#myidealman

I always tell my friends na when you ask something from God - you be specific about it. Para alam ni God kung ano bang trip mo sa buhay. Sabi nung Boss kong maganda (sasabihin ko maganda s’ya para in case she came across this post di naman nya sabihing binalahura ko s’ya. Hello Boss Gene!! ) - same goes when you’re looking for a man, a partner in life. You have to be specific about it. Law of attraction, ganern. 

She said to do it in 10 consecutive days. No specific prayer just the idea of what your partner to be. And be specific about it. Dapat walang palya. Mas maganda pa nga daw kung same time everyday for the next 10 days. When she told me about it - God, I’m so tired of ending up with the wrong person and getting hurt by the same type of guys. Ayoko na. Sawa na ko. It sounds easy enough so I said, tangina - LET’S DO THIS!

Nagsimula na ko last week. Basic lang sabi ko. Pero kasi sobrang stress ko sa work and sa therapy ko - nakakatulugan ko yung future partner ko. Hindi ko s’ya napipinta sa utak ko. 

Pero eto na. Sisimulan ko na ang magcommit. Kay God. And sa future partner ko.

“The man in your dreams is not the man in your heart.” 

  When I was younger, I have set my standards to look for in a man. I focused on the physical aspects. I want someone who is taller than my height, has broad biceps, chinito, fair skin, dark hair, and dark eyes. My friends would teased me, "Friend, model ba hanap mo?" (trans: "Friend, are you looking for a model?") I constantly remind my self before that if someone court me, I will not entertain him if he did not pass my standards. When I was at the age where all my friends have boyfriends and I am left single, I thought to lower my standards and focus more on the intellectual aspects. If a guy sends me a love letter, I forgot to appreciate the letter because what I do is I proofread the letter and become a grammar nazi.

  At the age of 16, there is this guy who courted me. He was persistently talking to me, even if my reply was just an emoji and he still have something to say. He then asked me to go out for a date, and surprisingly I said yes. Which I never did to any man who likes me. Our date was my first date, I did not know what to say but he handle me very well. He is very talkative! I can say that he is an easy-going person. Time passed, and he became the man in my heart. Attributes that I love about him is that he is caring, has goals in life, loves not only me but my family as well, he easily expressed his thoughts, and he is very close to our creator. He brought out the best in me. One time, I always asked myself, "Saan na napunta standards mo?" (trans: "Where did your standards go?") He may not the be man of my dreams, but he is the man in my heart. Now, he became my standards which I found funny. He then became the man in my dreams and in my heart.