathing. But you see, I never gave a fuck about you, your mother or Robert. We married for power positions. My siblings are the dead men your lovers killed. Making me the head mistress in charge. I will be sure to thank them for that when I get them together.”

“I am the only reason you’ll ever get them together, much like him and you are still alive. I asked them to stop when they were planning the last hit to end Roberts life. They left you alone so we could be a family, we were offered that deal!” I said, words dripping with venom.

“That was a deal offered before the smoke cleared y/n, now I’ve Iost my men, my money, my family business was what kept us, me, in power. That's why your here y/n!  Your lovers have cost me everything. And they will make it right or watch you die a slow and painful death.”

“Fuck you Alexandria ” I roared at the screen.

“Yeah, I figured you'd be hard headed like your counterparts, so I'll paint you a picture of what's at stake and then lock you away for another week or so to think about how you want to speak to me.”

The screen snapped off and before I could even imagine what was coming next I was drenched in ice cold water spraying from overhead. So much water, the force from it was hard to breathe. It felt like it was being released from a firehose but with less pressure. I gasped for air as I struggled to lift my head up at the light from the screen as it glowed. I sat up straight as my Lily-Stars face filled the frame. I screamed at her to let her know momma was here for her. It was purely mental and I knew it, but I wasn't prepared to see her face. I panicked at first wondering how she had pictures of but then I realized it had to be from my phone as my sweet TomTom and Hazzi filled the frame with her. I closed my mouth as I focused on the screen and breathed through my nose so I wouldn't drown. I wouldn't miss a moment of their faces while I had it, they gave me strength to gather my head on how to get back to them.

 I was placed in a more comfortable room after a weeks time and given instructions to shower and prepare myself for dinner. I was reminded that this test of my control would have rewards or consequences. I did as instructed and waited for my escort to arrive for dinner. I was allowed to walk on my own with instructions on what direction to turn and the door to go into on the third lower level. This alone told me I how valuable I was in getting her what she wanted. She wanted me to know it.

To my surprise it was only her sitting in the dining room. She poured two glasses of wine and handed me one, pulling out a chair for me to sit. I eyed her as dinner was laid in front of us.

“Interesting men you fell in love with,I count myself lucky to have captured their only weakness.”

“I wouldn’t say that's luck, there is nothing stopping my savages from coming for me, nothing. Not even if you kill me, they will raise hell to remove you from this earth as well.” I smiled back

She let out a laugh and raised her glass to the truth in my statement. “My sweet girl, I respect you for being so honest. And I know this as well. I want them to come rescue you, I’m counting on it in fact!” she laughed taking a bite and eyeing me to do the same. “See, I need their skills and expertise and in exchange, I will give you back to them, well one of them. But only when they agree to work for me. After all they are why I’m reduced to nearly nothing in my line of business. They have killed all my worker bee’s, so they can repay a debt and in no time you all can be back home to your daughter” she smirked eyeing me for a response and not getting one. So she dug deeper, smiling that she got to play the next party trick.   

“Tell me y/n, does Tom still like to fuck rough? One of my hit men were moments away from killing Tom had found one of Tom’s ladies fresh from the bed he had fucked her senseless in. She was one of our spies but he never knew it, they are only trained to distract men while the professionals move in, but he’s a fuck em and leave em type of guy. She even had videos to prove it, he’s a real pain in the ass, if you know what I mean? Especially with that big dick of his, makes me wonder why you need that blue eyed beauty around when you can have this every night..” she watched me as a laptop was placed in front of my eyes and a hidden camera was aimed on a bed where Tom was naked and thrusting hard into a woman from behind. His hands fisted her hair and slapped her ass hard as she begged him to fuck her there too. I closed my eyes and shut the laptop.Hearing her begging for more of him.  

“No way, you watch..I have plenty of times and I’ve even gotten off to it, he’s a wild card, noway does he fuck sweet little you like this is there?” she spat as one of her men restrained my arms and she opened it back up hitting play. I closed my eyes as Tom gripped her hips shoving himself deep in her ass. She slapped me hard gripping my face towards the screen even closer. The video ended and another one started. I felt the bile in my throat rise as I watched him and another woman. She sat on his lap as he guided himself into her. He pushed her away from touching him and as he grown tired of fighting her trying to touch him, Tom held her hands behind her back and bit her nipples hard. She moaned in pleasure, but not his name. It was the only relief I could find as the tears fell down my face. I found it harder to breathe as the girl was ordered to her hands and knees. He fucked her wilder than the last video and with each thrust I felt I was being stabbed in my heart. He had never fucked me or treated me like that. Was it because he loved me? Was this the way he truly wanted to fuck? I started to sob as she shut the laptop, and wiped my wet face. She looked at me almost with sorrow before speaking.

“Men are evil creatures sweetheart, after all it’s what got your mom killed.”

I reared my head back and head bunted her in the face hearing the crack of her perfect nose now broken. “You bitch!” she screamed back handing me with her blood soaked hand. She nodded at her goon to handle me. He choked me as she punched me in my stomach and with a final blow to the head I was knocked out.

When I came to, I was strapped to the same chair. A bright light was in my face and two large screens were in front of my face. My mouth was gagged and my eye was almost swollen shut.

I looked around the room to see what the hell was going on but I couldn’t see anything. Then the screen showed me a reflection of what I truly looked like. As my senses adjusted I could hear Tom and Harrisons voices being given strict instructions. Or they would not get another look at me alive again. They agreed before being placed on my screen. I sobbed at the sight of them unable to control it. It was a muffled cry and it tore through their hearts. Haz covered his mouth as he let the tears fall silently. Tom lost his shit as he started to scream that Robert had said I was healing and gone unharmed. Our footage was cut off but not the voice as Tom promised to kill everyone of them who had done this. A disguised voice came over our speakers and I knew who hid behind it as she pressed play of Tom and the woman again. I cried harder unsure if I closed my eyes I would be punished again and they didn’t need to see that. Tom was silent as he watched in horror and Haz looked at me with his sky blue eyes. They calmed my soul until the feed was quiet again.

“I love you angel, we are doing everything to get to you” he said as he was cut off by the disguised voice.

“Shut the fuck up, both of you! I have had enough talk and no action from both of you. Time to start proving your love for her. Tom you said you’d kill everyone who had done this to her?” Tom said yes without hesitation looking at me and not taking his eyes off mine. “You got a gun close by? I’m about to expose the one who caused her pain and did this to her.”

My eyes went wide as new footage of me watching him have sex played. The way I was forced, my expressions as the tears fell..the head bunt..all of it. This time my eyes stayed on Tom’s as they swirled in dark brown and copper tones. The storm was full force. He hated himself. I shook my head no as Tom pulled out his gun.

“Wow, you are a wild card! And a man of your word, now big boy..put it in your mouth for her”

I screamed no as he did what the bitch told him to do. “Put your finger on the trigger, I know it’s loaded, you ready to end all of her pain, right Tom?” she laughed as she counted from 5...4… I grew louder trashing my head no until I was slapped by a big hand and Haz jumped up pleading with his sweet beautiful blue eyes, filled with tears at the camera.

“STOP!, there has to be another way, please..anything. Don’t hurt her anymore, for fucks sake!”

“Alright, alright..put the gun down Mr. Big Dick, as much as I like how big your balls are I love the blue eyed ones sincerity.” she said dropping the voice disguise. “Now I see why you have him around y/n, he truly loves you.” she said in awe as she opened the door from far away.

“I do! I love you y/n, I’m so sorry your in this shit because of us baby.” he touched the screen.

Alexandria told him to sit down so she could see Tom. She showed us a Revolver as she put two bullets in the cylinder asking me what my nicknames were for them both. She removed my gag and handed me water, waiting me for me to speak. I knew what she was already doing. This was Harrrisons test now. I looked at Tom first knowing he already knew Haz would fold and he wasn’t prepared for this. “TomTom and Hazzi..” I croaked as she named the bullets exactly that and spun them around before resting it against my head.

“Well let’s see angel, who will be the man who saves you from the other? Rules are simple fellas, Tom can stop Hazzis bullet or Harrison can stop TomTom’s bullet from killing her just by surrendering themselves in exchange for her life. No other rules apply”

Without warning she squeezed the trigger and the gun made the empty clicking sound against my skull.

“Me..” they both shouted as she cocked the gun again. They looked at each other with fire. I prayed Haz would let Tom take this offer, Tom leaded with his head first, Haz leaded with his heart. Tom already had impressed her in more ways than one, he had the upper hand. It’s not that I didn’t have faith in my Hazzi, I knew he wasn’t going to be able to do what she was going to demand of him solo. He wasn’t built like that. “Hazzi no, please” I begged as he looked at me.

“Tom was willing to blow his head off for you angel. He is the only one who can protect our little savage and you from whatever or whoever might be out there, this is my chance to save you both. She needs her mum y/n, so..so you can tell her how much her daddy loves her as she grows up.” he kept his on mine as the silence filled all the space in the world.  

“Wow, look at that!” Alexandria said handing the gun to the man behind me “I’m a sucker for this, I’ve never seen a bond so strong. True love does exist in this world! It’s such a shame I have to take a real man from the world.. but I will keep my word, just as they did theirs.”

She looked back and forth between us all, Toms jaw twitched looking at her. Alexandria laughed as she slapped my arm playfully.

“Wow, I see why you have them both now y/n, well played, don’t worry. I will take good care of her until the exchange is made. You have 48 hours to meet me at a location that will be given to you in the next five minutes. And boys, don’t fuck this up! No second chances, Promise!”

     I was escorted to the back of a Humvee and we headed out towards the desert to the meet up location. I had men on both sides of me and she sat across from me, looking proud of herself. I couldn’t wait to kill her then daddy dearest who was in the front seat. She pulled out her phone as we stopped at the exchange spot. I could hear Toms tense voice in her ear.

“No games or this bitch dies, do you and your lover friend understand?” he answered yes

“Good, just so you understand your fragile package is really to die for. She is strapped with a life vest, inside is a IED with enough power to send her straight to hell. She will exchange this with Harrison as they say a final goodbye, anything goes wrong and they both die, you so much as flip me off Tom and I will toss him from this Humvee and you will both watch your mate die and I will come back and kill the baby girl next, don’t let your big dick energy fuck this up for the lovebirds. They have made promises, let this be about them. Oh and Tom, it will be a pleasure to finally meet see in person. I’ve had plenty of fantasies with you inside me, but I’m sure Hazzi can be taught to fuck and love, it’s been a pleasure!” she hung up the phone and I kicked her as hard as I could in the chest and stomach causing her to slump over as I brought my knee into her face. The armed men stepped out and ran from the vehicle in case she was crazy enough to blow us all up right there. Robert turned around and aimed the gun at me as she was regaining her senses. She gripped my hair and I heard a crack to her skull as she passed out. I lifted my head to the man who fathered me and watched wide eyed as he ripped the vest off me and told me to run. I watched tears run down his face as he apologized for everything. I only nodded in understanding as I took off towards my savagez and my real family that I knew had me covered.

Tom and Haz ran towards me meeting me in the middle. Haz ripped off his vest and slipped it on me with a quick kiss as Tom strapped it on me. We ran back to the Jeep that was parked in the dead end zone of the cannon. I heard the fire of the gun and I knew she had killed him.

I look at Tom as we get in a Jeep and waited for an all clear, instead we had to take cover on the other side of it as Sam reported more movement headed our way. “Why meet here?” “It's a wide dead end, we’ve got them surrounded with only one way into our trap.” Tom smiled pointing up “Tuwaine can get a Iine of sight for up to three miles up there, Jacob is behind that mountain with our bird, were almost home baby.” Harry reports through the ear piece as I’m handed my guns “We're not alone, the guest have arrived. Three Humvee, rolling in hot, about 2,000 yards.” “AII right, we knew this was going to happen. No one takes anyone without hell!” Haz says as he slips his necklace around me. The angel wing sparkling in the hot sun. I shook my head no and he shut me up with a kiss as he slipped it under my bullet proof vest.

“I’ll take it off tonight, when I tell you all about our new home on the beach, it belonged to my family and has been off the grid since I was born, we will be safe forever angel.” he winked. “Tuwaine, Don't Iet them get off more than one shot each, alright?” Haz laughed into the mic “Roger that. Let's give them a Oster-Holliday welcome boys.” he replied with a howl

“AII right, Sam, blow them to bits with whatever the fuck you got!” Tom ordered before kissing me “I love you, it’s good to have you back Starling.”

“I love you too Tom and it’s great to be back. Get us home okay?” I gave him an uneasy look from just feeling in my gut shit was about go sideways. He nodded at me as Haz walked around the side of the Jeep to grab another vest for himself. Toms phone rang and he pulled me close.

“You let that whore know if he dies, it’s on her, not me!” Alexandria shouted so loud I could hear!

 Before Tom could tell Haz to take cover the whizzing sound of a bullet’s filled the air. I could hear Harrison yell out as he hit the side of the jeep. I moved to run to him and Tom shoved me to the ground against the front tire. He gave me a knowing look as he shouted into the mic.

“Cover me, Haz has been hit!” without waiting he rounded the jeep and the gunfire increased tenfold. I gulped in air trying to calm myself, I had to focus on getting us out alive.        

“Come on, guys! It's raining bullets, here. What the fuck are you doing?” Tom yelled pulling Haz back behind gunfire. He was shot in the leg and his side, just where his vest wasn’t strapped. “Tom, should we shift?” Harry yells out launching a rocket at the first Humvee as they split formation “Negative, stay put, when we kill them, then changed rotation. And stay ready.” “Oh, fuck! Smoke them motherfuckers!” Tom yelled as four motorcycles came from the dust. “Sam, cover Jacob, Jacob it’s almost time! Soon as this wave is wiped.”

“How bad is he?” Jacob asked sounding nervous and inpatient. Tom looked over at Harrison. He gave him a thumbs up and Tom smiled shaking his head “He’s prettier than ever.” he replied

I pulled him into my lap feeling his shirt wetter than it should be for a not life threatening wound.

My tears hit his face as he smiled at me. He pulled me into him and held me close.

“You're really going to Iove it there y/n. The water is the color of my eyes, our daughter will play in the sand with her beautiful mum and learn why we named her Lily-Star, the stars sparkle like your eyes. Tell her daddy spent every summer jumping from the rocks and as I grew up, I finally made it to the sky.” He coughed and I rolled him more onto his side as the blood came out. My dress was soaked in my Harrisons blood. “I’ll always be with you angel, never stop believing in that, promise me.” he held my face wiping away the tears

“Hazzi, I promise...I’ll never stop believing. Just please don’t die Haz! Stay awake, please” I begged rocking him, the same way I rocked my mum as she died in my arms on the side of the road.  

“Tuwaine, report.” Tom shouted checking Harrisons pulse.

“They are taken care of. But you have another set rolling in hot. They be there in 10 or Iess.”

“Tom? Please, help him!” I begged as he assessed his wounds and not looking at me “TOM!”

Haz pulled my face to his and smiled “Shh... It's okay. It's okay angel.” “He's going to die,Tom. I don't want to lose him, not like this, please, not here!” I pleaded as I watched his labored breathing grow shallower.

“Tom, give me the phone, it’s time to keep my promise, it’s the only way to stop this.” he gasped

“Savages don't make deals, Haz.” Tom said looking him in the eyes “I haven't Ieft you behind in my whole fucking Iife! I’m not doing it now. Jacob can fly us out of here, all of us!” he said soft as Haz started to shake his head no.

“She's in this shit because of us, we agreed to this. We Savages keep our promises.. to her Tom, give me the phone and get her out of here.” Haz coughed trying to keep his lungs clear. “I’m dying anyways, then what happens? She kills all of us, if we're lucky? Our daughter next?”

Tom looked at me as he handed Haz the phone. I didn’t grasp what the fuck was going on.

“Alexandria, please let her go. I’m keeping my word, please..” he was cut off and told to put her on speaker phone, so he did.

“You see this Tom? A real man, keeping his word. Now, let's just do what we came to do. The snipers. Tell them to put the guns on the ground, hands in the air. Or we will sit here until he bleeds out and I will launch a rocket at your face and kill you all next. As your daughter grows up I’ll be sure to show her what a hero you all went out as, times ticking.” she hung up.

“Jacob, get your ass here now, save my angel and my best friend.” he looked at Tom as he took his hand in his as the chopper roared to life just a stone's throw away.  

“I Iove you Tom. Take care of our girls for me” Harrison said as Tom slipped something in his    mouth and he swallowed it.  

“You have my word mate, but you come back to us and that is a fucking order! I love you Haz.”

Tuwaine yelled they were less than 5 minutes away as the chopper landed.

“Y/N we have to go now!” Tom demanded from behind me.

“Harrison, I can’t..can’t live without you!” I panicked “You promised me forever Hazzi!” I sobbed

“I gave you our Lily-Star, she is my forever promise y/n, now go home to her, she misses you so fucking much.” he held me to his chest. “I love you Y/N Osterfield-Holland, forever.” I felt his arms drop away from me.

“Hazzi! Harrison! No no no…please no!” I screamed as Tom wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me away from him. I fought so hard against Toms strong grip. “Hazzi, open your eyes, show me your alive, please!” I screamed as Tom got us into the chopper “Harrison I love you, please...open your eyes” He couldn’t hear me over the noise. I didn’t care, I kept begging him, pounding Toms chest with all the strength I had as we flew away and left him there, unknowing.

 Every Night I wake up in darkness screaming for Hazzi to open his eyes. Every fucking time I wake up before seeing his eyes stay closed or open. Even my dreams wouldn't let me have closure. The only peace I can make with that day, is thus far, no one has came after us. In my mind it makes Harrison alive. It’s another reason to shove my nightmares aside and peek in our sweet angel sleeping in the room next door to me wrapped in Toms arms. Until I stop thrashing around and screaming for my Hazzi they have to sleep away from me. So she won’t be traumatized or physically hurt by my unconscious choices. I kissed the angel wing around my neck and retreat to my bed. The first couple of weeks I wouldn’t leave his room from the yacht. Tom forced his hand in making me shower and eat after the third day of locking everyone out. I couldn’t even look at our daughter. She looks so much like him. Her blonde curls, sky blue eyes, her dimpled chin. It’s been almost four months now. Tomorrow we bury her father, the other half of my heart. How the fuck do you bury someone when there is no body? No ashes? No proof he’s even dead! My stupid therapist says it’s supposed to help with closure. Whatever, I’ll do it because part of me that is forever owned by Harrison will give his daughter the best mum she deserves. The part of me that belongs to Tom hated him at first. I blamed him, we shouldn’t have left him there on the side of the jeep. Dead or alive, he didn’t deserve to be alone. I had become the cold one, every 20th of the month I’d make Tom fuck me and by fuck I meant like in the videos, he wasn’t allowed to touch me and I didn’t scream his name. We worked hard together to bring me back. I would have died by now if he hadn’t forced me to seek treatment. We all lost Harrison, it took a lot for me to understand that. I looked around at our empty house. After the so called funeral we were leaving for the home Harrison had remodeled as our safe house. It was his last shot at saving us and I prayed moving there would save us, what was left of us...of me. I was ready to cancel my life. This pain was too much.  

   I stood at the feet of his empty casket as our friends and family placed pieces of their memories of Harrison inside. I was numb as I looked at the different tokens of love and remembrance. Our baby girl slept in my arms as I rocked her side to side to calm my anxiety inside. I kissed her little fist that was gripped around Hazzis angel wing against my rapidly beating heart. My eyes were glued to his in the picture that was blown up from our babies first birthday. My last happy day with him. I was jolted from my memory of him as Tom placed his hand on my lower back asking me to take a seat before it started. I shook my head no and Tom accepted. Zendaya held out her arms for Lily-Star and I handed her over, she stirred only slightly grabbing her long curly hair and shoving it into her mouth making us all laugh just as her dad would have. Monty and Tessa even sat quietly at mine and Toms feet as he wrapped his arms around me. And that's where his arms stayed, as my song “Stars” by Grace Potter I picked for him played quietly. Toms strength is what held me upright as the full impact of never seeing him again hit me like a mac truck slamming into a mountain side as they exchange words, details about his life, personal connections, his smile, his eyes..all carried on through our daughter. Harry took the dogs away as they started to whine at my silent sobbing. I can’t make sense of it over the ringing in my ears and the brutal shaking in my body. That’s when I break down, the sobbing turning into a full on wailing from my chest and throat. Like a pressurized pipe busting loose, the pain shoots from my lungs and I pound my fists onto his empty fucking casket. Tom picks me up as I go limp at hearing our daughter cry for her mumma and dadda.

 I don’t hear the door shut, I don’t feel Tom beneath me, don’t taste the tears flooding my face as he holds me tight in the back of the limo. The pain is all consuming, crippling me, twisting me into something unrecognizable, a shapeless and hopeless vessel of a woman just lost.

Toms arms are around me, and that’s all I can feel, keeping me glued to this hell on earth moment. He holds me tighter and sings to me like Hazzi did, for his girls when they needed comfort. He covered my ears the Three-Volley Final Salute fired for his honorable death.

I scream for them to stop, he didn’t die! He isn’t dead. I scream at TomTom to tell them the truth! Tell me the truth. He just holds on tighter and cries with me, telling me he’s sorry, he wishes it was him, he wishes he could trade places. Tom begs me to forgive him through our mingled sobs. His pleads are powerful, like he’s looking inside me and sees me pointing blame. I hold his face in my hands and truly see my TomTom for the first time since we left Haz there.

I thought I had hidden myself from him well enough. I should have known better. Tom has read my soul like an open book, since day one. I canceled out on life, our future, our everything. I’ve been okay with checking out. Until now...staring at Tom, mourning his best friend and hurting for me, needing me but unable to ask for me. I hate myself, because this is no ones fault. Not even Harrisons. He might have broken our promise of forever but it was to give me, Lily and Tom forever. I’ve wasted enough time being bitter, mad and sad. This life was Hazzis gift to me.

“TomTom I’m so sorry..for everything since he left. If you forgive me I promise to live fully again.”

He held onto me as he broke down and cried for his brother, his best friend..his loss of Harrison. I held him until he felt he could carry on with me at his side.

“Let’s go get our little savage” he sadly smiled and kissed me, looking in my eyes.

My soul sparked a flame inside my body as and I sit up straight and kissed Tom back lovingly.

 Fighting hurts. Living without Harrison hurts. But nothing is as painful as hanging onto the broken pieces of a dream we all lived for and lost together. Even if I choose stay in my dark misery or move forward to light, Haz is gone. Giving up on life won’t bring him back. I climb off of Tom and open the door. I get on my feet and stagger until my legs find their own strength. Every second is painful, but I focus on getting to our daughter. I focus on her and allow myself a drop of hope. Hope that one day if he comes back to me, he will appreciate the strength I discovered and the will to live the life he gave for me. Lily-Star reached for me and her sky blue eyes told me what I felt was true all these months, Harrison James Osterfield-Holland was very much alive, inside our little angel.  

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He sat up and pulled me into his lap “You and this baby will always have me, no matter who’s baby is inside you, I love you angel. Unconditionally” Haz kissed my head and rocked me slowly as he sang sweetly in my ear “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine…” I closed my eyes as he flattened his palms against my stomach. I placed my hands over his loving this moment and never wanting it to end.

 Another two weeks went by, making it almost a month since Tom had been gone. I haven’t even heard his voice, it was making me uneasy. Harrison was seriously keeping me in check about not stressing. He must have told me three times a day if Tom and the crew wasn’t reaching out to us it was for the best and if something had gone wrong, we would know the moment anyone one of them were in trouble. He ordered me to my dance studio to work some stress off as he made us dinner. I decided it was a great ideal because I could completely submerge myself in my dancing and let the world fade for awhile. I slipped on my sexy boy shorts and sequin top that shined under the studio lights as I circled the pole with one hand. I had selected my playlist that held songs that reminded me of Tom, I wanted to push my ache for him out of my mind until I could do something about it. Part of my soul was missing...I hope like hell this would help. I closed my eyes as “Partition by Beyonce” pumped through the air and powered my movements. I channeled my emotions through my arms, neck, chest, and abs. I let myself be possessed by the memories each word carried me to. My hips rolled in circles as I dipped low to the floor. I gripped the pole and lifted my legs above my head. My hair cascaded to the floor and my eyes opened as I heard Haz clear his throat. I smiled at Harrison's eyes, they were wild and wide at my bodies position. He has never seen me dance like this, he’s always been my cherishing lover, my romancer, my sweet savage. I lowered my body and walked over to the system, hitting pause to stop the intense mood that now hung in the room. He eyed me as I made my way over to him leaning against the mirrored wall. He had a different aura about him. I almost grew nervous at it.

“Is dinner done already Batman?” I smiled catching my breath as he just stared at me.

“Not exactly, I was going to share something” he said low and I picked up on his tone right away.

One glance at his gray tented sweatpants told me what I just heard, he was turned on. I bit my lip as I gripped his cock through his pants. He drew in a sharp breath as he pushed his hands into my hair. I gasped at the roughness of it and seen the change in his eyes. I closed my eyes and rolled my head around slow and shook away my lusty craving to be fucked. That don’t happen with my Hazzi, and he still makes me feel just as good, it’s just different.

“Is it this?” I whispered sliding my hand under his waistband. He kissed me deep and rough making me moan with a surprised approval. He broke the kiss and took off my top as he pinched my nipple hard and bit the other one. My eyes were the ones wide now. I flashed back to the only night he’s ever been this rough. When we were with Tom. I pulled his face into my hands “Hazzi, what are you doing?” I asked trying to block out my throbbing clit as he smiled sexy. “Watching you dance like that tells me your body is in need of something more intense”

I looked away feeling ashamed, he can’t be serious! I didn’t know how to respond. He pulled me back to his sky blue eyes and held me their until I stopped over thinking.

“I know what your body needs y/n, now let me show you” he said pulling my hair hard again   

“Do you want sweet Hazzi right now, darling?” he smiled against my ear before he nibbled it.

I laugh at the ideal. “I wouldn’t mind keeping some of my hair.” he lets go of me and I whimper.

“Hands on the wall angel.”... there it is, the beautiful command from a man I love to the ends of time. His new dominance overpowers me in a new way. The strength of our love fused into two bodies that ache to make each other whole, the way we’re supposed to. I’m all in, flattening my palms against the wall. I don’t want to control this. I need Haz to do whatever he wants to do. Punish me, fuck me from my thoughts, spank me. A storm builds inside me as I hold my hands against the cold mirror. Desire mixed with guilt, one as poisonous as the other, robbing the strength from my legs and burning my lungs. But at the center of this storm is a calming soul. My Hazzi stands behind me, silent, steady, commanding me to relax simply by placing a hand on my lower back. “Do you want to still want to feel me the morning?” His sexy voice curls around me, low and hypnotic. I feel my core heat as his breath bathes my skin.   

“Answer me angel.” He spanks hard against my ass, bringing pain beneath my shorts. I swallow hard. “Yes, please, if that's what you want.” I say shaky as I start to second guess this, for him.  “Whatever’s going on in your head stops now.” He spanks me again, softer this time, but the impact still lifts me on my toes.

“You can’t make me stop thinking.” I smirk as my conscious ate at my needs, it wrecked him.

“No, but I can redden your ass until you stop feeling guilty about wanting this.” How does he do that?  He sees inside my head and interprets my thoughts better than I can.

“Now…” He grips tight to my hips. “Tell me what you want.” he smirked at me in the mirror

“I want to hurt, please make it hurt Hazzi.” I whimper wanting it now

He presses against my back, letting me feel the hardness of his chest. “Do you want to hurt here?” He grips my backside with both hands. “Or here?” His hand slides around my waist and touches me between the legs. My breathing is shallow.

“Please, you pick for me.” I moan out feeling my core get hotter. He pulls down my shorts and panties in one quick swoop and I step out of them leaving my legs spread for him.

“Damn, you’re perfect.” He tightens his fingers against my sex before stepping back and removing his touch completely. His breaths grow louder and  sharper, as he kneels behind me. I can see him looking at my glistening sex. FUCK me, I love being at his mercy. With teasing soft fingers, he traces my spine and moves closer to brush his lips against my ass. Then he pulls me   down onto his face and bites the flesh of my butt the instant it touches.

 I whimper and lock my knees, attempting to stay upright against the sharp sting. His legs are around my ankles so they limit the movement of my feet, but his strong hand on my hip supports me as he pulls my exposed ass closer to his face. Pressing a palm on my back, he forces me to bend at the waist. My hands slip down the mirror as I lower my head. His labored breathing echoes through the empty space, but the glide of his fingers is so controlled. His hands are everywhere, he positioning my hips where he wants them, slowly caressing up and down my legs, and petting between my thighs. Taste me, Harrison. Fuck me with your talented tongue. He hears my unspoken wish and moves his lips my sex, burying his face, groaning, and licking with force. My mouth drops open on a gasp, and I snap it shut, stifling the cry in my throat. I don’t know if I should be vocal like I usually am with roughness because usually with Hazzi, it’s natural and passionate moans. FUCK me. I don’t care, yes I do care! I stay silent only adding to my torture.  His lips feel too good pressed against me, kissing and sucking, warm and wet. I push against the mirror, rocking against his tongue, seeking pressure, friction, desperate to cum. He licks me from bottom to top and plunges deep. Then his fingers are there, circling my opening and sinking inside. He thrusts in and out, grunting, panting, fucking me with his touch, his tongue, and the force of my need. I gasp and tremble as the wave starts to build inside me, but he teases me, gives me just enough to hold me at the edge. Lips sliding, tongue curling, and fingers teasing, he plays my body like an instrument. My heart dances to the beats of his breaths. Electricity shoots through my veins, hot and wet and charged with emotion. The sensations Harrison is giving me feel incredible and overpowering. I think I might die. I drop my chin to my chest, my head too heavy to hold up. Stretching the restraint of his legs around my ankles, I shift my feet wider and roll my hips, grinding against his mouth, needing him, wanting this, silently begging him to keep going. He clamps an arm around my waist, rubs a finger around my clit, and closes those beautiful lips over my pussy, sucking faster. My walls spasm, mind explodes, and my body shatters. His primal groan vibrates through me, crashing waves of pleasure from my core to my limbs. Holyfuck, I’m seeing stars, holyfuck!  

I arch my back, and my mouth hangs open in a silent scream. As I come down from the most intense orgasm, he nibbles his way up my spine, panting and hungry. I shift to straighten from the wall, but his hand on my back holds me in the bent position.

“Don’t move y/n,” he commands, his voice sexy and low. The sound of his zipper shivers the air, followed by the whisper of his clothes dropping to the wooden floor. I peek over my shoulder just as he releases his hard, swollen cock and slides a hand over his long length, once, twice..he meets my eyes and grips my hair turning me back towards the mirror. Fuck, this room is nothing but mirrors, he’s all I can see. I feel the next wave already rolling in.  

“I’m going to fuck you now, angel. I want you to see yourself cum on my cock, my cock!” Haz didn’t wait for a response and the shock that brought was pure bliss. He soaked himself with my sex. Then drove his hips into me, his cock pushed inside fast and hard, thrusting into the grip he now had on my hip. I want to turn around, but he grips it hard, fingers shaking, mouth parted, too lost in his urgent desire to completion. “You make me so fucking crazy.” He cries ramming inside me, he can’t seem to slow down. “Nothing is more hotter than the sight of you in the air.” Intensely focused on the way he’s plowing into me, Haz finds his release, tensing as if he don’t want this to end “Angel, fuck, I’m fucking cumming.” His eyes dart forward, and he searches the mirror for my eyes, he’s desperate to see if I approve. I’m too blown away to say anything. But my walls grip his cock with another orgasm letting him know how good he makes me feel. My God, he’s beautiful when he lets go. Harrisons entire expression softens. His pupils dilate. His grip on my hip and hair loosen, and his eyes glow with swirling blue wonder. He looks happier, and fuck if that doesn’t put a teary smile on my face. He slips himself out as he catches his breath. He turns his attention back to me as he stands up

 “Now that we got that out of the way” he smiles sweetly, lifts me in his arms and takes me across the hall to my bedroom. He puts me on my bed and grabs a sweater of Toms.

Holy shit, now what? He has this look..intense enough that suggests something heavier is headed my way. I know this man, down to his soul, yet there are moments like this when I’m truly blow away by the beauty of his mysterious actions. He holds me hostage with a glance, and ability to keep me guessing. All I can do is blink and wait. I’ve never been this quite.  

“I came to share something else with you, but we both had a pressing matter to handle right?” he giggled tickling my spot under my ribs. I swatted his hands away and he slipped Toms sweater over my head. He held my face in his hands and delivered the blow.

“I received a encrypted video from Harry this morning, I didn’t share because it’s not something you should see. I’m only telling you because I got good news while you were dancing, Tom is calling in a few hours. They should be on the yacht in less than three hours and headed home”

I looked at him with mixed emotions, now I knew why he just drained my tensed up body. I stood up and paced. Did he just say this morning? A video? Is Tom in it? Is that why I can’t see it? He went to the other room and put on his clothes. I went downstairs, straight into the control room and punched in my code. I tried the third time with blurry eyes as Haz rounded the corner.

“Angel, everyone is very strict about you not seeing it, and you should avoid stress, remember?”

“Why isn’t my code working Harrison?” I snapped my head at him. “Let me in, now!” I seethed

“I will not, not until Tom is home and we can talk about what is going on, hate me for protecting you both, I don’t care, I’m not letting you in there” he said, my temper flared and I balled my fist.  

“Wow, you got control over me in the bedroom so you think you can control me outside of it?”

He shrugged his shoulders and looked me in the eyes “I’m ordering dinner, we can take about it, just try not to hate me, I love you y/n, I would never keep anything from you unless it could only hurt you” he went back upstairs and into the kitchen. I took his words to heart and followed him silently. He sat on the stool at the kitchen island and shuffled through the take out menus. I wrapped my arms around him and felt his chest take in a heavy breath through the rise and fall of his back. “I love you too Hazzi, I won’t ever hate you and thank you for protecting me..us” I said as he turned and pulled me into his arms, rubbing my stomach.      

 Four long days pass as I wait for Tom on the deck he instructed me to park at to pick him up. It would have taken closer to a week to get back if he stayed on the yacht. I was grateful he picked the quicker route. He looked like shit when we talked over facetime and it made me sicker to keep wondering what was so bad on that video that Tom insisted we would talk about when he got home. He seemed off. It could have been in my mind, I was also hiding a life changing secret of my own. I was thankful my baby bump was barely showing. I didn't have to start explaining right away.

 I leaned against the back of the car, crossing my legs hoping he appreciated my freezing ass as I wore my short sweater dress and black thigh high boots that he had always loved on me. I chewed my lip feeling nervous and anxious since I got the text saying he just landed five minutes ago. I heard the door click open to my right and felt my heart hammer in my chest. I needed to calm down before I made myself sick. But all that went out the window when he appeared 100 feet in front of me. I felt the tears stream down my face as I took off running towards him. He made bigger strides to and met me halfway. He dropped his bags and embraced me in his arms after impact. He held me tight and let me come undone in his embrace. I could tell he was shaking by the way he stroked my hair. I don't know how long we stood there, but he didn't rush me. He simply held me until I stopped sobbing.

“Don't ever leave me this long again” I sniffled as he wiped my eyes. “I missed you so much TomTom"

“Hello to you too Starling, I missed you more” he croaked pulling himself together. He picked up his bags, carrying them all on his left so he could hold me close to his side. “I promise to hold you until you make me let go, and don't worry, I've already told Haz you'll be sleeping solo with me for awhile” he smiled kissing my head.

 His car is the last one on this level in the garage. We walked side by side, his hand on the small of my back. His eyes dart everywhere and I can't help the anxiety it kicks up. He's more aware of our soundings than normal and I can't help but wonder if he's afraid someone is watching us. I stop us in our tracks just to see if he is caught off guard. He practically lifts me as he keeps going. “I’m not letting go until I have you in my car.” he says in a low tone.

He’s on the verge of running, and I don't understand it, until he growls

“I need you pretty baby, I don't know if I can wait until I get home for you"

“I need you too,Tom. Please don't make me wait much longer” I said shaky feeling emotional. He looked so different. His lip was still split, both his eyes were not only bruised, but they had deep dark bags underneath them. I can’t see much of him under his leather jacket, but he’s lost weight. It hurts my heart to see him like this. But I give him my best confident smile!

I’ll give him everything he desires, because I want to. I want to see his smile, to hear that adorable laugh that pulls me to him. I’ll do everything I can to make him whole, because he gives it in return.

He started to open the passenger side door to the car, but then stopped, shutting it before I had a chance to get in. I glance at Tom with wide eyes and he stares back at me. There is a hunger in his eyes. I swallow hard as more of my Tom came back to me. He looked around again making sure we were alone, there is no way he would take me right here! Right? I look around.  

There’s a large cement post to the right of us, where the entrance is. It’s maybe three feet wide. If someone drives up, it will block us for a moment. Only a moment, but the odds of someone coming here are slim to none and feeling my Tom right now is worth any risk. I beg him silently with my eyes knowing he would never do this normally. I just needed him close as two people could get. He kissed me deep and slow as he lifted his hand up my black sweater dress. I moaned into his mouth as he gripped my ass hard pressing his hard on into me. Our kiss grew more urgent and I started to taste his blood from the cut. He broke the kiss and looked away.

“I'm sorry, it's hard for me to hold back” he said rough as I fisted his hair.

“Don't be sorry baby, I don't care. Your here it's all that matters. Show me how much you missed me Tom” I said sexy and low

He took off his jacket and pulled me to the front of the car, where we would be hidden from view. Although his steps are hesitant, Tom leads the way, looking over his shoulder and no doubt calculating if we could get caught .

“Y/N,we..?” I can hear the hesitation in his voice as my ass bumps against the car. I nip his neck and bite him roughly, demanding him to take control of me like he loves to do. Tom responds by squeezing my hips and shoving me back, pinning me down and crashing his lips against mine. My hands press against his chest, pushing him away so he can make the choice to do this himself. He holds my hands still for a moment and then places them around his neck, ever so slowly Tom gives into me.

“Are you my good girl.” he whispers in my ear “You need me baby? I need you y/n, I want to make everything up to you, show you how sorry I am for leaving you..” he trails kisses down my neck and bites at the high collar of my sweater dress, frustrated by its presence. “But right now I want to make you mine again, okay baby?” I shook my head yes.

“Be good for me and be quiet.” I nod again, his breath is coming in fast through his parted lips.

He's still uncertain, so I crush my lips to his again and he moans into my mouth but before I can deepen it, he grips my hair in his hands and pulls me away, grabbing my hips and flipping me over so my breasts are pressed against the metal of the hood. “Y/N,stick your ass out for me,” he demands in a rough voice as I hear his breathing pick up. There’s no one in sight, and I fucking need Tom inside me more than ever. I whimper as he pulls my head back by my hair and bites my neck. I roll my hips, and my hot sex brushes against his cock, teasing him. He's quick to unzip his pants and pull his thick cock out, stroking it and finally letting go.

I let out a gasp as I braced myself and looked over my shoulder. His beautiful brown eyes were the color of the hottest logs burning in a fire. They were full of lust and longing.

“This has to be quick baby, I won't risk someone seeing you like this, your mine y/n”

I whimpered as he pulled my panties to the side and kissed my neck.

He licked the drop of blood off his lip before shoving himself deep inside my tight sex. My back arches and I scrape my nails along the hood, but I play his good girl and don't scream out. Nothing but  small gasps escapes both our mouths. My sex grips his cock and Tom fucks me even harder feeling my walls become slicker for his homecoming.

“You feel like fucking heaven” Tom hisses as I hold in my moan. He puts a hand on the small of my back, pressing me down and keeping me in place. I close my eyes tight, and bite hard into my bottom lip, I'm struggling to stay silent. He pulls his cock out slightly and pushes back in, forcing the sweetest sound of my name from his beautiful lips. Then a moan of pleasure. I swallow hard knowing he wants my moans, just not here. He grips my chin in his hand and forces me to look at him.

“Your behaving so good for me baby, I want you to watch me. I want your eyes on mine as I give you just what you need.” he bites his lip and I know it's painful, but it reminds me we suffered his absence together. I close my eyes as the wave starts to build and I moan softly.

“I missed the way only you make me feel Tommy.” I whimper my eyes open wider as he slams into me again.

“I'm home baby, right where I fucking belong.” he moans back picking up his speed.

I look forward, a small cry escaping from my lips and Tom waits for me to look back at him.

“You need to watch me” he tells me with an even voice even though his heart’s pounding in his chest. “Do you want to cum on my cock?” he asks low and I shake my head yes, because if I open my mouth I won’t be able to stop. “Then you have to give me what I need” He wants me to watch him? No, he’s making sure he’s giving me what I need. That this is what I want. Does he think I might not want him like this? Does he think I might not want him? My heart squeezes at the thought. I rest my face on the car and still keep my eyes on him. I lick my dry lips and make the choice to pull him back to me as much as I knew how.

“Please fuck me TomTom, I need to cum, my body needs you baby, only you” I cry out.

Tom thrusts into me again and again, pulling all the way out and slamming all the way back in. His hand slips between us and lifts the front of my dress up, teasing my nub through the thin layer of fabric. He only teases and rubs while watching me fight to not come undone under him. The build up of emotion is almost too much. Tears prick my eyes as he pulls out and spins me into his arms. He enters me slow and wraps my legs around him. Tom changes the mood as he pumps me slow and lovingly. I hang my head on his shoulder, lost in us.  

“Look at me,” he begs. His eyes seemed tortured with pleasure and something deeper. It was messing with my head but I wasn’t looking away, I let him see my soul, it was his, no hiding it.  

“Your fucking gorgeous and I could make this easy for you. I could let you cum so you don’t have to fight it. I could let you close your eyes and look away. But I’m not interested in that Y/N, your going to see. I’m going to give you everything you need. I’m going to make it alright, for all of us and your going to love me more for it.” I watched his emotions swirl “I don’t care who’s little savage is inside of you, your mine y/n, and I love you both” he pinched my clit hard making me come unglued as all of my emotions were released.

 The ride home was mostly silent. I asked him when Harrison told him about our newly named little savage and he took my hand, kissing it. His hands were bruised and without his jacket on I could see more bruises and a bandage soaked in blood probably from our heated passion moments ago. I tried not to stare. But he was in bad shape. I turned my head as we stopped at a light so he wouldn’t see the silent tears. Like he didn’t already know. This was Tom!

“Haz only told me after our first contact y/n” he pulled my face to look at him “He wanted me to absorb the thought before I reacted instantly like I tend to do when it comes to you” he smiled.

“I’m grateful he did, I freaked out at first. Not because of little savage, but because I didn’t know how I was going to be a father like the one I had. And Haz pointed out that you would be the one to help us both with that. Haz and I are in this together, no matter who’s baby that is..were family. Family is forever y/n” he kissed me quick “We do have one request before we become parents.” he said serious as we pulled into the driveway. I looked at him as he shut the engine off. “We want a last name change for all three of us, Osterfield-Holland. We can all share that.” Tom undid my seat belt and rubbed my belly leaning closer “Little savage, my name is Tom-dad and I can’t wait to meet you!” we went inside to a anxious Harrison.

 I cooked dinner as Tom took a shower and Harrison looked at more Intel on a laptop at the counter with headphones in. Tom had given firm instructions that I was not to be out of their sights for the unforeseen future and we would talk about it after dinner. From the looks of Hazzi chewing on his fingers, it wasn’t comforting Intel. I set down a beer next to him and he slammed the laptop to hide whatever it was he was looking at. He looked like he seen a ghost.

“Haz-dad, can you watch over dinner while I check on Tom-dad?” I smiled trying to relax him.

He pulled me into his arms and squeezed me tight “Those are perfect names, Tom is actually clever with that ideal, what do you think about our name change?” he smiled.

“I love it, honestly..and thank you for telling him Hazzi, I think it was best.” I kissed him and took a beer to Tom who was just getting out of the shower. I froze when I seen him naked and how bad he looked everywhere. My lip quivered as he looked up at me in shock not hearing me come in. “Shit darling, you don’t need to see me like this. I’ll be better in no time, I promise.” he came towards me wincing in pain as he finished wrapping gauze over his stitches on his tricep. His bruised chest and back that were in between yellow and brown told me he was close to healing but that he had hurt his ribs somehow. He pulled on shorts and a shirt from his drawer and took the beer from me setting it down as he held me tight. I never really understood what kind of danger they faced but now I was fully aware. “Come on starling, let’s go eat. Then we can sort this all out. You’ll feel much better after I show you how the other guy looks” he joked. I didn’t smile, I seen through his joke. The other guy is dead, it means Tom could have been also.

 We sat around the table not saying much. I felt like a kid as they both encouraged me to eat and we weren’t leaving the table until I did. I was much too interested in what went down so I forced myself to finish my food. Tom insisted I take a quick shower while he talked to Haz and that I could join them in 30 minutes in our control room. I gave my word and did exactly that. I felt my stomach flip flop as I made my way downstairs. They were talking casually about our little savage that it almost made me feel like our lives were normal. Tessa and Monty were on high alert and not moving from their sides. That told me, the conversation was changed for my comfort or protection. I looked at Haz seeking his forgiveness as I went to where Tom was sprawled on the couch, his dried hair long and full of messy curls. He nodded at me and I felt silly, knowing I didn’t need forgiveness. Tom shifted at the last second placing me in between them, also on the opposite side of his more bruised body. Tom kissed my tummy and smiled.

“So, little sav is what 8 weeks now?, you don’t even look pregnant y/n” his hand slipped under my soft p.j .bottoms and pressed my nearly flat tummy. “You do look a little different right here” he said biting under my belly button and making me giggle and lean into Hazzi to protect me.

“She should have gained at least 5 lbs the doctor said, but she has been vomiting a lot” he said looking at me concerned as Tom moved his hand to my face. “That stops now y/n, no more”

I rolled my eyes and pushed them away “Morning sickness is a healthy, normal part of this guys”

“Yeah, but spotting and vomiting the way you have are signs of stress angel!” Haz eyed me

“Well, Tom is home with us and you said it yourself Tom..” I trailed off looking at him “We are safe now right? When you left you said it would make this better.” Tom sat up looking at Haz.

“Don’t do that shit!” I said feeling angry. “I want the truth, this is our lives. Don’t decide what truths to tell or the ones to protect me from. That’s bullshit!” I said at both of them.

“Whoa y/n, watch your mouth around the baby, and that’s not what we're doing, luv” Tom offered

“Harrison told me about how much you are at risk in the first trimester, stress could cause you both harm and I won’t allow it, same as Haz. What I have to share is heavy and very stressful” he patted his lap and I laid my head down. “I won’t hold back but I won’t hesitate to stop if it becomes too much, agreed?” he said stern. I answered yes and Tessa licked his hand as he played in my hair starting from the beginning.        

“We knew going in this was a direct link to who is behind murdering our families y/n, what we didn’t know is that it was a set up from the leader to lure us in after killing his brother and surprising us all with showing up himself to do Haz and myself in. He caught us by surprise and this is the result of a full on war fought over three weeks time.” he paused as I adjusted myself to the screen Haz turned on.

“Three weeks? You were gone over..” Toms jaw clenched before he gave it to me straight.

“The last week was spent getting out of their and back to you, back to Haz and you” he swallowed letting Haz take over.

“Angel target three is dead and so is one, forcing target two in the spotlight” Haz clicked the remote and a video of what I assume was the aftermath started to play. I watched the carnage without letting my emotions get the best of me. Most of it was blurred out, I assume this was edited only for my viewing. When the voice spoke I froze at the familiar icy tone. A voice I had only heard a handful of times in my life. One that I had left behind at 18. Robert aka my father!

I shot up as he came into view sitting in a room filled with light and a darken city below him.

“Tom and Harrison is it? Shit, I don’t know know if I should kill you or thank you for cleaning up the filthy mess that was my family” he smiled sipping dark liquid from a glass that I recognized from my childhood home. “Fact is, you did all the work for me that I had been setting up for years. I just have one more mistake that I would like you to handle, but it seems you might be handling her already..” I gasped as he held up a picture of me as a child in my mother's arms, taken from the audience after one of my dance shows. He held up so many pictures that flashed so many memories. Tessa barked at me as Monty licked my arms and whined for me to pet her fur. Then he held up pictures of us three on that island. Us three on the yacht as we docked for fuel. Us three in the paper when we made news for our outreach dance studio. I jumped out of my skin when he pounded his fist on the desk and threw the pictures all around him. I tried to snatch the remote as Haz paused it, shaking my head no violently. Tom forced my face to his and assessed my hot wet face. I was angry, confused but ready to hear this bastard out! Tom gave Haz a nod and he pressed play.

“You see fellas, I get your rage at my family for killing your family thing and I want you to know, I truly had no part in it. I was busy raising a child your age when all that went down.” he smirked at the camera, at me, knowing full well he had never raised me. “I lost track of my beautiful daughter at 18. Well honestly, I let her go. I was relieved when she was gone. She was a target painted on my back the day she was born. See my siblings knew with a target I could never run things, she would be used against me or create an unnecessary distraction. What they didn’t know is that I would have killed her myself if it was such a problem. But she wasn’t, always such a quiet mouse, like her sweet mother. Willing to let go of the past just to grasp the future.” he looked into the camera and let his words stir the feelings inside me. My balled fist wanted to attack him. To make him shut up, make him stop breathing. He held up a picture of us three on the dance floor, and I stopped breathing when I realized how close the person was who took the photo. We could have been killed then, so why not? Why not all those times as a child?

“I see you’ve been captured by her beauty fellas. Same as I was with her mother. She was my only weakness..they look so much alike, it’s why I let her go. I wanted her to live, for her mothers sake. Now, I just want us to come to an understanding. All this retaliation is over. You got what you wanted yes? And you have a very beautiful woman to keep you both warm at night yes? Take this as my only warning, you stay in your lane and I will stay in mine. If not I’ll make sure y/n will pay the fucking price for your mistakes. Same as her mother had to for my..lack of willingness in the family business. I’m sure you’ll let me know as soon as you get this message. I want you out of here in less than 24 hours, if not, you’ll both watch her plead for her life”

 The screen went blank and I sat there staring at it. Unable to process it fast enough. I tried to stand but one of them held me in place. I was numb, I couldn’t feel my own skin as I clawed at my face wanting to make this go away, to wake myself up! Haz tore my nails away from myself and my face felt like fire. I couldn’t focus all I could see was my mother covered in blood, Tom’s beaten up body. Harrison kept saying my name until I found his beautiful blue eyes. I wrapped myself in his arms knocking us over as I started to sob uncontrollably.

“Shh, it’s okay baby. Were all okay, it’s why Tom came home. We looked into his background, just like we did before and he’s telling the truth. Tom made the deal, to keep you safe. To keep all of us safe.” he said kissing my face, looking at the scraps from my nails as he sat us up.

Tom sat next to us and moved our hands to my belly. “I will forever make sure you are safe, both of you are safe. He’s being watched day and night without knowing we have an insider. If you want, say the word and he will be gone y/n.” his eyes met mine and his guard was down. I could see the hell and damage this last mission did to my TomTom and no way would I say yes to it again. Not now, not ever. I wanted this to be over. I shook my head no and reached for him.   

                  ~FAST FORWARD JUST AROUND 20 MONTHS~

Lily-Star Osterfield-Holland- blended from little savage-kinda- (don’t hate me) :)

“Lily-Star is getting a proper one year old birthday party Tom and Haz, its final. You can pick next years theme, if it's batman or spiderman fine, but this one is mine, she's still my baby.”

I looked over at Tom and our baby girl as they blew messy wet bubbles from their lips. She hummed at Tom as he lifted his eyes to argue the point and his attention went right back to her.  She had both of them whipped, more than I did.

“Whatever you say mum” Haz said wrapping his arms around me. “Can we at least pick out her mini cake?” he pouted

“I guess I can let you guys have that, me and Z will manage the rest.”

The next month we planned out the world's largest one year old party. Tom insisted since she was born June 1st at 11:59 pm that they would celebrate their birthdays together. Tom had been counting the seconds when I was in labor and had bet she would be born on his birthday, bonding them the most. She popped out 15 seconds before midnight struck, proving that she would have the say so and she's proven that point over and over as she's grown. Our hearts were full in our new home. Tom and Harrison had moved us to a secluded area and the team had houses on the same property. We even had hired security that patrolled our surroundings more than a queen and king would have. I didn’t care, I felt relieved the moment they were done with that life. With our baby girl turning one it was time to expand our family like we had all promised when I was pregnant with Lily-Star. Who’s ever baby this wasn’t, we would have another so that all of us could carry their family on. They both wanted multiple kids and growing up lonely as an only child I wanted more too. We had forever figured out, we wouldn’t let anything stop our happiness. Except the lack of her very first “mini-cake” Tom and Haz had forgotten to have delivered the day of her party!

     I walked into the living room where they both were baby talking to Lily-Star as she giggled and tried her best to take her first steps in between her daddy’s loving arms. Haz was the first to notice me standing there with my hands on my hips.

“Aww, wook Lily-Star, mum is mad at dadda, not Hazdadda but Tomdadda” he smiled as she repeated daa daa and squealed falling into Tom’s lap after one step. His blue eyes got wider as he understood he was in trouble too. “Aww, shit..were both in trouble Tom” he smiled as I kept my eyes on him.

“Language!” Tom said turning her towards Harrison now “You’ll give our baby a potty mouth before she turns the proper age babies in England are allowed to have! Wait, were born with one..sorry darling” Tom said smiling bigger than Haz was trying on me. I held up the party list that had everything crossed off except her mini-cake.

“You both asked to do it, so where is it? Party is in two hours Tom-dad and Haz-dad!” I asked slightly less irritated as I watched them be adorable with our baby girl. They exchanged looks and curse word at the same time. Harrison turned her back to Tom and stood up. “Y/N, I’m sorry...it was a pick up because of its shape. They didn’t want to risk it falling apart upon delivery. I’ll go grab it now and be right back.” Lily-Star started to whine for him and he struggled to keep his attention to me. This cuteness overload was killing me. Tom carried her over to us and she reached for him “Dadadadada” she hummed over and over until he took her.

“I’ll go guys, just please listen for the gate and don’t let me miss her first real steps okay?” I asked kissing all three of them. “Even if you have to record it, or I swear I’ll kill you both!” I slipped on my shoes and grabbed my keys.

“Hey..wait” Tom said as Haz went back into the living room “I know we have a deal and all but seeing how it’s my birthday week too, can I have some of your yummy cake solo tonight?” he said snaking his arm around me and bringing me in for a heated kiss that made my knees weak.

“Hum, only if I get to give you birthday spankings TomTom” I whispered kissing him back.

“Fuck yes!” he yelled as he pressed his hard on into me and backing us up against the wall.

“Less than two hours mom and dad!” Haz yelled from the living room making us crack up and break apart. “I love you my Osterfield-Holland family” I yelled as I darted out the door.

 I was blasting my favorite  playlist as I drove with the top down. It was a perfect spring day for my happy family. Sam was dating someone and it had become serious so he was bringing her today to introduce us. I made a mental note to pick up flowers just for her to make her feel welcome. I parked as close to the bakery as possible so the cake wouldn’t break in my hands during delivery. I paid for flowers and a box of condoms for the birthday boy, as they retrieved the cake from the back. The lady emerged with a box taller than Lily-Star herself!

“What in the hell dads?” I murmured to myself as she shifted it carefully into my arms with instructions to keep it cold until it was ready for consumption or it could fall apart.

I looked puzzled. As she opened it for final inspection and my approval I gasped in surprise. It was a standing angel cake with all our moms names written in a heart the angel held. I took a picture and sent it to them both thanking them for the tears! She handed me a tissue and she re-boxed it up. I was still overcome with emotions as she went to hand it back.

“You come here alone hunny?” she smiled and I shook my head yes. “Go pull the car around, I’ll carry it out for ya sweetie, I don’t want this to be dropped” I agreed and went out to the parking lot trying to wipe the tears that kept coming to my eyes. I jumped as I was blasted by a loud horn from a car that I nearly walked in front of as a woman yelled at me to pay attention. GET IT TOGETHER MUM! I smiled as I rounded the back of my SUV nearly bumping into a young man getting out of the passenger side of a van next to me. Geesh, I wasn’t focused. 

“Hello sexy, excuse me..wow, perhaps I should have let you brush that body against me” he said eyeing me up and winking at me. I just shook my head as an older gentleman appeared behind us, making me jump. ”I’m sorry miss, he’s only 16, just discovered he had a penis and clearly hasn’t learned how to talk to a lady. I give you my word he will never utter filthy things like that again, right son?” he scorned. The boy turned bright red as he apologized and opened my door for me. I thanked him and as I got in, the box of condoms fell on the ground. He leaned over and handed them to me. His father bent over laughing so hard it only made the situation worse. The mom in me felt bad for him, so I did something for the man he would be one day. I opened the box and ripped one off slipping it into his hand.

“You’ll have many more shots at beautiful girls if you learn to turn them on with your mind and your heart, keep this as a reminder that I told you so” I winked and he nodded “Thank you miss, I won’t forget” he smiled shy as I backed out and pulled around to the door. She rushed the cake out ordering me to get inside and turn on the AC to keep it cool. I giggled as she put the seatbelt around it’s base. I insisted she take my tip and after telling her my daughters cake was melting she accepted the 50 dollar bill and shut the door smiling. I smiled at the boy again as he was wrapped in her embrace and said hello to his mother. The dad waved at me and mouthed a thank you causing my eyes to water back up. I pulled away from the curb and headed home.

 My phone was ringing first Haz, then Tom, then Haz I sighed, picking it up in the middle of “Rihanna's birthday cake remix” putting together a dance for Tom was going to surprise him with tonight. “I’m on the way….” I was cut off as Tom ordered me to pull over now! I glanced behind me and the few cars around were all caught at a light. I slammed my brakes on and Haz hung up calling me right back on facetime “Look mum! Lily-Star is walking!” he shouted so happy. Tom walked a few feet in front of her and she took three wobbly steps before she stopped to balance herself. She looked at Haz too far away for her liking “Dadadada” she hummed showing her four little teeth in the process. Tom swapped phones as she took two more steps to Hazzi.

“Look our little princess is walking!” Tom smiled as he flipped the phone to his face. He was glowing as Haz stood next to him with her pulling his hair. “Mum Mum Mum” she hummed reaching for the phone. “I’m almost home my baby!” I laughed as Haz handed her off to Zendaya as Haz asked Z to put her party dress on. I heard her yell at him declaring it was because she made a poopy!

“Do you think we’ll ever use adult language again?” Haz asked Tom we all laughed as he answered only in the bedroom. This could never grow old.

“So you like her cake angel?” Hazzi asked, his blue eyes filling up my screen. I felt my heart swell knowing it was probably his ideal and Tom added the extra love. I turned the screen towards it and they laughed at the sight of it in the seat belt. Tom rested his head on Haz.

“I love it my Hazzi and TomTom, it’s perfect!” I sighed “I’ll tell you the story soon as I get home”

I peeked at the traffic and the light was turning yellow, giving me the almost clear sign to go.

“I love you Tom Osterfield-Holland and I love you Harrison Osterfield-Holland, I’ll see you..”

Before I could finish or hear their sweet voices again I was hit so hard the SUV was shoved up the hill and rolled onto its side. My phone was still attached to the dash so I could see both of their faces look in horror as I heard whoever hit me taking off, making their tires squeal. On Star came over the speakers notifying me help was on the way. Before I could respond there was another hard impact that shoved me back into the hill and the SUV rolled onto its roof. I could hear Tom and Harrison yelling they were already on the way. I could smell the liquids mixing with the sweet smell of our babies cake. I heard men shouting to get me out and be quick. I struggled to stay conscious as they kicked at the door pulling it open. I glanced at my phone as they reached for my seat belt and struggled with it. I kept my eyes on Hazzi’s as one said loud

“If they get here before we get out were dead!” one shouted “If we don’t bring his daughter back alive, were dead!” the one struggling with my seat belt demanded a knife to cut it. My eyes widen as Hazzis filled with tears “Were almost there angel” he said as I heard Toms Bugatti in the distance. They were so close.so.very.close. The man worked the knife against the seat belt and it gave way making me drop against the roof. I grabbed at Harrisons eyes as he pulled me from the smashed SUV. I couldn’t scream, I could barely breathe as he dragged me across the hard, glass covered pavement. And I was shoved into the back of a vehicle waiting on the opposite side of the road. The driver took off as my face was covered with a breathing mask forcing my lungs to inhale a gas. I heard gunshots as the car turned the corner and my world went dark.   

SIDE NOTE: Part 12 will be very soon, I’m very grateful for the ones who love this story with me, thank you for sticking with me this far! If it seems like you don’t know who little savagez daddy is, it’s for a reason and I did my job! I’d like to see your guesses but I don’t get much feedback so I can only hope :) 

*There is one clear nod at who her daddy is, let me know if you find it!* 

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“How many” I offered vs asked. “That doesn't count" he smiled loving my touch. “How many others” I said just above a whisper he bit his lip and didn't reply. “How many other woman Harrison” I asked sinking my body lower under the shield of bubbles. He did the same allowing me my space. He held my eyes as he answered securely “None that’s matter like you do. And never has a woman been on this yacht let alone my room or my tub if that's what your asking angel" he pulled me against his chest and we sat against the tub. “Tom and I forbidden it, you made us break our own rule y/n" he smiled against my shoulder kissing it sweetly. “You will in fact, break every single rule we had to protect ourselves from ever hurting our hearts again" he wrapped his long legs around me and started to wash my hair. I looked at him in the mirror as his eyes seemed to go to a far away place and he pinched his eyebrows together as he spoke “I was awkward growing up y/n. I wasn't the cool kid who had lots of friends and girls falling over them. I had Tom and his brothers, a few others but none I can name now. My body grew weird just like me” he laughed rinsing my long hair “I was a virgin until the summer of my graduating year, before my life went to shit" he said sliding under the water. He quickly lathered up his hair and I shaved my legs needing to hear everything he would tell me. I can't say why but with Harrison it mattered more than with Tom. Haz seemed vulnerable like me, perhaps it was part of my attachment to him. “I won't tell you Tom's story, it's his to tell. We handled our own grieving hell differently and however we seen fit I guess. I buried myself in becoming what I am today. I wasn't born to be what I am, sometimes I look in the mirror and the old me shivers at what looks back” he closed his eyes and disappeared under the water again. I sat on my knees to face him once he came up. “What exactly are you Harrison?” I said as he looked away and then back to me. His eyes were glacier cold, no warmth, no softness, no love...no Haz. “I'm a killer y/n" he looked up unable to watch my reaction as he told his story. “When my whole family was taken from me all I had were Tom and his brothers. I love them as if they are my brothers, but I couldn't help the loneliness I felt. I felt like I just followed where Tom led. Harry has always been a buddy to me but Sam can be cold at times. Needless to say, the moment we were presented with the truth of our fathers and a chance to revenge our family's deaths, Tom jumped pulling me right along, or I followed I can't remember anymore" he shook his head looking anywhere but at me. I pulled the plug and shut off the jets. I could tell he was growing anxious with nowhere to go. He looked at me with relief and I smiled knowingly. I stood up and he watched as I dried myself off. He grabbed my lotion out of my hands and ordered me to the bed. I dropped my towel and swayed my hips dramatically as I went in search of my clean clothes.

He dried off fast and was at my side quickly. “Here baby, where these” he said holding up soft batman pajama bottoms. I took them and laughed as he held up another pair “We can twin it, after I lotion you up" he said biting his lip. I slipped on my panties as he put on his batman pjs. “Is batman your favorite superhero?” I asked crawling to the middle of his xl king bed. His living quarters was built to fit him. It was almost a direct reflection of himself. Floor to ceiling was white marble with contrasts of royal and powder blues mixed with silver and dark gray furniture pulling it all into a crisp clean yet relaxing room. He had a beautiful view of the ocean through windows that practically went all the way around. There was a zero gravity chair that reminded me of a hammock. I made a mental note to test that out. He hit a switch that made the windows darken and the fireplace light up. I could hear the ocean fading as the window above the bed closed and turned into a mirror. “Wow, fancy" I said as he crawled to me planting a kiss on my bare tummy. “Wait until you feel the bed heat up” he said hovering over me. I blushed a little and smiled at the necklace he wore that I had gotten him, it tickled my skin ashe bent down and kissed my face with his soft lips. I twisted his wet hair in my fingers as he nibbled my ear then pulled away. “We've made you a naughty girl already” he smiled back as he ran cold lines of lotion down my naked chest, tummy and legs. “I have heaters in the mattress, I don’t like being cold” he smirked as my body responded to his touch. The lotion left my exposed skin cool and full of goosebumps as my back felt the warm bed under me. His long soft fingers massaged anywhere he touched. I was trying to be on my best behaviour, I knew there was so much more he wanted to tell me and I wanted to hear it all before he changed his mind. He rolled me over and made the same lines along my back, ass and legs. “Your so beautiful angel, inside and out” he kissed the small of my back and I pushed my body up on my hands and knees. FUCK ME! I needed to clear my head for him. I shot up from the bed “I need a drink, this bed is hot Haz!” he laughed as he rolled off the bed and walked to the mini bar. He pulled out two glasses with ice and offered me the choice of my ciroc or champagne. “Lets share” I said pointing at the ciroc. He poured and I slipped on one of his clean t-shirts and matching batman bottoms before moving to the couch closest to him. He still had a heavy look in his eyes and it was hurting me to see him like this, he tried to cover it with a smile “You look good in my clothes twin” he handed me my drink and stood against the bar crossing his legs swirling the clear liquor right before he downed it. Shit, I hope Ciroc was the right choice as I did the same. He refilled us and took a small sip..whew! “So tell me, what do you love about batman? I’m an Iron Man girl myself, or if a female superhero, Wonder Woman 100%” I said trying to not be obvious to wanting to talk about his troubles if he wasn’t willing.

“As a kid I’ve always loved him” he smiled before his eyes flashed to the glacier ice cold like they had in the tub, he downed the second glass and I did too, here we go, I thought to myself. Haz didn’t offer more as he started to pace the room. “As I was forced to become my own man so fast he became who, in my mind, I aspired to be like” he shook his head at the thought “Bruce Wayne is rich,charming and head smart in the daylight, at night he turns into a killer only hunting down the bad guys, hated by his own city he wants to protect just for trying to balance out the fucked up in Gotham, then he goes home to an empty house, sleeps and repeats. Story of my life!” He scooped out more ice and filled his glass. He paced back and forth the soft padding of his bare feet was the only noise before he continued. “I had to work extra hard to force myself into being a trained killer, it took me a lot longer than Tom. My heart wasn’t in it, or my head, I wanted to..believe me, FUCK, I was weak I suppose. I had to go through separate training than he did, once he surpassed me as usual, they seperated us to focus on our skill sets. I had to work out twice as hard, twice as much. To break me of my “warm heart” as they called it, they isolated me for weeks at a time in the coldest climates during my training. When I was allowed back around Tom they made sure I stayed in wet clothes as a reminder to not let myself feel or show my “warm emotions” I suffered the whole time we trained side by side, my weak self didn’t want to be without Tom, I also couldn’t let that show so I used it to fuel my brain to get through” his jaw tensed up and he took a long drink. On autopilot he filled us both back up. Wow, this was getting deep, perhaps liquor wasn’t the best for us. He let me take the bottle not even seeming to notice the movements. “I love Tom y/n, I’d give my last breath for him and not think twice. Don’t hate me for this, but if I don’t say what I’ve needed to for so long, I’ll never forgive myself” he said sweeping his eyes over mine and across my face waiting for the reassurance he needed “You can tell me anything Harrison, it won’t leave this room, I promise” he gave me a weak smile and started to pace again.

“Sometimes I felt like Toms fucking shadow. I’ve always been at his side, in his eyes I was his equal, but he don’t know the shit I used to get even growing up being his best friend. He was better at talking to people, he was popular with all the kids, he was better at sports and whatever else we did together. I never let it show because he always included me and made sure to push me so he could have me next to him. He meant it from his heart but others who noticed it let me catch hell for it y/n” he pulled his blonde hair hard as he let out a frustrated growl “I was having a hard time getting anyone to say yes to going to senior prom with me and as a way of helping, Tom convinced our parents to let us take dance lessons. As usual Tom had all the girls in the class flocking to him, even the one I had a secret crush on! I never even told Tom, I knew he would try to “help” me and no fucking way was that going to happen. The dance class ended up like most things did for me, I sat on the sideline and watched. I tried, but like I said before I have two left feet. I hid behind the scenes as the DJ and effects man. I helped make Tom look all the cooler to the my crush. My reward was her asking him to prom and he accepted. I spent that night drinking and hanging with his brothers. My brave ass little sister Charlotte who had a crush on Tom ended our night by kneeing him in the balls as he danced with the girl” he laughed pausing as he soaked in his emotions. It was clear he was drunk. “It was my sister who told Tom on our last holiday together the truth, little shit she was, even tougher than me now I bet...if she had been given the chance” he closed his eyes as one tear fell down his face. I stood up and he held his hand out to stop me. I stayed on the couch as my own tears fell. “The fucked up part of all this is that I’m the asshole in it, when Tom made me tell him the truth about taking my crush to prom and not telling him, he found a way that we both got our man cards that summer. And when Tom found out how they gave me special training through torture, he removed us from their clutches and started our own way to honor our family's.” I followed his teary eyes as they stared straight ahead, looking at himself through the now black windows that reflected like glass “He’s my best mate and brother, together we are the most lethal men on this earth, yet I’m afraid of who you might see when you look at me the way you do y/n. I’ve never crossed any lines without him except the ones we drew for you y/n” he shut his eyes tight “I knew from the moment we all met that things just shifted for us, it sounds so fucked up that him and I made a deal before you even knew how we felt about you y/n” he shook his head rethinking the memory “All my life, until we met you, I felt lesser than..” he choked out “Now with you, I see us all so happy, I don’t want to fuck this up for any of us” he started to crumble

I was already in front of him as he came crashing down. All those truths never spoken over so many years will drop us humans like that. I know from when I told them the truth of my darkest times of my life. I held him against me on the floor as he let go of his pain. When he was done I wiped his tears and looked into his eyes letting him know exactly who and what I seen was him.  One could say it was the Ciroc talking but my heart knew it was beyond that as I spoke it outloud first “I love you Harrison, who you are is my Batman, saving this world from the pain we all felt too early in life, you can never fuck this up for anyone, I promise” his eyes went wide as he let the words float inside his buzzing head he looked at my lips in disbelief “Say it again, please y/n” he said preparing himself. He held my face and his breath “I love you Harrison James Osterfield” his lips crashed into mine hard and he took my breath away as he kissed me deep with unbridled need. He broke away and held me tight to his pounding heart “I love you y/f/n y/m/n y/l/n” he held me for a few minutes before standing up and pulling me to our feet. I walked to the bed as he got us glasses of ice water. He set them down on the nightstand and embraced me in his arms. “Thank you for just listening to me angel, I can’t tell you how much lighter I feel being able to tell someone all of that. I’ve never told a soul, just held onto it like an anchor” I turned into his arms and held tight to him, my head listened to his steady heart and it gave me relief “I really do love you Harrison, you're the first soul outside of my mom I’m able to say that to” he kissed my face soft “I love you just as much angel”

I slipped away from him and he watched me going through all my stuff looking for my phone and ipod. He shook his head laughing when I held them up with a victorious squeal. He held me close as I snapped our picture as twins. I hit record as we said our I love yous again. What can I say, I’m a moments girl at heart! He led me to his system and I selected my place list titled heart. “I’ve been meaning to ask you why your like the only person in the world left that has an ipod and why do you have so many playlist?” he chuckled as I gave him a playful dirty look “Haz

I’m a free spirit. My body is just the shell and my soul drives it through music. Music is my drug of choice. You’ll see as we learn more about each other, I’m my mother's daughter, I was a dancer even in her belly, it’s why she nicknamed me tiny dancer” I smiled as I walked slowly to him, he was going into deep thought mode “Don’t worry I’ll teach you to dance Haz, I’ve accepted it as my heavenly duty” he shook his head in disbelief as I stroked the skin along his spine “I already told you love, I’m a lost cause, I’ve got two..” I cut him off placing my finger against his soft lips “That's my job, I’d tell you if you were a lost cause, I already know your not” He held my gaze trying to believe I wasn’t just saying it to make him feel better. “Want me to prove it?” I asked soft not wanting to lose him to his past insecurities and wanting to give him strength to leave his demons behind, like him and Tom had for me. “You have rhythm Harrison and your not afraid to let loose” he rolled his eyes trying to not smile “Think about us in that bar our first night, you danced with me then. And lets not forget how perfectly you fit against me as we danced back at our hut, just before you gave me my first orgasm, and you might not have noticed but your dancing with me right now” his flesh felt warmer under my fingertips and he smiled big as he realized it was true. We were slowly swaying to the beat of  “Bad Romance the live remix” by 30 Seconds to Mars. He quickly lifted his shirt off my body and kissed my neck sexy and slow still rocking his hips to the rhythm. I felt his cock grow as the Haz I knew came back. “I always wondered what you would like” he whispered kissing my lips smiling his bright sexy smile. I raised my eyebrows in question “My forever..and now I know” His words triggered the Haziness chemicals in my brain and I felt my core heat up, needing all of him.

* Smut...starts here..swim away...swim away*

He backed us up slow until the back of my knees hit the bed and he held onto me so I wouldn't fall away from his lips. He kissed and licked lower between my breast as “Alibi” by 30 Seconds to Mars played in the air. He took my panties and pjs off in one motion kissing my hip and coming back to my breasts. He traced them slow as he took them in with wide eyes. I remembered this was his first chance to touch me here due to his punishment for breaking rules, Harrison was a breast man for sure. He placed light wet kisses around one nipple as his skilled fingers caressed the other one. I was lost just watching him as he slowly cherished me in this moment. My heart was marked again as he looked in my eyes as if to ask my permission. “Make love to me Harrison, please” I said soft tracing his lips and biting my own. He made me gasp as he scraped his teeth along my neck and his necklace make my hot skin tingle. “1 +1 ” started to play by Beyonce and I closed my eyes as he took control of my body the way he wanted. His more than expert hands slid under me forcing my back  to arch my breast right into his waiting and wanting mouth. I grabbed his hair as sucked hard on one and pinched the other enticing..new word.. Pain and soothing it as he rolled it between his soft fingers. I opened my eyes as he repeated the same hunger need on my other breast and nipple. I covered my eyes with one hand as I noticed the mirror above us and adjusted to me looking back at him from a different view. His back muscles flexed as he moved his body lower kissing my stomach, fuck he was sexy. I have to admit it was distracting but hot as sin. 

Harrison ignited me and seemed to lick at the flames he brought about. I sat up on my elbows watching him as he caressed my skin with his tongue. His blue eyes reminded me of the hottest part of a fire as he scorched my soul, his eyes danced with mine. He slid off the bed and pulled me to the edge. I sat up looking down on him on his knees. He was leaning back looking at my body in fascination. I closed my eyes as he kissed each inner thigh making me spread my legs for his viewing pleasure. He ever so gently kissed above my sensitive nub and rested my feet on the edge of the bed frame making me more exposed to him. I gripped his hair as he blew his breath on my wet sex. “Fuck I want to taste you baby, is that okay?” he asked looking at me with hooded eyes. I moaned in response biting my lip and arching my back. I flashed hot as he inhaled my scent “Your smell so delicious angel” I closed my eyes in embarrassment but opened them just as quick as he claimed my sex with his mouth. He flattened his tongue along my silky slit and licked up to the top my clit. “Please..please don’t stop Harrison” I begged holding his hair tighter. He looked up at me and I couldn’t look at anything but the way his soft lips cupped my pussy and sucked on it forcefully yet tender. I rocked my hips to ride his beautiful mouth. I watched his face become wetter with my sex and it turned me on all the more “Harrison I’m so close” I cried out in pleasure. “I love the way you scream my name y/n” he moaned sliding in a finger right towards my G spot. I swear the room went black and I almost fell forward. He held my neck keeping my body straight as he fingered me at a steady pace. His thumb worked my nub in vigorous circles and he slid in another finger. “Fuck your so tight and so so wet baby” I struggled to keep my eyes open as I felt the wave coming fast. I tried to close my legs, I wasn’t ready to let go of this Haz high yet. “Please Harrison..Harrison..” my eyes rolled into my head as he fucked me with his fingers and his tongue making me come undone. “Yes y/n, feed me baby” he moaned as I rode his face faster. I watched as my sex soaked his face and fingers. He was a sexy sticky mess and the look in his eyes told me he wasn’t even close to being done with me. “Your beautiful when you come like that” he said husky as he leaned against me and pressed his face to mine. I could smell my juices on him and I kissed him deep wanting to taste me in his mouth. It was intoxicating. I broke the kiss and moved my body back into the center of the bed waiting on my knees as I touched my breast for him. Harrison stood up from the floor and admired me some more. I would never grow tired of the way he adoringly looked at me. He made me feel both beautiful and sexy. I watched as he slid off his batman pjs and whimpered at his long smooth cock that sprang free.

“Your the beautiful one Hazzy” I said biting my lips. He took a deep breath and let it out shaky as I looked at him with my hungry eyes. FUCK, I’ve wanted this man since I first felt his skin against mine on that hot day as I held him in my hands, I felt my core heat with the memory. “Dress” by Taylor Swift swirled around us as I patted the bed in front of me and his face flushed red. I reached for him as he hesitated, unsure of what to do “My turn to taste you Harrison” I said in a persuasive tone. My eyes were fixated on his as he reached for me in return. He laid on his back and his cock stood at attention. He gripped it in both hands as if to hide it from me. “Harrison” I said looking at him in amusement with his eyes closed. “Hazzy” I said kissing his neck, trying to relax him and ease whatever he was feeling. He let go of himself and pulled me closer to his face “You don’t have to do this baby” he said sounding unsure of himself. “I know Haz, but I want to, just like I wanted to on that hot hot day on the jet ski” I watched him gulp down his fear as he remembered that day “I need all of you Harrison, every fucking drop” I said seductive moving my fingertips to his exposed cock and closed my eyes as I felt his drop of precum that beaded at the tip. I sucked my finger that held his creamy drop. He let out a throaty groan and watched me as I slowly kissed his chest and worked my way down his tan hard body with my wet sloppy kisses. His breathing became shallow and I kissed each hip and put my palm flat onto his sexy stomach sliding it under his erection and up towards my lips. He looked at me wide eyed ready to stop me, before he had time to react I circled his thick head with my wet warm tongue and took him as deep as I could before choking. “Fuckkkk..” he hissed as I adjusted my head and angled it to take more of him in. I used my thumb and finger to work his head applying pressure around the rim as i licked his shaft soaking him with my mouth. His hips thrusted upwards as I ran my nail over his sensitive sac and swirled the pool of saliva  very carefully over his nerves that clung to his balls. I worked him from the base up with my other hand and squeezed his length tight as he rocked his hips up and down with my rhythm. His eyes were shut tight and his mouth was wide open as he held tight to control his release. I pressed my hand down hard on his lower abdomen muscles stopping his movements. “We have a long way to go Harrison, let me take you there” I said as he opened his eyes. He was worked up, I know he couldn't hold back much longer. He pushed my long hair out of his way so he could watch as I replaced my hands with my mouth. I kissed his head and ran my sexy tongue through his cum that secreted out. My eyes met his as I moaned at his sweet taste, they were dark with desire, his pupils were fully dilated only allowing a hint of sky blue. I opened my mouth wide and kept eye contact as I took his entire length to the very back of my throat. He gripped my hair and held me there for a fraction of a moment. He blew out a breath as I tasted more of him. My eyes burned and I felt them water as he withdrew himself slightly. I felt my sex twitch as he said pleaded so sexy. “Y/N I cant hold on like this” he panted I worked my head up and down faster keeping pressure on his tip with my thumb making sure he let me have control of his release. “y/n..y/n..” he whimpered as he started to rock his hips again. Haz was coming undone. I moved my hand and worked his cock feverishly as he gripped the sheets hard in his hands. I closed my eyes and opened my throat wider to let him explode in my mouth. “I’m going to cum, fuck I’m going to cum in your mouth angel” he gripped my hair in his hands keeping my head still as he thrusted once more. He screamed my name making his voice crack as he erupted his hot cream inside my mouth. My eyes widen as I looked at him coming undone. He was a beautiful mess, his eyes looked from mine to his cock still pulsating in my mouth. He traced my neck with his finger seeming just amazed as I felt. He gasped as I increased the pressure on him with my tongue, squeezing out the last drops as I slowly removed him. He shivered involuntary as I sat back admiring my work. He was glistening with sweat and covered his eyes with his arm as he caught his breath. I closed my legs feeling my sex pooling at my opening. I was a hot mess too.

I drank water to cool me down. I wanted to keep going, I needed more, it was never enough. Perhaps they had turned me into a naughty girl,I laughed to myself. What's funny he asked taking the glass from my hands and downing the rest. I shook my head as he rubbed the cold glass against my nipples. The drops of precipitation ran down my stomach and he watched raising his eyebrow as he noticed my glistening sex. “Lay back all the way y/n” he commanded. I did as told and he kissed me greedily his cold tongue mixed with my hot one made me tingle. “I want you inside me Haz” i said as licked down to my erect nipples. “You will baby, very soon, but first I want to take care of this” he said pinching my swollen nub and making me squirm from under him. He held my hips keeping me in one spot as he set the cold glass on my belly button. I sucked in a deep breath at the shock of the feel being too cold for my hot hot skin. “Too cold” I yelped reaching to move the glass. He hovered over my body pinning both my arms over my head. “Haz please” I whined as it started to numb my flesh “Let's make a deal angel, the faster you cum in my mouth again, the faster you can have me inside you” he bit his lip as he rubbed his hard cock against my wet sex. SHIT. I hadn’t know he was that close and hard again. I arched my back to get more of a feel of him. The glass nearly fell over and he stopped it. He took out a ice cube and rolled it around each nipple making me shiver. “What are you doing Haz?” I asked confused going into sensory overload. “I’m enjoying you angel, now tell me we have a deal” he said sucking my pebbled freezing nipple into the heat of his mouth. “Oh, wow” I said loving the contrast. “We have a deal” I agreed as he took out another ice cube and trailed in down my stomach “the only rule is that you can’t knock this glass over or I won’t let you cum, okay baby?” he asked as my body reacted to the melting ice on my burning flesh. I whimpered in agreement just needing him to touch me in any way. He placed the ice in his mouth and gilded it across the skin of my inner thighs. I learned quick that if I moved even to watch him or grab his hair the glass would threaten to fall over. FUCK, this would be harder than I thought! I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing, wondering how the hell this would play out. He dipped his finger in the glass making it cold before slipping it inside me without warning. “Harrison” I cried out restricted in movement as he made quick work of my pool of warmness. “Yes baby, be my good girl” he encouraged as he rubbed his nose over my throbbing nub. I panted as he slipped in another finger and angled his wrist tapping my g-spot. “This isn’t fair” I cried out as he pressed against my pelvic bone creating a pressure that I’ve never felt before. My body was demanding me to ride his fingers but he had forbidden me to and restrained my movements. I was going crazy trying to just let him do all the pleasuring. “Harrison I can’t I can’t” I groaned out feeling tortured “you can y/n, you can,I can feel you already gripping my fingers” he encouraged kissing my thigh. I heard the clink of ice as my beating heart roared in my ears. My eyes shot open when I felt him rub the ice around my sensitive clit. “Holy FUCK, Haz please please” I begged asking for help. I had blocked out the mirror until now and watched helplessly as his arm muscles flexed with each thrust his fingers gave me. I opened my legs wider to get a view of more as he slipped the ice inside me cooling my sex just as I was ready to explode “No no no!” I cried at the way it caused my wave to recede instead of crash down. “Don’t worry y/n, your Hazzy has you covered” he said before assaulting my clit with his hot mouth. He sucked my nub hard into his mouth and flicked his tongue over and around it as he removed his fingers as my wave rolled in too fast. I gave zero fucks as I grabbed his hair knocking the glass over and down my hot sex and his face. He moaned as I sat up and grinded my core against his lips and face hard. I came with such a force that it ran down my ass and soaked him and the bed. He lifted my body more on him letting me fuck his beautiful face however I wanted. He rubbed my silk against my ass and lightly pressed just the tip of his finger inside while his thumb and tongue filled my kitty. My eyes rolled back into my head as I came again back to back. I was screaming his name and I didn’t care if the rest of the world could hear me, I felt like I was never going to stop.

He didn’t give me a moment to even catch my breath before he removed his face from my legs and kissed me with uncontrollable hunger. We both gasped for air as he drowned me in my own juices. I wrapped my legs around Hazes back and reached for his long cock. No way was he stopping us now. I rubbed him against my opening soaking him before I wrapped my arms around his back. He kissed me deep as I pulled him down on me and arched my back so he was at my entrance. He circled his thick head through the ocean he created himself. He slid in slow and I scratched his back moaning into his mouth as I stretched to fit him. He broke away and buried his face in my neck. “Y/N I want to go slow, but I’m not going to last” his apology softly laced with unraveling control. He let out a harsh breath as he carefully sank deeper and slowly pulled back, pumping himself just once, hitting my wall and pushing against it until he was all the way inside me. My walls gripped him as did my nails into his arms. He whipped his face towards me looking panicked as if he remembered this was still painful for me. His whole body and mood changed in a heartbeat and I held him to me before he broke us apart. “It’s okay Haz, just stay like this for a moment” I said wrapping my legs tight around his ass so he wouldn’t pull out. “Angel, I’m sorry, I got carried away” he said sounding panicked and worried. “Harrison please...please baby, it’s okay, just let me adjust okay?” I asked kissing his shoulders. His blue eyes watched me with concern as I moved my ass upwards taking some pressure off my core he was buried against. I let out a sharp breath as I rolled my hips in circles forcing my body to adjust to his length. The more I did the more my sex opened for Haz. He stayed still probably afraid to hurt me if he moved. I moved one hand to his blonde hair guiding it to my breast and my other hand coaxed him to pump slow as I gripped his side. “Make love to me Harrison, I want you” I encouraged as he looked at my face. He kissed me full of passion as he circled his cock around and pushed in and out slowly. I could hear the noises from my wetness as he slipped in and out. I looked up in the mirror and watched his back muscles work as he kissed my breast and slid his arms under my shoulders. His ass was rock hard as he tested his new fit softly pumping in and out. I closed my eyes as I nearly came watching him making me feel so fucking good. He must have felt me hold back because he moaned at the same time. “Deeper Haz, deeper” I cried out as he bit my neck. “I’m going to cum inside you if I do that, I’m too close” he warned looking in my eyes. I bit my lip as he thrusted a little harder. He circled my nub pumping his full length into me, fuck it hurt so good “Yes Haz yes” I screamed as he brought me to climax again. He lost control as he buried himself inside me and moaned my name. He held me still as we both felt him pulsate inside me. He stayed there in my arms until we started to drift off into sleep. He groaned as I slid him over grabbing the edge of the sheet, he wined in protest until he understood what I was doing. I kissed his forehead and raised the temperature of his bed warmer and turned off the lights with one remote. He smiled against my back as he pulled me into his body. “I love you so much y/n” he whispered tangling his long legs with mine I kissed his hand and placed it back on my waist “I love you too Harrison”   

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To all us Tom and Haz lovers, the struggle is strong! In bed with one and wanting the other is torture! I’m going to need some guidance on how to get us all together lol..I have a few ideals, but happy reading until next time! 

“Mine” Tom said at the exact same time Harrison said “Dibs”  They looked at each other in surprise and back to me as if I had an answer.

I shook my head and grabbed a glass of ice and poured my Ciroc slowly as they watched and waited. I leaned against the counter and crossed my legs feeling the wetness already brought on by the way they were looking at me.

“Perhaps tonight I get what I want” I said slow with intent looking at Tom first. He shook his head no before the words came out, he always said no “I want you both or I sleep alone” I winked

“Hey that's not fair angel!” Harrison said playfully pouting as he walked over to me in his all black suit. His eyes grew heavy as he traced the tops of my breast with his soft finger tips that sparkled with glitter lotion.

“Perhaps we could just meet Tom at the party, we could be a little late” his voice was laced with desire and it make my sex throb with need.

Tom cleared his throat in an agitated tone. I locked eyes with him as I drank my glass down and Haz refilled it. I raised my eyebrows at Tom letting him know I understood I was pushing his limits. I shook my head as I smiled at him loving the way he just took control of my body as it shifted to wanting rough sex only he could give me. I was dancing on the edge of darkness with Tom and I loved it. He looked away trying to hide his grin as he adjusted his hard on.    

“Yeah your right Hazzi, but I have to make it fair and I’m not choosing between my sexy savagez, so we can sleep together as always but you both have to keep your hands off me when I make myself cum, if either of you can’t handle that then, you’ll need to stay in your own big boy beds” I downed my second glass and headed out to the limo as they shook their heads.

It was packed with people we knew and some we didn't. But all were thoroughly checked with tight security. I swear I always felt more guarded than the queen of England herself. But even the queen was visible to the eyes of all that surrounded her and as for me tonight, I felt a lot of eyes on me. The looks I got from eager attractive eyes caused Tom to yank me against his side as we walked straight in and up to the VIP area. I giggled into his neck as held me against him overlooking the packed club. Haz passed us drinks and snaked his arm around my waist pulling me in for a quick kiss. Tom followed with one of his own. They were making it known I was spoken for, as if anyone would even test them. The thought made me giggle again.

“Don't think for a fucking second I won't kill them just for looking at you like that" Tom growled in my ear making me feel that primal beast in him, this mood made him fuck me the hardest. His hands slid down my arms, onto my hips and he gripped them making me bend forward just enough to show me, in these new heelz, I was at perfect height to get fucked right here. I quickly grabbed his hand and pushed it away as he discovered I wasn’t wearing panties.

I moved into Harrisons arms before Tom could take me out of here and punish me. Haz must have known as he shielded me from Toms wrath. I stuck my tongue out at Tom and Haz kissed my forehead, he mouthed MINE to me and smirked. We were surprised from behind as Zendaya hugged Tom tight breaking his controlling glare that was making me melt between my legs. She pulled us all in for hugs and pictures as we started the night off right.

We spent almost the entire time in VIP. It was nearing midnight and it was Z’s pleading that let my buzzed savagez give in to letting us all go downstairs to dance before the foam countdown that started in an hour. If they dance with me, this will go down as the best party ever, and possibly our best night! I had to act quick if I really had any shot of getting them the way I truly craved.

“Let us dance and you men buy drinks, don’t worry, we can handle any trouble” I smiled as we grinded to the beat. Tom shook his head no but at least made a compromise.

One thing was certain. Tom and Harrison would never leave me by myself in this place. Not for a second. They already knew there wasn’t a guy with balls big enough to even try to hit on me me while my possessive savagez were hovering. But they would never risk it.

“Haz you stay here, I’ll grab drinks” Tom gave me a knowing glance. I was drunk and on cloud nine. “I’ll be right back Starling, then we’ll dance” He kissed me slow and deep. I stood there frozen wanting more as he turned and disappeared.

I danced with only Z as poor Harrison stood there like a bodyguard, just watching me. We had been working on his rhythm and I knew he was itching to to dance with me. So I lured him in.

Haz was so irresistibly sexy, my hands reached out to touch every inch of his hard body. We were hidden by the dancing crowd, the bodies moving like waves in a ocean under the pulsating lights. I could feel my body wanting to give in to the sexual tension I have fought all night. My mind, heart and body wanted them both so fucking bad, but knowing it would never happen and it left me frustrated. I had even avoided all contact with them the last hour before we came to the dance floor. I knew this feeling of wanting them both would pass. I just didn’t want to keep tourchericzzhing myself with the thought. Now here I was looking at my Hazzi like a snack after TomTom just reignited the desire, FUCK. Harrison kissed my neck soft and nibbled my ear.

“Shit Hazzi, I can’t stay focused out here, we should wait for Tom” I said as he rocked his hips against mine to the beat. He bit his lip and shook his head no, pulling me into him harder. I pulled back, scanning the sea of bodies for Tom. Haz held my face and tilted my chin towards the far side of the dance floor. Tom smiles at us and mouths MINE, as lifts a glass of beer to his lickable lips. His elbow rests on a table next to him, with two more drinks. His dark ruby red suit is unbuttoned at the neck. If there’s any emotion in his beautiful scowl, I don’t see it. Either i’m really drunk or Tom is truly expressionless, almost stern, he’s so hard to read. I have second thoughts about dancing, he has me disoriented yet again. Then he winks, and everything inside me melts. Fuck, he’s sexy, and he knows it. So does every woman in the club. Two girls start circling, creeping in from both sides, trapping him, so they thought. When they reach him, their lips move at different times, no doubt offering him the best of themselves at one time. His jaw twitches as his eyes never leave mine and Tom doesn't respond to them. So they follow his eyes and frown at me as I mouthed MINE. They must have had something to trigger him. Because the glare he shoots at them widens their eyes. I almost feel bad for them as they turn and stomp away.

“Come on y/n” Harrison raises his voice above the music as (Dangerous Woman by Ariana Grande) pumping through the air “Dance with your Hazzi”

I unglue my feet from the sticky floor and follow him deeper into the dance floor chaos. When he slows at the center, I keep going, pulling on his hand and bouncing to the music. I came here with two men, and I want to see them both have fun. So I head toward the far edge and stop a few feet from Tom. My brown curly haired savage licks his lips and gives me a commanding nod that tells me to dance. I find the beat, mentally tapping out the count and moving my drunk and limber body in motions designed to stir both their desires. The movements start with my head and work their way down to my feet. A hair toss, hip roll, and step together. I feel it, work it, and strip the last of my inhibitions beneath Toms heated gaze. Harrison dances around me, keeping it clean as he tries to not be insecure with his newly found ability to dance. He doesn't know that the 10 eyes around us are all women and they are watching him, wanting a shot at catching his sky blue eyes. When it comes to a man dancing in a club, less is more, and he has that figured out. He puts his personality into it, and every move has swagger mixed with a cute shyness. And he gains more attention as he loses himself in the lust he's feeling for me. His soft hands go up my sides and he rubs his fingers on my exposed neck as he moved my hair to the side and kissed it soft. Harrisons mouth licks and bites my flesh in a sensual pattern lick, bite, lick, bite. Every action is delieberte, sensual, and undeniably confident. I close my eyes as my breathing becomes labored. He moves his hips to the beat and l moan out loud at his hard cock. Damn, he knows what he’s doing. Whenever he stops one action, he makes sure he’s touching me somehow, always keeping the connection. He turns me to face him and my eyes fly open as our flush bodies melted together. He grabbed my thigh and lifted my leg. My naked kitty was glistening with my silky wetness and he kissed me as he dry fucked me slowly on that dance floor. I lost all sense of where we were as he held my body hard against him and rocked his cock up and down, making me moan into his mouth. He broke the kiss and set my leg down, making sure he held me up as I gathered myself. I rested my flush face on his shoulder and he kissed my face. I let out a flustered sigh, my body was on fire.

“I’m sorry, I just got lost in the moment y/n” he said rubbing my face as he noticed how far gone I looked. “I can sneak you outta the back, just say the word” he smiled sweetly

“Toms going to kill us” I said peeking over his shoulder in Toms direction. Yep there he was, watching every moment. He was drinking his beer and chewed his lip as we locked eyes.

(Cookie by R Kelly) fuels the room, charging the air with seductive energy.  I point my finger at Tom, mouthing, “dance with me” The corner of his frown twists upward, but he doesn’t move. Stubborn man. He can fight it if he likes, but I’m going to lure him in. I turn around, find his dark eyes over my shoulder, and worked my ass just for him. That earns me a real smile, inspiring me to work my ass to the floor, low, lower. Then I slide back up. And come face to face with Harrison.

Perspiration glistens on his forehead, his breathing is heavy and his body is burning with hunger. I rock my body up against him and he put his hand on my ass. He grips it hard, grinding with me in time with the music. Bump, bump, bump, we’re caught in it. Contagious, suggestive, the bumps roll into waves that ripple down our bodies. My hand falls to his shoulder, and his arms hang at his sides and slightly behind him, giving me full access to his hard sexy body. I indulge, drifting my other hand down his abs, tracing his muscle through the shirt, and lingering on the button of his pants. I bite my lip looking at his cock at full attention, SHIT, I want him right here. He leans in, leans out, putting a sexy roll into it. With each movement forward and back, he grows closer, smoother, sliding up against me. Then we’re grinding again, feeling the same rhythm and motion, and dancing as one. This is where it’s at. The sizzling burn. The fire and thunder that started before we had left for the club. Our hips locked together. Our eyes connect, and I’m buzzing, lost in the lusty blue of his gaze. He doesn’t just look at me. He eats me alive with his eyes. My pulse quickens. My blood pumps, hot and fast, beneath my skin. The rock of his pelvis controls the pace of my mine, and his hands caress my back, molding around my waist, and slipping down inside my bare thighs, I toss my head back welcoming the touch. Then there are four hands. My gaze flies to Haz, but I don’t need to see his relaxed expression to know who’s behind me. I’m intimately familiar with the touch of those fingers, above where Harrison has his hands, stopping the free show of my naked skin with dominating pressure. The scent of my TomTom warms my senses as he slides up behind me, gripping my hips and taking control. He slows it down. Sets the pace. Pulls me closer. Grabs me a little tighter. And lets me feel his rhythm. And his hardness. I tremble as my breaths grow faster. What are they doing to me? Harrison moves in, pressing his chest to mine and holding my face in his hands. His gaze is electric, sparking with desire. As hard as I look, I don’t see jealousy or frustration. His smile’s too bright. But those blue eyes are deep orbs of trouble. Doesn’t matter that I’m with both of them tonight. He’s going to tease me until I’m dripping, and it’ll run down my legs because FUCK, I’m not wearing panties. He rocks against me, sandwiching my body between him and Toms. His rhythm is faster, like the beat but not like the hips crushed against my ass. Tom tightens his grip, tries to take back control. But Harrison changes it up, drops it here, stops it right there, and returns to a slow grind. They go back and forth, fighting for the lead in our erotic dance. Pushing and pulling. Slowing down and speeding up. Until a beautiful thing happens. Our rhythm syncs, and our hips grind in unison, as if connected, like our souls. They stop fighting and work together, falling into the perfection that was us. I’m in heaven. Nothing is sexier than dancing between my savagez who want me as much as I want them. Harrisons smile. The press of Toms hands. The heavy sounds of their breaths. The sexual way they move against me. I could do this forever. Tom maintains the connection by leaning around me to see my face. I lean back, keeping my hips pinned between theirs and holding his gaze. We dance like that through several songs before taking a break to catch our breaths and drink. Then we dance some more. The longer I’m held between them, the bolder my hands become. Strong necks, hard pecs, muscular forearms with pulsing veins, swollen cocks. I touch them everywhere, rubbing, caressing, stroking. I’m burning up, soaked between my legs, and shaking with the impossible need to fuck them. Their own arousal vibrating through their bodies doesn’t help. They seem to have forgotten each other, their mouths and hands aggressively focused on me. When Harrisons lips capture mine, I tense up and try to pull back. He grips my neck and deepens the kiss, chasing my tongue and going wild. Then Tom is there, taking my mouth from Haz and stealing his own kiss before Haz takes it back. They pass me between them, over and over, controlled by a desire that grows greedier by the second. We continue to dance, three souls spiraling in a private world of kissing, neck licking, lip biting, and ass grabbing. Whatever this is, it’s reckless, carnal, dangerous, just like our love for each other. And we don’t seem capable of stopping. It’s too powerful, too deliciously tempting as it wraps around us and attempts to break every rule. The energy between us crackles across my skin, turning the longing inside me into a physical ache. I’ve never experienced sexual tension like this. It seethes and growls like a wild animal, as it follows us off the dance floor and stays with us during the ride home.

Harrison opens the door for me and Tom climbs in first pulling me next to him as the door closes. I squirm between them, clenching my thighs together and seeking relief. The only release for what I need is in the form of two tense men next to me. Neither of them speak or make eye contact. The phone sounding breakable beneath Harrison’s grip, and I’m not sure Tom is even breathing. I’m too drunk and hot for this nonsense.  

 “Is it just me, or is there a lot of tension in here?” I giggled. Silence. More tension. Then Harrisons eyes find mine in the flashing lights from the street. “I call dibs on the cold shower.” I arch my brow. He returns his attention to the road and tightens his grip on my now bouncing knee. I need one of those sweet hugs from Haz that turns into a primal fucking against the wall that Tom loves to give me. I want their hands on me, pulling my hair and forcing my legs open. I want them to fuck me like they hate me. It’s physically painful to just sit here, staring at their rigid bodies and breathing in the testosterone too thick for this confined space.

By the time the limo pulls into our driveway, my face is flushed and my thighs are drenched. Leaping out of it, I dart toward the door with thoughts of self-pleasure in a cold shower. When I step into the kitchen, an arm grabs my waist. My feet lose contact with the floor, and I’m tossed over a hard, broad shoulder. “Harrison!” I grip the back of his shirt and squirm to get free. “What are you doing?” He carries me through the living room, caressing a hand up the back of my thigh. With my head hanging upside down, I watch us fly up the stairs to the hall outside of my bedroom, the one we all share. I’m straining my head up to look for Tom. He’s going to be heated. They might even fight..FUCK ME..not that, anything but that!

“Not cool Hazzi” I take in a sharp breath as Harrisons fingers sink into my sex, sliding through my wet silk and pinching my clit. “Fuck, angel” he whispers in a half moan “You’re so wet baby”

 I brace my hands on his back and lift my head, meeting sinfully dark brown eyes. “Tom?” His scowl is deep, but I can’t read its meaning. Harrison’s fingering my pussy right in front of him, and he’s not stopping it. Instead, he slowly trails behind us and unbuttons the cuffs on his shirt with methodical flicks of his rough fingers. I narrow my eyes at him, and he narrows his right back. Something shifts, in the depths of his eyes and the tick of his perfect jaw. Something carnal and tameless. His expression darkens, and he is loving that even though I’m being fingered by Haz,  I’m waiting for him to tell me it’s okay. He smirks as he storms past Haz and leads the way to the bedroom. SHIT, my head spins as I feel a slap on my naked ass. They laugh together.

 I know things got out of hand on the dance floor. Wild and uncontrolled, we worked ourselves to a feverish ache. As I hang upside down over Harrisons shoulder, my fingers tingle with the need to touch. A fluttering ache persists in my chest, and there’s another, more demanding beat thats throbbing between my legs. But Haz and Tom can’t possibly intend to do anything about it. Not in the ways I fantasized during the ride home. Right? Right. They don’t share, TOMTOM don’t share. Haz carries me into the bedroom and drops me on the bed. I land on my back, and he follows me down. His expression is pure needing lust, I’ve never seen this look from him, his hands move like charged static as he pulls on my dress and hikes it up my hips. I twist my head, seeking Tom, but he’s already here, falling on me with ferocious caresses and a starving mouth. “You’re not..” I gasp at the sharp scrape of Toms teeth against my ass. “We can’t..” Haz devours my words, plunging his tongue past my lips and swallowing my air. I squirm and writhe between them, clamping my legs together, desperate to be fucked while struggling to slam on the brakes. Haz  works my dress over my chest, my head, and off, leaving me completely bare, except my heels. Then his hands are everywhere, stroking my hips, my thighs, and between my legs while Tom kisses me breathless. Their hot mouths and impatient fingers flood me with warmth and loosen my knees. I want this but we can’t do this. Tom will resent it the most. They’ll hate each other, most likely me. I try to break the kiss, but it’s Tom who presses closer, harder, tangling our tongues. I try to wriggle away, but I’m out matched, overpowered. Four hands. Two mouths. One of me. Harrison moves down my body, licking and nuzzling my hips as he caresses me from chest to toes as he removes my heels. When Tom releases my lips to bite my neck, I find my voice. “Why are you doing this? You’ll regret..” Tom grips my throat in a familiar iron fist. “Shut the fuck up.” His tone and the heat of his command, I’m a slave to it. I quickly use our safe rules from our private moments when Tom’s being too rough as I scratch his wrist that holds my neck too tight and he lightens the pressure just enough to allow me to breath again.

“Do something for me y/n.” he said in a seductive tone and I look away feeling so confused.

Harrison climbs over me, his fingers sliding down the zipper of his pants, next the button. I whimper, flicking my gaze between him and Tom, I almost want to panic. Toms eyes are serious.   

“Get out of your own damn head y/n and enjoy this” he demanded “Nod if you understand” Toms jaw tightens as he waits for me to respond. I nod franticly once I know he’s really okay with this.

Haz yanks off his shirt and attacks my breast with tongue and teeth. Tom releases my throat and moves to my chest, licking and sucking my other breast. My hands fly to their heads, holding them to me and pushing them away as my entire world comes undone in a crashing wave of need. Enjoy this. That isn’t the problem. What freaks me out is the regret I’ll see in their eyes tomorrow morning. They are polar opposites in the bedroom and we have never once discussed what happens between me and Haz or me and Tom. When I’m with them, I’m only with them, they give me what I need and I give them all of me. SHUT UP BRAIN..my body screams! I truly have a war going on inside my head without one of them to keep reassuring me.

But Tom don’t share, he loves that he has always been my first of everything, it was never planned that way. He glows with pride that he can control me with his eyes and words alone. This man has given me multiple orgasms every time he’s inside me, hell sometimes when he’s not inside me. Tom fucks me, Tom fucks me hard and with each thrust I feel the love he gives only to me. He is the air I breathe and he would give me his last breath. Tom is cold metal on my hot flesh that he makes burn for him. I belong to him in ways I don’t with... Harrison...SHIT HAZ!

Harrison makes love, he don’t fuck. In fact he shuts down my body when it goes into that primal fucking frenzy mode. He’s an expert at calming my soul and making my body feel our connection before I even have an orgasm. Haz cherishes my body and soul in a way Tom can’t compete with. In his arms I feel like I’m his everything and he is mine. There has been times when Harrison has had me so completely lost in him I didn’t want to be let go. He is warm wood to my cold soul. He is the first one I fell in love with, noone but me knows that, but it’s true. I’ll take that to my grave.

How will Haz feel tomorrow after he sees how much Tom can control all the pieces of me. And how will Tom feel after seeing Haz bring me to tears by the way he looks into my soul? Yeah, just enjoy this.

There are so many conflicting thoughts pounding in my head, but I need to remember we’re all adults. No one is here against his will. They’re controlling this, and whether or not they thought through it, they’re committed to it. Inching down my body, Harrison palms my ass, squeezes my thighs, and slides his hand between my legs, spreading the moisture. Tom tears off his shirt and returns to my mouth, kneading my breasts with strong rough fingers. Then he lifts on his knees, and I watch with ragged breaths as he unzips his pants and strips the last of the clothes from his body. His cock springs free, inches from my face, and my mouth waters with a rush of saliva. He’s beautifully blessed, both thick and long. His tip is beading with pre-come. Kneeling beside my head, he angles over me and rests the tip against my lips. I don’t wait another second. I stick out my tongue, savoring his salty taste as Harrison grips my thighs and places them around his shoulders. Then he lowers his head and buries his tongue, licking me aggressively. “Fuck!” My back arches, and my heart slams out of control. The instant my mouth opens on a choked gasp, Tom shoves in his cock. No way. NO WAY! This is happening. I open my throat wide and he pushes deep, staying there as he pumps hard. I grip the base in my fist. I could tell by his thrust he was in a different zone and not holding back, this was my way to keep him from fucking my mouth too hard. Then we’re rocking, grinding, licking, and groping. They are muscle and flesh, passion and sin, flexing and burning beneath my greedy fingers. They surround me, consume me, twisting us into a tangle of sweaty limbs and shameless self indulgence. There are so many hands on my body I’m delirious beneath the sensations. I’ve never seen them this worked up, this desperate to fuck me, not even alone. They don’t look at each other, yet somehow, they avoid each other’s touches. As I swallow and suck Tom’s cock, Harrison’s blonde head moves between my legs. He closes his eyes and groans as he taste my sex. I grow wetter with each thrust in my mouth and his jaw grinding against me, his face is soaked, tongue so deep his nose is rubbing my clit into a frenzy as he tongue fucks me with deep strokes, his tongue is wide and long, he always has me cumming in moments, I’m so close. Tom shoves a hand in my hair, gripping my head almost sensing it. Then he rolls to his back and takes me with him. I fall to my side, curled around Tom’s leg with my cheek on his abs as he drives himself into my mouth. My legs tangled around Harrison’s shoulders, and he repositions, running his hands up and down my thighs and lifting my ass toward his face. Restraining me in his unbending grip, he spreads me open and sinks his fingers deep inside. I freeze against the penetration, moaning around Toms cock in my mouth. Tom growls and reaches for my chest, pinching the fuck out of my nipple. With an anguished moan, I lick up and down his shaft. Suck hard on the head and break away for air to tell Haz no! Tom grips my face to his. No way will he let Haz have the first of this! Will he? I watch wide eyed as Tom looks at Haz and Haz looks at him while eating my pussy and carefully playing with my ass. The wetness on his face makes me moan FUCK. I’m going to explode. My eyes roll into my head and Tom grips my throat letting me know I better not. I watch as Tom clears his throat and Harrison stops working me, looking at Tom.The heaving of their breaths vibrate through the room. Their hands are rough and ruthless, their bodies hard and demanding. They can seduce my mind, make love to my flesh, and enslave my soul. I’m already theirs. Affectionate fingers stroke through my hair, tangling and straightening, Harrison. A thumb finds my clit, circling and pinching without apology, Tom. Together, they ignite a trail of fire from my head to my toes, making me restless, fevered, and insanely more turned on. Harrison leans up and removes his pants. I watch him over my shoulder as he kneels behind me, his long cock standing from between powerful thighs, his pre-cum is dripping, he’s ready. I meet his smoldering blue eyes and shiver. Is Haz going to fuck me or will he make love? And SHIT! Right now... while I’ll be sucking off Tom! Tom gives Haz something that's round and sparkling like a diamond, I barely catch the clear nub attached to it. My eyes widen as Harrison dips it into my dripping sex and circles my anus, slowly he pushes it in. I freeze and grip Toms damp skin.

“Breath sexy girl, it will help you be ready for me, I promise” Tom says holding my face, for the first time he can’t control my rampant thoughts. Tom nods for Haz to come to me. I’m on the verge of panic. Haz kisses my hot face and forces my eyes to find his sweet sky blue eyes.

“I love you angel, Tom loves you and you love us, please let us give you what you want. We want this just for you, right TomTom” he says soft looking at Tom. I look at Tom an he smiles big trying not to laugh and wreck the sexual mountain we have climbed to get here. He winks at Haz and locks eyes with me “I love you starling same as Haz does, let us give you this, just once, how can we prove to you this is what we want?” he begs..Tom never begs. My head and heart has just aligned with my physical needs and my body is grateful. I pull his lips to mine and kiss him passionate, I fist his curly brown hair as I fist Harrisons blonde hair and kiss him the same. I pull Toms hair with dominance, shocking him and bringing his gasping open mouth into mine and Harrisons kiss. Our tongues dance wild and unsure at first, each of them pulling away but being held by my pleading moans and tightening grip in their hair. Just like our dancing earlier that night we found our rhythm just like our bodies did on that dance floor. I clenched my sex as I nearly exploded when I backed away and they kept kissing. FUCK, they were beautiful. I let go of their hair and started to stroke them slowly. Both of them moaning into each others mouths as I rolled the pre-cum around their heads and applied pressure. They opened their eyes in shock and looked at me smirking at my slickness. “That was fucking hot” I moaned.

Toms eyes flashed primal as he slapped me hard on my ass and Harrison twisted what he had inserted inside my ass just moments ago.”WOW” I cried out loud, it felt fucking amazing.     

Tom lifts me, adjusting my body on hands and knees between his legs. Then he caresses my face and holds me with his gaze in the space of a breathless moment. Tom isn’t a lover like Harrison, but Tom does love me. And in this moment I’m reminded of our first time, and the few times he’s softer in the bedroom, he’s vulnerable for me, only me. Seduction isn’t a kiss or a touch. It’s this. The mystery and intelligence in his eyes. Our connection it reinforces. The intoxication of feeling the depth of Toms emotions. He undresses our skin and strips us down to our souls until we’re bared to each other in every way, until his love fills me completely, it becomes the life force that pumps my heart. Then he blinks, breaking our spell and lowering his attention to my lips. “Open up, my tiny dancer.” he growls as he twists my hair in his hand on my head, he guides my mouth onto his waiting cock. Sliding past my lips, he sinks slowly, hot and heavy on my tongue, tasting so good. He pushes deep, deeper, and holds me on him as my throat relaxes around the fullness of him. I breathe through it, my thoughts drifting to Harrison right before he cups my breast and squeezes my pebbled nipple. I groan for more and lift my ass, spreading wider in inviting Haz to take me. On his knees behind me, he fits himself against my opening and rams, hard and mercilessly, inside me. FUCK! I feel that...the stretch, the savage burn as he pulls out and slams my pussy again. Harrison has never fucked me and DAMN, this change is erotic and shocking. I’m having an out of body experience thinking of the switch these two just pulled. Harrison gives me a few seconds to adjust. I hover my mouth over Tom’s cock, afraid I might bite him as I brace for the way Harrison fucks. With a sharp exhale, Harrison lets go, pounding deep against my core, fucking me hard, gripping my ass, twisting and pushing the toy in my ass, panting, and moaning my name something fierce. Tom sits up and shifts to his knees, same position Harrison is behind me. With a hand gripping my throat, he shoves himself into my mouth, thrusting slower than Harrison but no less hard. I suck him with everything I have while reaching up his chest toward his face. He clamps his fingers around mine, holding our hands against his heart. Then they fuck me, tugging at my hair and pinning my body between the force of their need. It’s carnal, filthy, perfect. Everything I imagined it would be. Harrison picks up the pace, holding tight to my hips as he pumps into me, over and over. Licking up and down Tom’s length, I stare up into fathomless eyes and melt beneath their scorching heat. My eyes glaze over and Tom tells me to cum on Harrisons cock as he slips out of my mouth. I scream out Harrisons name as he fucks me even harder. My arms give out from the power of the orgasm as I come down he stops and pulls out. “Be right back.” Harris says and leaves the bed. I turn my neck to watch him walk gloriously naked toward the bathroom.

Tom pushes my face back to his and pulls me up his chest. “Show me how perfect we fit together.” he says softly as he adjusts my legs to straddle his hips. I move without hesitation, positioning his cock and sliding down slowly, loving every long thick inch. His bigger cock is still a force I have to adjust to, but he lets me adjust, he’s being quiet and his rough hands touch me slowly as he waits to be all the way connected. I force my pussy to take him all in, feeling the stretch around his savage cock and the toy still in my ass, I feel fuller than I ever felt with this position. His mouth falls open silently, and his chin lifts, the veins in his neck stretching against his skin. I roll my hips slowly, and he groans, eyes closed as pleasure sweeps across his face. He’s fucking beautiful. I feel like I’m making love to him now for the first time he’s ever made love. Tom has forgotten his need for control and is lost on the way he feels inside me. I feel the tears prick my eyes when he opens his. “I love you y/n” he croaks with emotion as he wipes my face and kisses down my neck as I cum again “I love you too TomTom”

Harrison returns from the bathroom with a tube of something and pauses beside the bed, watching Tom move inside me, making love to me, more..me making love to him. My nerves creep in, coiling my stomach. Harrison won’t stop looking at us. I can’t deal. I press a hand against Tom’s hip and he slides out. The air shifts again and I push through my own thoughts

“Harrison?” I say trying not to over think this “We can stop. We don’t have to...” the panic rises.

“Lie back down angel” Harrison winks as he grips his hard cock and strokes it from root to tip.

He lays on the bed and pulls me gently on top of him adjusting my legs around him. I stair in his eyes and feel relief as he smiles. “I love you /n” he says kissing me quick. “I love you too Hazzi”

Tom clears his throat and I lift my eyes to his..oh shit..that look, that dark swirling storm is heading straight to my core. That's Toms look when he’s about to fuck me until I can’t be fucked anymore look.  “Ass in the air y/n” he commands showing me the tube labeled Back Door. My eyes go wide and Tom bites his lip before moving onto the bed with us. My heart hammers in my chest, both excited and scared. I knew we were going there..but..but is he going to take me there while Haz is inside me? We should have a conversation about this, but as Harrison rubs his head on my silky sex and pushes himself all the way in and pumps his hips slowly, Tom seems to be more interested in the conversation between that toy and my back door. His touch presses it in and swirles it in bigger circles as he adds more pressure, I shock myself with a loud moan, and I gulp down a breath when he removes it, leaving me shaking on Haz. I can’t breathe...did I just cum again? Shit, I did and they know it “You’re so fucking wet” Tom slides his thumb toward my pussy, gathering my sex and smearing it over my anus. “I don’t even need lube.” he says so sexy and dark “Yes, you do!” I glare at him over my shoulder and soften my voice. “I’ve never done this…” double penetration. My face reddens. I can’t even say it out loud. “Have either of you?”

Tom shakes his head no, eyes on his prize as he slips in a wet finger working slow past my fear. What else can he see down there? Harrisons cock stretching me open? His balls against me? “What about you?” I turn back to Harrison. “You’re my first and last” He holds my face with both hands, searching my eyes. My chest squeezes. If I could have one wish, it would be to wake up tomorrow to the sound of their hearts beating happily against mine. “Please, don’t regret this” My breaths quicken as the lubed crown of Toms cock nudges against me, seeking entry. “I would never regret being inside of you,” Harrison says “Me either y/n, now breathe, baby trust us” Tom leans over my back and trails kisses up my spine, his voice thick with hunger. “Push against me.” I let my lungs do what they’re supposed to do and crane my neck to check out the positioning. Harrisons legs are together behind me with Tom and me straddling his hips. They look comfortable…considering the circumstances. I turn back and press against Tom, without taking my eyes off Haz. Pressure ignites a dull ache in my back opening, stretching and filling. Tom sinks deeper with a hiss of self satisfaction, his fingers biting against my hips to stop his instinct to thrust hard into me. I know how long he’s wanted this. It doesn’t take long before the sting ripples into the most erotic pleasure I’ve felt.

Tom bears down with gentle, shallow strokes, shooting tingles through my sensitive tissues. It feels so damn good it’s almost too much. Too many sensations. Too much fullness. Harrisons eyes tell me he feels it, too. He brushes the hair from my face and traces his fingers down my neck, rocking against me in a hypnotic rhythm. They’re inside me. Both of them. Physically, and emotionally. The mattress beneath me disintegrates and time ceases to exist. I only feel. Them, us, joined in a way I never thought would happen and may never happen again. “How are you doing sexy girl?” Tom brushes his lips against my back. “I might die if you don’t move faster TomTom” I don’t have to ask twice. He rolls into a swift grind, sliding his cock in and out and matching the rhythm of Harrisons thrusts. Trembling and boneless I cum hard, I lean forward and rub my hands over the hard body beneath me. My hair falls around my face hiding the fact I don’t know whose name to scream out in bliss, it steals from my pleasure. Haz pulls me into him and his mouth sucks my breasts as Tom fucks me slowly, teasingly, like he doesn’t want to rush it. Focusing my attention on Harrison, I memorize the sharp angles of his clean-shaved face. Blonde messy hair, perfect nose, kissable lips, he’s beyond beautiful with his soulful blue eyes studying me the way I study him. “Are you good?” I pant breathlessly, gripping his shoulder against the next orgasm. “Trying not to cum.” he moaned, a muscle flexes in his cheek. “You need to hurry, baby” Tom hooks an arm around my waist and yanks me to a sitting position. With my back against Toms chest and my legs spread around Harrisons hips, my clit is exposed and throbbing. Tom presses a thumb against it, rubbing circles and applying precise, consistent pressure. My head falls back on his shoulder, his mouth at my ear, letting me feel every hot moaning gasp as he strokes his cock in and out of me. Then he grips my jaw and yanks my mouth to his. The kiss is hard, wild, and all-consuming. It’s more than I can handle. I plunge fast, breaking the kiss and screaming out. Powerful and violent, the orgasm rips through me as I scream both of their names, the pleasure splitting me open and moving me in a state of oblivion. Stars blot my vision as they grind their hips, speed up the pace, and join me. Panting breaths, moans of my name together from their lips, and fingers bruising my flesh, they cum together, apart, whatever they may be. It’s music to my ears. Unforgettable. A dream in the flesh. I collapse on Harrisons chest, light-headed and spent. Tom falls on his back beside me and drops a forearm across his eyes, breathing heavily past parted lips. Haz cradles my cheek with a warm palm and strokes his thumb across my mouth. I kiss it, grasp his wrist, and hold on. I don’t want this to end. I’m afraid of what comes next.

“I hope you didn’t do this for me…” I glance at Harrison and return to Tom. “Did you plan this?” “No” they say together. Harrison untangles his hand from mine and rolls us to our sides. “It wasn’t planned” My head jerks to Tom. Mr. control freak Holland just engaged in an impulsive, unintentional threesome? How very free spirited of him. Tom shifts to the edge of the bed and grabs his shirt from the floor. With a hand on my shoulder, he pushes me to my back and uses the shirt to clean between my legs. He does the same with himself and tosses it. Not once does he glance at Haz. Maybe I’m imagining it, but the awkwardness is already creeping in.

“When we got home tonight, you both seemed to be on the same page.” I rest my head on Harrison’s chest and hook a leg around Tom’s thigh as he lays back down, desperate to keep us joined. “But you didn’t talk about it beforehand?”

“Not exactly.” Harrison pets my hair, his breathing returning to normal.

“I made the decision in the car,” Tom says in an icy tone, at odds with the soothing way he caresses my thigh. “Same.” Harrison’s hand tightens in my hair. They didn’t even look at each other in the car. Did they have a telepathic conversation? I have so many questions, but if I start interrogating them, this delicate peace between us will evaporate. I lie still, absorbing the touch of fingers on my skin, the rasps of sated breaths, and thrum of love beating between us, knowing I’ll never find this with anyone but them. Too soon, Tom lifts my leg off his, sits up, and captures my gaze.

“This was a one time thing, y/n” His eyes turn to frozen glass. “It will never happen again.”

My breath hitches, and I feel attacked “I didn’t ask for it. In fact, when I opened my mouth, you told me to shut the fuck up” I say feeling more pissed than anything

“You didn’t have to ask for it.” He rises and strides toward the bathroom. “You wanted it.”

“Don’t do that to her,” Harrison shouts, launching off the bed. “This isn’t her fault!”

Tom closes the door behind him and locks it, freezing us out. Fault? There can only be fault if a mistake was made. The shower sounds behind the door, and my chest turns to ice. I cover my mouth to stop the quiver in my lips. Don’t you fucking cry! I tell myself. All the tears in the world won’t fix this. “How did this happen?” I ask, more to myself than to Harrison.

“That?” He points at the bathroom door and returns to the bed. “I don’t have time to list all his problems, but the one he suffers from the most begins with ass and ends with hole.”

“I’m serious, Harrison.” It feels like my heart is sinking into my stomach. Lying on his back, he pulls me into his arms and wraps the sheet around us. “Let it go.”

“No.” I snap my head up, glaring at him. “I can’t just…just let this go”

He returns my stare for a long moment before releasing a sigh. “I’m pretty sure he thought I was going to break your rule tonight”

“Were you?” I felt sick “it was meant as a joke. Tom took this to heart?”

“Yes.” He looks at me with unflinching eyes. “He knew he wouldn’t be able to stop me.”

“If you can’t beat them, join them,” I mumble sadly. “Or control them. He participated because he couldn’t fathom me making love to you without his almighty hand involved.”

I love Tom’s almighty hand and his control, but not at the risk of hurting him. “Did he tell you this?” I choked out trying to hold in my tears

“I know him, baby. Better than you do.” As I turn that over in my head, I kick myself for not being as perceptive as Harrison. If I’d known Tom wasn’t acting purely on passion, I would’ve stopped it from happening. Or at least tried to stop it more than I had. I have a hard time saying no to them when it comes to sex. It’s just not in my DNA. I bend, yield, surrender, and they shine in the power it gives them. That’s why we’re so good together. Braced on an elbow, I trace a finger along the ridges of his abs. “Did you want the threesome?”

“No.” His muscles tense beneath my touch. “I had to block him out of my mind the entire time, actually seeing the way he handled you so rough pissed me off, it made me want to claim you in front of him, which is why I fucked you like I never have or will again.” He runs a hand down the length of my spine. “I do agree with him on one point. I’ll never do this again.” he kisses my face

He doesn’t say that he regrets it, but it’s there in the creases around his mouth. It feels like a slap in the face. Maybe I’m just emotionally and physically drained, but I can’t hold the dam on my tears. They rise fast, spilling down my cheeks, but I keep the sounds trapped beneath rapid swallows. “Why did you do it?” I whisper. “Because I love you. I want you to be happy.”

“I don’t understand why you want anything to do with me. I’m a mess.” I say sitting up

“I’ll take you messy and crying and in love with Tom in his asshole state, over not having you.” He hugs me against his chest and rests his lips on my head. “Besides, we offered the BOTH of us TO you on that island and promised forever, I’m not breaking that promise,ever angel”

“Either am I y/n” Tom says soft from the bathroom door before he walks over to us. His eyes look at Harrison first than to me “I’m sorry, I’m a selfish asshole with you y/n and I’m sorry that I treated you the way I did Harrison, I’d never trade our life together for anything. Please forgive me” he asks looking up as the tears fell from his face. My heart ached for him.

I look at Harrison and we both knew this much...Tom don’t use the words I’m sorry unless he really feels he was horribly wrong about something and Tom don’t cry unless he’s hurting.

“I forgive you mate, we both know how protective you are over her, just don’t ever take your hot temper out on y/n like that again, I will protect her too Tom” Haz smiled pulling Tom into me and me into him. We laid just like that as we drifted to sleep, a few bumps didn’t destroy us.

   We made plans to get away from life and spend two weeks traveling by ourselves. We were packing the last of our bags when Toms and Harrisons phones started to ring at the same time. Tom hit the answer button and Harrison followed him inside with a look of concern as he held me close. Tom scribbled some notes down and what look like cordiance to a location and showed it Haz. I watched as Harrisons eyes went wide in disbelief. Tom was beyond excited as he paced back and forth wanting off the phone but still needed to hear whatever they had to say.

“Fuck yes, I’ll be there by sun rise tomorrow, get the team ready and no, Haz is staying here” Tom said holding his hand out to stop Haz as he protested it was too dangerous. My eyes flicked back and forth between them. Tom could only endure so much before he shut the conversation down “We are wasting time, I’m on the way see you in 20” Tom slipped his phone in his pocket and came over to where I had sat on the couch watching this unfold.

“Starling, I’m sorry to have to leave right now but trust me, it’s for the best” he said with kind eyes as he kissed my hands. I felt the wave of nausea hit me. But I swallowed it down.

“Haz will be here to keep you safe y/n and I’ll be back in time to go on holiday as planned, we will just push it back a little, yeah?” he half smiled kissing my frown.

“Tom it’s way too dangerous for you to go alone, no way are you taking down number three without..”Harrison was cut off as Tom stood abruptly in his face.

“She is our number one Harrison, you will stay with her and it’s final. I’m not going alone mate, it’s you who will be alone with her, so keep your head straight and keep yourselves safe.” Tom looked Harrison in the eyes and from my point of view Haz was not happy but understood. He nodded at Tom and hugged him in a tight grip.

Tom rushed out of the room and returned with too many black bags to count. Haz helped him carry them to a car I hadn’t even notice pull up. Tuwaine got out and hugged me as the world started to spin and reality came into my vision and formed words.

“Number three, isn’t that the leaders brother?” I said with widening eyes. Tom held my face and struggled to stop his racing thoughts to try and focus on my fear. I had forgotten my training in the face of this. “Tom, don’t..don’t” I begged starting to see this in the worst of ways. My gut was screaming at me and that instinct has never failed me.

“Y/N, shh baby don't do this, I will be fine and back before you can miss me” he kissed my forehead and held me tight. “Haz will keep you safe for me and trust me I won’t let him have you to himself too long” he smiled kissing my lips. He locked his eyes with mine

“Promise me then Tom, promise me you’ll be back soon if your so sure” I said feeling sicker

“I promise Starling, and have I ever broken a promise?” he winked at me. I choked out no as he wiped my tears.”Then you have to trust me on this, both of you” he said looking at Haz as he stood next to me and Tom put my hand on his heart “I love you y/n, I’ll always come home to you, just like I have been baby” he was waiting on me to give the okay.

“I love you TomTom” I said kissing his lips quick and he turned to go. He was on high alert and I know calling him that would offset his focus and I wanted to do it. I wanted him to remember this promise. As the car left the driveway and sped down the street I couldn’t hold it in anymore and vomited my guts out. Haz held my hair and rubbed my back as I let my emotions and my breakfast go in our flower bed.            

I spent the first two days and nights in bed not feeling so good. Haz stayed at my side and just laid around with me. I wasn't sure if it was a bug or just nerves from the fear of what Tom was facing on his own but I hated that this was going to be the longest time I had to go without talking or seeing Tom. This mission was the deadliest they have ever taken on and the fact he was out there without Harrison was not settling with my soul. By the third day I felt good enough to eat something and let Harrison and Z take me out to the movies. Everything was fine until we walked up to concessions and the smell of popcorn made me instantly hurl, I was lucky to have made it to the garbage can. Haz looked terrified as Z yelled at him for not taking me to the doctors. I just grabbed the edge of it trying not to pass out. Z rubbed my back and wiped my   face with cool napkins as Haz got the car pulled around to the doors. I made it safe to the back seat before I fainted.

When I woke up I was blinded by bright lights and closed my eyes again. I could hear beeps and quiet noises all around me as Harrison held my hand loosley. I slowly adjusted my eyes to look at where I was. I froze in place and gave Harrisons hand a tight squeeze to wake him as I started to panic at the fact I was in a hospital bed in what sounded like the ER. I hadn’t been in a hospital since the night my mother had died, it quickly brought back feelings I wanted to never feel again. My heart monitor started to beep faster as Harrison stirred from his half sleepy state. He was slumped over in a chair, his blonde head on the bed next to me, he started to smile as he opened his eyes. Then he noticed the alarm in my expression and stood up to calm me.

“Shh y/n, it’s okay, everything is okay, you are...hum..dehydrated from all that vomiting you’ve been doing, they are just keeping you here for a few to get fluids into your body and now that you’re awake, they want to run one test” he said looking into my eyes and away again as I picked up on his half truth, what was he not telling me? I pulled his worried face back to me.

“Hazzi, what kind of test? What are they looking for that I need to be awake?” I asked slowly

He shook his head and his face flushed red as he let out a small laugh meeting my eyes

“Your pregnant angel, and they want to do an ultrasound to see how far along you are”

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“There, I accept your apology” he laughed back. “Tom has a punishment as well, don't ya mate?” he said as they squished me in between them even though the rounded booth could fit 12 people easily. The waitress approached and took our drink orders as she ogled both Tom and Haz. I didn't mind, they were both beautiful sights to behold. I watched the fish swimming freely about trying to calm my nerves as they disagreed on what bottle of what to buy, they decided on a few. I laughed to myself wondering if that is how I would have been when it came time to pick Tom or Haz. I would have never been able to make that choice. And thanks to my savagez both picking me, I'd never have to.

“What's funny” Tom said running his fingers over my bare left knee. I shook my head but he wasn't having it. “Tell me or I'll punish you right here on this table, I promise on that princess” his wicked smile made my mouth drop open in protest. He wasn’t kidding.

“Tom its it's not fair I get punished for all that between me and Haz, I didn't know you had a deal!” I said innocently and truthfully. He raised his unruly left eye brow and licked his lips looking at Haz. He gave me a big smile.“I'm not punishing you sweetheart, it's Haz who's going to be punished, you've done nothing wrong y/n" Tom said in a seductive tone as he pushed my hair away from my face and brushed his thumb over my lip. “I can't wait to taste these lips baby”

“Then why wait Tommy” I breathed out melting into him.

The waitress came setting our bottles of Dom Perignon and Armand De Brignac in buckets of ice. She stood there watching our exchange waiting for our order “Because once I start, I won't fucking stop until this whole island knows the way my name sounds from your voice and that you are mine" he said kissing the left side of my neck. My face was flush and I  whimpered at the loss of contact as did our beautiful waitress. Her and I made eye contact and we girls laughed together as we both felt embarrassed. She looked to Haz and asked if he wanted to sample anything on or off the menu winking at him. I had to hand it to her, she had huge lady sized coconut balls for that!

“Can you fill our glasses love?” Haz asked keeping his eyes on the menu as all three of us stared at him. She stood tall and confident as he licked his lips and rolled his fingertips in circles over his now full flute. She knew he was worth the wait and didn't falter as he looked her up and down. He leaned towards her asking sexy “Can I really have anything in this room I want?” She nodded yes leaning towards him, making sure she gave him plenty of her breast to look at. “Humm, and could I have it right here on this table?” Haz asked in a deep dark tone. The beautiful waitress let out a confident and excited yes! Haz gave her his million dollar smile and pulled me into his body. “Her, I want Y/N, right here on this table. Can I have that" he smirked at her open mouth. Tom slid his hand higher underneath my short cocktail dress and rubbed his rough fingers in thoughtful circles. “Same for me, brilliant ideal Haz!” Tom said shooting her a look that said fuck off and she stomped away calling them assholes. I sat there wide eyed, stunned at what just happened.

They were still laughing it off when the head of the kitchen came over apologizing about her behavior and took our orders. I was refilling my third glass when Tom stopped me. “You have to sip this slower sweetheart, you’ll see soon enough, trust me” I pouted as our meal started to arrive one course at a time. “ You can have all your heart desires soon as dinner is over, I promise” I swallowed my first bite contemplating what he could have meant with those words. They made small talk as we got through dinner. I was lost in Haz and Tom land, watching the fish swim around us wondering what was coming next.  

“What's on your mind angel?" Haz asked as I stared at the ocean that circled us. I was learning fast that I couldn't hide much from these men. So out my thoughts tumbled fast and almost in a fit of giggles! Must be the bubbly combined with nerves.

“Do you guys share women all the time?  If that answer is yes, how many times?”..I trailed off “Should I even ask that? Is it at the same time or do you take turns? Do you watch one another?... That's kinda weird,HOT,but creepy,right? Maybe not, am I naughty for thinking that! I'll have to think more about that... What do you guys expect from me? What do you want from me? Am I supposed to choose one of you and not both? Holy shit, I really didn't think this out did I?” My heart was hammering in my chest. I gulped down my drink and eyed them at my right and left. Their eyes were wide and both were stifling a laugh. “I just said ALL that out loud didn't I?” the heat crept up my face and I wanted to run. I hid my face in my hands. WHY WAS I SO AWKWARD! I knew they wouldn't let me up so I sank lower in my seat and was ready to crawl like hell to get away.

“No you dont” Tom said said grabbing my upper arm. “We can't answer them questions if you run from them y/n and they are perfectly normal to ask" he said sincerely looking into my eyes. His beautiful eyes were the color of whiskey when the sunlight shines through it. He helped me sit up and tilted my face to his. “I'm sorry, I'm just so nervous, this is all so new" I said small wanting to start this all over.

“So are we y/n,it's why well get through it together" Haz said kissing my bare shoulder. He traced my neckline as Tom offered an answer never breaking eye contact.

“No y/n, Haz and I have never shared a woman. In ANY way. We barely have time for anything outside of what we do for a living. Which is why stumbling upon you threw us both off. I won't speak for Haz but I can tell you I felt protective of you the moment I seen how scared you were on that bed after the way we met. I've spent so long hating this world and all the ugly in it I forgot that life is sweet and beautiful, just like you y/n" he held my hand in his lap taking a deep breath. “Do I want to share you?” he exhaled and his lips twitched before he downed his champagne “Fuck no” he said possessively looking at Haz than me “But I know what our jobs require of us and there will be long periods of time when I'm gone and unreachable, so will Haz" I looked at our hands intertwined and he brought my eyes back to his.”There's no one I trust more in this world than him. When I'm gone, he'll be there. When's he's gone. I'll be there. You will always be protected Y/N. We will never leave you alone and we can focus on staying alive knowing your safe and waiting for us at home” he said kissing my forehead. He let my hand go as he refilled both our empty glasses. I brushed his hands needing one more tiny detail.

“What happens during the in between times when were all together, like now?” I smile still thinking of a Tom and Haz sandwich. Tom raised his eyebrows at me “I don't share y/n" he said as if it finalized the deal. I shook my head, not even close to done boss. “I dont cheat Tom, but if I'm equally yours and Harrisons we have to agree to all the terms before we seal this deal, yeah?” I wink at him using his words against him. Haz laughed with me as our final course arrived and it was one giant lava cake for us to share. HOW FITTING. I held out my hands to use this as demonstration. I took his and Harrisons spoon away and held mine up. His eyes grew dark knowing this was a challenge as he smiled. “So here we are, all three of us, one place, all hungry for one thing, yet we only have one spoon to fulfill our need, right?” I took a giant scoop and placed it against my lips. I closed my eyes and moaned at the delicious flavor assaulting my taste buds. As I opened them Haz took a lick of the same bit  I was hovering mid air and let out his own moan. “I know, amazing right?” I asked winking at him. He pulled me towards him and Tom was quick to get control back by grabbing the spoon and growling like a defeated brat “FINE” he put the entire desert in front of him unwilling to share it as he offered his solution yet again “Well work out a schedule, 7 days in a week gives us an even 3 a piece and 1 to ourselves or whatever.” he said so NOT happy. I didn’t dare laugh at how cute he was.

“We don't need a schedule mate, I can honestly say for the first time in our lives your over stressing on this.” he met Tom's gaze and they spoke that quiet exchange that seem to calm him down “Why don't we just go with the flow and trust one other to be respectful and understanding towards each other? It sure beats watching the clock strike midnight on the days she better not be a minute late to my side" he laughed as he tapped his watch looking at me.

“Your such a div" laughed Tom “That makes more sense, but I’m still not sharing this lava cake"

“Thank you Hazzi for making me feel like an adult and not a child in a custody battle" I giggled as Tom's face turned red.

“I can do both darling, say I can't and I'll pull you over my knee right here and now" he cooed in my ear “I promise you'll love my spankings so much that you'll beg for more" He swirled his glass waiting for me to challenge him back. I shook my head no as the waiter approached us offering his services.

“No thank you, we have plenty of surprises waiting for us" Haz said giving the man his full smile. “Can you have some more of these bottles sent back to our place please?” He shook his head and wished us all a pleasant evening. I grabbed the last of the bubbly, drinking as we went.

Tom led the way back through the tunnel and into the growing crowd as I he held my hand tight to his back. Haz had both hands on my hips making it well known who we all were with as we moved through the sea of dancing bodies. We found a open spot at the bar. Tom patted the bar stool and I took that as my command to sit. He and Haz scanned our surroundings more than enough times to keep a queen safe.I looked at them as an outsider like the others did. There were lots of eyes on us, men were caught looking at me and quickly moved on the moment they were caught by one of them. I sipped my fifty thousand dollar bottle of champagne and watched women eye fuck them both. A few were bold enough to call out to them. They stood out even dressed down. Tom had on a fitted black shirt with white buttons and black shorts to match, topped by a sixty thousand dollar piece of wrist art known as the Piaget Altiplano Skeleton watch. Everything stood out on Tom, but his tan skin made this watch shine without a diamond in it. Harrison wore a all black button up shirt but left it open to show his pale blue thin tank top underneath. My eyes lingered on him longer just now noticing he was well put together. Haz liked to be noticed. He had on a long platinum chain with a diamond axe attached to it. My eyes bulged at his Cartier two hundred and forty thousand dollar watch and he gave me his million dollar smile. I leaned over to look at it better and nearly fell off the bar stool. He caught me and rested my back against the edge of the bar as Tom took away my nearly empty bottle with a scowl at just how empty it was. He demanded I have only water to the bartender handing him a nice to tip to ensure he complied. I was too caught up on Haz to argue.

“Like what you see angel” he said loud over the music. I shook my head and grabbed the back of his hair as he bit his lip in reaction. I started to rock my hips to the beat of “Bom bidi bom” by Nick Jonas the music making me want to let loose NOW I started to dance, my body was always led by music, it was in my blood after all.

“Fuck me.. Mate can we just go already?” he pleaded with Tom trying his best to not look at either one of us as I felt his cock start to rise. His long fingers traced my collarbone and down across the swell of my breast that were straining against the fabric of the tight black dress. The dress was a sexy plunging v neck with wide lace fabric that barely covered my breast as my nipples poked through at his touch. I threw my neck back and closed my eyes as he traced the sides of my breast and back up. His hand gripped my neck and the other brought my leg around his hip as he rocked his body to the beat. With my heels on we had perfect alignment for him to slip inside me. He was hard and I was ready. So ready in fact I bet if he grinded any harder into me his shorts would be soaked. I opened my eyes to stare up at Haz trying so hard to keep it together for the second time today. This was the most contact I’ve had, well ever. But I was well aware of the heat coming off of Tom as he watched the small display in front of him. He was unreadable as if he was watching a movie and trying to figure out the ending. He raised his eyes at me when I moved my leg off of Harrison and tried to stand straight. I was drunk off his  Haziness and high off pure bliss, a mixture of endorphins and arousal. I checked again to see if he was pissed or upset, but Tom gripped his hard cock and bit his lip, letting me know he was enjoying this too. I reached for his hand and he led us away from the music and the lights and the heats of the moments.

We walked back silently and peacefully, side by side. My hands held by each beautiful man. My mind was giddy at the thought of who I was going to kiss first, who was I going to feel inside me first. Who would taste me first, who would I swallow first. Too many choices and too little time. I wanted them both at once,together. FUCK IT! I was calling the shots on our first night of forever. They were my savagez after all!

I slipped my hands to my sides and they spun around to look at me. Tom's hooded eyes seemed impatient as he looked at me and watched my eyes bounce back and forth between them both. I stood tall despite the sway in my buzzing body. Tom was already shaking his head no before I spoke, but I pushed back anyways. “Tommy, I need tonight to be about all of us" I shook my head mad at myself, here I was asking, not demanding! I crossed my arms and he cocked his head to the side. “Don't make me carry you y/n” he hissed as Haz started to walk forward. I stood my ground and he accepted my challenge. He scooped me up and threw me over his shoulder exposing my ass to the cool night air. He brought his hand down with a heavy smack and I bit my lip not giving him the satisfaction of my moan. He repeated it once more for good measure before putting me down on the bed. I wasn't giving up just yet. “Tommy...I haven't even been kissed by either one of you. You've both deprived me of even skin contact outside of helping my sunburn”

“Hum hum, and it don't hurt no more does it y/n?” Tom said looking into my eyes as he removed my heels. I shook my head no and he smirked “Then your skin isn't deprived so much is it?” he removed his watch crossing the room to put it away.

I rolled my eyes as Haz ran a frustrated hand through his blonde hair. He turned on my Ipod and thumbed through it, stopping on my playlist Sexy Mood with approving eyes.I knew it by the song “Crazy In Love, 50 shades slow remix" by Beyonce blasted through the thick air. I absorbed the music as Tom walked back over to me holding out two aspirin and a glass of ice water. I kept my eyes on Haz as I did what was being asked of me. “Good girl” Tom said cocky taking my empty glass and setting it down.

“I only did it because it was best for me, don't let it go to your head" I retorted. He laughed out loud and pulled me on my feet turning me towards Harrison.

“You forgot princess, Haz is being punished for his selfishness with you today. He had his hands all over you at the bar, I didn't ask him or you to stop, not even once. We both knew that I was loving the view" he reminded me by pressing his firm cock into my ass. “Tell me why you didn't kiss Haz then? Why did you look to me for approval? Perhaps it's because deep inside you want to feel me the same way you did him? One on one. I'm trying my best here love, don't let it go to your head" he said nibbling my ear.

I stood baffled at the honesty in all he spoke. I closed my eyes wishing I was sober so I could listen to my instincts not my lusting throbbing core. She was a greedy diva! I closed my eyes letting my body get lost as “Not afraid anymore” by Hasley pulsed through the air, fueling my desires, perhaps Tom's mind could change if I stopped trying to challenge him and just walked us into it. He traced kisses down my shoulders as he slowly unzipped my sequined dress. “Should Haz return the favor of touching you since he neglected you earlier Y/N" he asked as my dress pooled at my feet. I swallowed hard and nodded yes in Harrison's direction, meeting his sky blue eyes. Tom knew I was a burning mess but he controlled the flames. He gripped my hips pulling me into him and I bent over slightly so he could have a better view of my ass against his cock. He let out a moan that was higher in pitch as I swayed my hips against his shorts, my panties were wet and warm. I wanted them off. I pushed them down but Tom's fingers on my hips pulled them back up. “Not yet baby, let me do the unwrapping, yeah?" he said so uncontrolled. I rocked my body against his thick cock, seducing him further as the beat of “High” by Wheathan and Dua Lipa set the mood. Tom caressed my hot skin everywhere I wasn't naked yet, he grazed my neck with his teeth and undid my strapless bra one hook at a time. He was losing control. SHIT we all were. He motioned for Haz to join us and my heated body went into overdrive.

My eyes widen as Haz  took one layer off at a time. He walked ever so slowly, inching towards us until he reached me in his white Hollister boxers and his beautiful watch and necklace. He must have known it was somehow a turn on for me. I held onto his strong arms using my body as a tool to bring us together to the beat of the music. He bit his lip hard as Tom released my breast to the air. Haz turned me around to Tom as he pushed his hard on into my ass. I removed Toms shirt in a quick and greedy hunger. He must have sensed it as he held my hands from undoing his black shorts.

“Soon princess, I promise but first Haz to pay his punishment so we can move forward “ his tone was sexy and teasing. “Tommy, it's punishing me at the same time! So.Not.Fair!” I whimpered “I'm sorry love, your so right. Let's let Haz make up for being selfish today" he rested his forehead against mine “Then I'm going to make your body feel like it's always belong to me.” he said with a promising whisper. He gave me a quick kiss on the edge of my mouth and moved behind Haz and me. “I got you (I feel good remix)” by Jessie J kicked on next.

Haz turned me into him and before I had time to react his hot mouth was on mine. His tongue invaded my mouth and assaulted my senses. His lips were soft as he kissed me with an all consuming kiss. I moaned into his mouth as he deepened our kiss with a slow aching need. I felt his hands trace down my sides, Haz now moaning as he brushed against my breast. Tom clearing his throat loudly let him know that was a no no. “Bring y/n here and sit her on your lap" Tom said roughly pulling out a low bench for us. Haz didn't hesitate. He lifted me in his arms not breaking our kiss. I kissed him urgently with a feverish need as Haz lowered my hot wet sex on top of his stiff dick. One slip of my panties and his boxers, I could have Harrison inside me. I pulled his long blonde hair hard as he gripped my ass running his fingers over my soaked panties. I let out a loud moan rubbing against the friction, aching for release. He sat us down carefully and now I was straddling him. I had the upper hand. FINALLY!

Haz looked high off endorphins and lust as I rocked back and forth slowly. He looked at our hips connected and his soaked white boxers that outlined his long hard cock against my heat and then painfully at my breast, biting his lips again. He wanted to kiss my breast so bad. I felt him twitch underneath me as I touched them in slow circles riding him back and forth, rolling my hips side to side in rotation. Haz groaned when I pressed my naked chest to his naked chest and forced him to sit back. He rested his weight on one arm and held my side as I started to rock my hips faster. The only thing stopping us from being one was our thin soaked underwear. I growled almost frustrated at that fact. I picked up the pace and Haz held me tight telling me to slow down. “Easy Angel” he panted “We've got a long way to go" he said kissing me slow. He nipped at my neck and left sloppy wet kisses down my chest, I held tight to his hair pushing past Tom's invisible cut off line. I looked up in search of Tom. I was going to beg at this point. This was driving me insane.

“Turn around love" he said sounding pleased from behind us. Haz helped me to my wobbly legs and kissed between my breast going lower ever so slowly. I looked back to meet Tom's dark chocolate and umber eyes as Haz kissed my belly button. I was going to explode if I didn't get what I needed and soon. “Tommy please" I said my breath ragged and unsure of what I was pleading for. But he knew, Tom just knew. He came over to me and turned me to face him. Harrisons started to plant more wet kisses on the sides my hips and trace a line around the edge of my panties with his tongue,teeth nipping at my ass. The smell of our arousal was in the air. “Kiss me where it hurts" by Rita Ora blasted from the speakers. The song was more than fitting.

Tom pressed his thumb in my mouth and he pinched my nipples just enough to dangle me over the cliff. I instantly grabbed his soft curls and pulled on them as I sucked his thumb. My teeth grazed his skin as he removed it. “Humm,good girl” he praised rubbing his wet thumb over my hard aching nipple. We repeated the process as I begged him for more with my eyes.

“Almost there baby, tell me what you need?" he asked with a sexy smirk. He knew damn well what I needed! I opened my mouth wanting to tell him just that but before I could respond he pulled my panties down in a swift motion and threw them away from us. He kissed my legs at an uncontrolled rhythm. He was hungry for me as he nipped my skin, making me moan and gasp at the pleasant sensation. He hovered at my waist making it clear he was staring at my glistening sex. His strong fingers tapped at my inner thighs silently asking me to open my legs wider. I gripped his hair and did as he asked. He kissed and licked around my bare naked kitty but not directly onto my sex. He kissed and licked upwards and I cried out in agony as he left me dripping and untouched. “Tommy, plea.!” I was cut off as he stood up straight and kissed me forcefully, almost in a claiming dominant way. He kissed me deep and wild. Hungry like his life depended on it. He grabbed me by the throat but didn't choke me. He kissed me so deep I forgot whose air I was breathing. I felt my legs go weak as he torn his lips away from me and sucked my neck hard before he bit down. I gasped at the pain and pleasure, I was sure he was leaving his mark. He pinched one nipple as he took the other into his mouth. I sighed in relief and my breathing picked up. I was going to cum without even being touched! I reached back to steady myself and Haz rested me on his lap. Tom kissed my other nipple and teased me with his circular motions on my inner thigh, so close to where I needed. “Why won't you touch me Tommy" I asked confused and hungry. He eyed me on Harrisons lap and smiled at me so beautifully. “Haz needs to finish his punishment remember love?” he kissed my lips quickly and walked over to the bed.

He sat on the edge watching me as Harrison trailed his soft fingertips down my naked stomach. I struggled with the endorphins rushing in my veins I couldn't keep my eyes on just one place or person so I closed them resting my head on Haz’s shoulder. He turned my face into him and kissed me softly as his long fingers squeezed my breast. He palmed them perfectly using his thumb and finger to pinch them hard then soft. I clenched my legs closed as I felt myself losing control. Haz smiled in our kiss as he moved his long fingers back towards my dripping core.

“Spread your legs love, I want to see you come undone” Tom demanded sexy as Haz inched closer, still kissing me. At this point I was a puppet and they controlled my strings. Haz raised each of my legs, draping them over his. He opened his legs wide as he grinded his cock underneath me. I arched my back trying to feel as much as him as I could. I felt the air hit my exposed sex and I opened my eyes to meet Tom's dark hooded eyes. My eyes were glazed and I nearly lost it when Haz rubbed my clit with the tip of his finger,my throbbing nub was bundled with nerves. “Touch her Harrison, our beautiful y/n isn't going to make it much longer”

“Is that true y/n?” Haz asked as I looked into his sky blues before closing them. Slipping off the edge. “Give me more time angel, please, I haven't tasted you yet and you smell so fucking good" he cooed as I bit my lip trying to hold on. “I cant Harrison, I'm sorry..” I moaned as he pinched my nub hard making my eyes fly open and I clenched my legs closed. “Humm, well make the most of it baby" he said spreading my legs wide again. I focused on my breathing as his fingers traced my folds. He sucked in his breath as he felt just how wet I was. He ran a long finger through my wetness barely touching my walls. I watched in amazement as he licked my juice from his finger and coated his lips. He pulled me into a hot kiss as he plunged his fingers deep inside me. “Wow,Your so fucking tight angel" Haz gasped sounding surprised and amazed. He kept my legs open and my moans escaped into his mouth. He worked his middle finger at a steady pace as he rubbed my sensitive nub, he curved his finger as he worked in his ring finger.”Fuck” Haz and Tom said at the same time as I broke our kiss to let out a sound mixed of pain and ecstasy. I screamed out Harrisons name in pleasure over and over. “Your so fucking beautiful y/n” Haz said as I exploded hard in his hand. He fingered me fast yet gently as I came undone, hearing and feeling my sex flooding out of me. I closed my eyes and let myself ride out my first orgasm, loving Harrisons name on my lips.

I squirmed as my sex grew sensitive. I grabbed Harrisons arm and held it still as my head swirled. As I started to come down Haz kissed my neck soft. My skin was glistening with sweat. My face was flushed and I started to feel shy at how sensitive and wet I was between my legs.

I buried my hot face into Harrisons arm as he brushed my hair off my face. “You okay y/n?” he asked sweet. I shook my head yes keeping my eyes closed. He cuddled my neck tracing my now cold skin up and down giving me goosebumps. “Can I ask you something angel?” he said just above a whisper. I swallowed hard knowing what it was. I nodded yes as I heard Tom stirring and growing restless for my attention. Haz tilted my chin up and I opened my eyes meeting sky blue ones. FUCK ME! WHY NOW! “Are you a virgin sweetheart?” he asked with a smile already knowing the answer. Tom stood and walked towards us as I said ever so quietly “Yes” Haz raised his eyebrows and sighed  kissing my forehead as I played with his necklace as a distraction. “That's okay right?” I asked as I regained feeling in my legs.

“Yes of course it's okay y/n” Harrison said EXACTLY as Tom said “No it’s not okay y/n” I winced at his words as he looked at Haz with an indescribable expression.

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