I slept for two hours after i cried myself into apathy. I feel completely broken up and im at a loss for expression. I feel compelled to let whatever is left in me out. Ive reached a breaking point. Its not just one thing or one insecurity or one failed attempt or one apology left unsaid. Ive tried to keep it all in and keep it together for our family but i need more from you. Point blank period. Im unstable. Im more fragile than ive ever been. If you want this to work, i need you to fully grasp that and be patient with me. Fucking nurture me a little bit. Stop acting like everything is alright and realize i need reassurance. I need you to give me the love i can feel deep in my heart. My world is crashing around me and im constantly battling with myself. I dont think youre ready to give me what i truly need from you. I need emotional support the way you need physical affection and intimacy. How can you not understand how serious i am when i tell you im done if you cant find it in yourself to at least try and give me what i feel i need from you? Your lack of consideration for me is completely fucked. Tell everyone youre innocent and im crazy all you want but i know in my heart that this is not right. I dont want to do this but i feel like im getting drug through the mud and i have to do something. If youre willing to just let it go and give up on our family, fine. But i feel like i have to do this for myself if you arent willing to compromise. Dont you dare convince yourself that this was soley my decision when you couldve tried. Oh how the tables have turned. And I know my heart wont let you go without a fight. You better believe Ill be holding on to the love we had for decades, babygirl
