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"Come here, baby," Jack called, tapping his lap for Dennis to sit on.

"Find a pillow or something. He's with me for now," Robby snapped, refusing to let go of the boy in his lap, instead even holding onto him tighter.

"You've had him for hours. I just got home from work. I need him more," Jack responded, moving closer to drag Dennis away from the greedy man.

Robby didn't budge. Dennis didn't know what to do, this was the first time this happened and nobody had ever wanted him before, especially two people.

"U-Um," he spoke up shyly, raising a hand. "I can sit on Jack's lap and hold your hand, Robby," he suggested, almost tripping over their names as he was still getting used to it. (He wants to start calling them sir or whatever else but that's a story for another time.)

Jack raised an eyebrow, looking smug. Robby just let go and let Dennis get dragged away from his lap.

"You're so perfect for us, baby," Jack said to his ear, causing the boy's cheeks to heat up.

Robby grabbed the hand he was owed. "I get to have him back soon, alright?"

Jannik when Carlos falls:

@beige-honey Thanks for the tag m'luv.

So, my Mother has dreams that come true. Be it a week, a month, or a year, eventually they come true. Nothing big. Once she dreamed she was making salsa and I invented a new joke and then weeks later I told her I made a new joke and SHE FINISHED THE JOKE FOR ME. Another time she dreamed that we were vacuuming the underside of my mattress. She was super confused and then I woke her up and told her I think we have bedbugs and she looked up what to do because we had never had them before and you're supposed to VACUUM THE MATTTESS EVERYWHERE. EVEN THE UNDERSIDE.

So, I have JUST gotten into cross-stitch. I have had 6 cats in my lifetime but now they're all gone and I wanted to honor them in some way. I realize that I can find a cross-stitch pattern or chart (idk what they're called) and personalize it! So I look up cross-stitch cats and I find the perfect picture so I start copying it onto graph paper so I can make it look like them. I'm drawing the lines and I get this sudden feeling of déja vu. YEARS ago, before I had my 6th cat; I had a dream that I was drawing out my cats EXACTLY this pattern. I woke up and said "well that's stupid. What would I even use that for it's pixeliated. Nice job brain".

I KNEW I WOULD USE THIS CROSS-STITCH PATTERN ABOUT 3 YEARS BEFORE I EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT STARTING CROSS-STITCH. I AM SHOOK. MY MOTHER IS PROUD. WHAT.

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Yes, maybe the £ has skyrocketed in value.

Yes, this is probably due to the stability from Johnson's insistence that Brexit will happen regardless of anything else.

Yes as a teacher I stand to benefit from some of his policies

BUT

As a child who grew up in a single parent family relying on benefits (now replaced by the controversial universal credit)

As a young adult who has relied on food banks

As a human who relies on the NHS for my asthma, contraception, vaccines, general health and mental wellbeing

As a Daughter whose mum wouldn't have been able to afford the treatment for her cancer (which was detected my an NHS funded mammogram) and may have died without the NHS funded emergency C-section she had for my younger brother

As a Niece whose Aunt and Uncle may not have had access to treatment for their cancer without the NHS

As a teacher in a seriously deprived inner city area, where some of the kids I teach dont know where their next meal is coming from, dont know where they'll be living next week, wouldn't have access to food, shelter or medicine without our welfare state

The thought of another term of Tory rule is terrifying.

The thought of another term of cuts to welfare and cuts to tax for the rich/big business leaves me cold.

The thought of children waiting on the floor of our hospitals for a bed

The thought of a medical system that does not serve everyone free of charge

The thought of Trump-esque policies and ideas invading our shores

The thought of the babbling blundering baboon leading our country

Leaves me cold. Leaves me in tears. Leaves me wondering how people could care so little about each other.

As long as I can remember I’ve always tried to see positive on things. Even when everything felt hopeless, I tried to see something positive in just one thing or things attached to it. That’s how my mind works and some days have been so hard to see positive things and that’s okay. That’s what I told myself every time ‘cause I knew that somehow I’ll get back on track. 

People admired my thinking on life and for me it was a way to survive. A way to find happiness during these hard times.  Last year, 2018, I couldn’t deal with my emotions anymore. All the things I went through got over me. I couldn’t feel my emotions but at the same time they where all over me. I lost my way of positive thinking, I couldn’t see it and it scared me, so I went to a psychologist and she helped me deal with all this.

During this period I got more and more into games and I fell in love with the game Detroit become human. I saw one person playing it and wanted to see more of it! I search and found Jacksepticeye. I started watching and was so in to that game. I really loved it.

I started watch more of Seans content and found out that he talked about mental health and how important that is. I got more interested and found out about PMA - Positive Mental Attitude.

The describing of it was exactly how I tried to deal with things during my life and I got a smile on my face. I got reminded of how too see on life. Also I wasn’t alone anymore in how I was trying to see things before and how I felt at that time. 

Finding a community that cares so much about each other and trying together to see things more positive. That was what I needed at that time and now. Well, I’m not the person who commenting everywhere and so on but I feel apart of it. I finally find something that reminds me everyday to keep fighting the same way I’ve done before and even see more people do it.