Jan 21
Look, just PLEASE don't stick me in a time loop, I will give up five loops in and eternally rot instead of solving the root of the cause. Drop me in something post- or mid-apocalyptic and either I'll thrive in my natural setting of scrappy ass motherfucker or I'll die because my body is fucked up and can't keep up with my conniving and vicious sense of self-preservation; in the end my mental state will be significantly better than if I get stuck in a time loop.
An unresolved time loop is like discount immortality and immortality encompasses everything i'd hate to be, forever.
#canned rambling#yes I do have a weird hang up about pre/mid/post apocalypse shit#yes it has to do with my violent urges and cutthroat base instincts that disturb others#also my bat.#mybat#mysoftballbat#I have a weird thing about that too#my mom's terrified of dying I'm terrified of living forever. we are not the same. in fact we are so fundamentally different it's not funny#I'm a bloodthirsty cutthroat conniving paranoid grudge-holding rage-filled bundle of unnerving charm#I'm awful with social interactions doesn't seem to stop people from thinking I'm charismatic and sweet irl. which is so fkng weird. but wtvr
