#myownthought

Whatever i feel right now, I should get rid of it as soon as I can.

I know that you loved me in a way that scared you. I challenged you, because i knew the man you were and you didn't like that. I challenged you because I knew you were greater than what you ever gave, you were more worthy than you made yourself to be. Because of your doubt and loss of self love, i lost myself. I lost myself in a way nobody gets out of. I was already lost and broken, and because I tried challenging you and trying to make you the man I knew you were, I put myself in the worse possible place. So the question is, is this life worth living?

Jealousy is a poison That can turn love into hate Makes you deaf for any reason And realization comes too late.

"I love you" the first time you meant it. Not being forced or planned to do it. You did it...... I asked why and you simply said "because you are my friend", but yet as I look for someone to lean my head against a shoulder. You are no where to be found. Was this a memory you wanted me to keep or was it actually planned for the day you leave me I would torture myself thinking back at the moment where you made me genuinely happy.....

Remembering me, before we began.  I was so happy, independent, like damn. Then time flew so quick, & next thing I know, We was holding hands, time had froze But ,  The ones who loved me told me stop, like "Girl, you need to protect your heart". Then some shit happened, next thing I know, I'm back to square one, alone .