#mypeom

I still remember the day we met

In mid summer heat I was bored on my desk

And you walked in and I thought I might not regret

Cause those boring classes are how we met.

And then the journey started, full of laughter, memories and smiles

So many of them it's hard to compile.

But every happy story takes a bad turn

It's an old classical,

And you know how I love them,

Yet I hated this one.

You were my sun on gloomy days,

But I changed to like the days that are gray.

There are some things I really hate

You became the doer of those sins

But I loved you so much, oh, I loved you so much that I blamed it all on fate.

You became the sun under my umbrella,

Too bright for my eyes,

Crossing boundaries I despise,

Not knowing I admire the moon and nights.

I forgive you for the things you did, know that I truly do

But I'm petty and I'm trashy

And I will never forget them;

But I loved you so much, oh, I loved you so much, revenge is not what I'll pursue.

Not when I know I did you bad too.

We're now walking on a bridge built of bandages,

Each hoping it can be fixed again and we can go back to being the friends we once were again.

But we have hurt each other too much,

Fragile heartstrings is now our disadvantage.

You are still positive and bright like the sun,

Showing as if you aren't dazed by all that has happened,

Convincing yourself more than me, that this is just a phase and away it'll burn.

But I see what this truly is,

Optimism stored in red bottles,

Dangerous if not throttled.

But even with all the other names I have, atleast coward is not one of them,

A tree should be cut down when it's rotten from the stem.

This journey with you was full of magic

Know that I'll always love you, even when I'm not around to say that anymore,

But this shouldn't end up being tragic.

So let's bid our goodbyes here and get off this bridge which has been poorly bandaged,

Before it falls under the weight of feigned happiness & normalcy

I've decided to break the code.

I've decided to break the rules.

I've decided to go wild.

Burn myself with mistakes,

I've realised its much better than staying put and not living for society's sake.

These boxes, uniformation and norms made out of nowhere are suffocating me.

All I really want now is to be completely free.

Free to pick what I want,

Even if I know it is a risk

But still pick it, just for the fun of it.

Free to all day be frisky,

Cautions, calculations....all that is too tricky.

I might have read too much about freedom and going wild

Cause my ideas of the same are nothing mild.

To try to give myself the things my heart longs for might be a bold move

But I'm too trapped in my head & it's desires,

And it's my will to which now I'm going to groove.

Explore myself and my destiny,

Live for me and not be guilty.

People who learn to live for themselves are often called selfish,

But those taunts only come from the people who never dared to be free and only wished.

It's fine.

Once you become happy internally is only when you can become someone's sunshine

And boy, that's something the world truly needs,

Many are walking down steps too dark, too undeserving, too brutal for them

And some sunshine is what's needed before all fall down this ravine.

And I know one too many people who have such brightness in them,

It's just eclipsed by doubts or negativity in their hearts and minds,

It will be a long journey with tons of grind;

But once I get it, I'll fly away like the wind,

And I know I'll be happy.

Cries and screams and calls for help

It is so chaotic everywhere.

Deaths and grief and children's yelp

Fear and panic is all that's felt.

Even the bravest of them all have knelt.

But they say with every problem comes a solution,

I'm sure we'll overcome this,

If made a resolution.

Oh no, I'm not being delusional,

But I have faith and I have courage,

It'd be so easy

To just quit

To just distance yourself and say you gave them your best

To just not trust anyone anymore

To just say hell with this world

To just cry and ask the world "why me?"

To just be broken

So darn easy and so damn tempting to just let yourself fall in this darkness.

But I think that's cowardice

I think that isn't brave.

Brave are the one who take the hard path.

Brave are the ones don't give up

Brave are the ones who still give even when they don't receive as much as they deserve

Brave are the ones who don't let one cheat stop them from trusting and loving others

Brave are the ones who see the flaws of this world and yet try making it a better place

Brave are the ones who pick themselves up after every storm and love and be proud of themselves

Brave are the ones who refuse to be broken.

It's not easy to put on a smile and love and be kind - and that's exactly why the ones who choose to do so are braver.