Who What When Where Why How
We leaned the W’s at such an early age but who knew it would be so applicable.
It’s the cure to sanity, it’s the heal to hurt, we can’t progress without understanding the W’s , I can’t progress without understanding the double You’s.
The W’s , who you did it with , what you did , when you did it , where you did it , you said you told me all ,I know that’s not true and that makes it hard too, but despite that still we missed two.
Two W’s that tell me all about the double you. Why you did it and how could you ? What thoughts and things make you capable to not care if I knew who ?
I can’t understand it , I can’t fathom it and lord knows I try to but I can’t understand why this is what you would do.
Are you that cold ? Do you care that less ? Why make such a mess, you claim you love me no less , the most at best and anybody else was just sex but let’s put that to the test.
If you love me best why not be concerned with if this man would see me and shake my hand before y’all had sex ? How can you not care if it’s close to home ? How can you not care how Id feel when i found out on my own ? How can you take them to your home ? The same place I call my home. The same place where we share everything about us, the place where I feel safe .
It wasn’t safe, last night you was face to face with a man that knows my face , last night you all were laughing and fucking with a spice of the drugging , then you call me you see me you love me you hug me like it’s nothing. Ouch , I’m swearing you’re my woman and he swearing by his nutting.
But I’m the one your claiming that you’re loving, where’s my loving ? I’m sick to my stomach in the bed wishing that you’d be coming , but instead your out drinking and talking with a man you claim is nothing . Where’s my loving ?
It’s the double you , you make me feel like everything is true, like no lies to my eyes and you’ll ride by my side but you and these men know what you do.
How could you ? That’s where I get stuck and start to lose the fucks I give . I made you my rib and you slid off , that’s cold that’s raw . So I ask myself how could you , what would it take for you to do what you do , because these are things even my heart won’t let me do , so how could you ?
Capability is the part that’s scaring me . You too raw , you too ill , you too cold, the things you do you must lack soul and in hindsight it shows. You can’t care the way you claim you do but do what you do , not worried if I’d know or how you’ll tarnish me by letting them be with you.
So how could I ? How could I marry such a soul ? Care so less about one self that that your unbothered to unvalue another soul. If it was just sex , I could put it to rest , but you chose people whom I know. I can’t get it out my head , knowing them and knowing how they had you . Knowing you were my woman but they kiss and they grab you , they had you. That hurts and they know , god damn it I’m a man with pride how do I let that go ? How do I shake his hand knowing he’s the man whom my woman gave it to . While I was at work then I came back to you.
That’s cold , you may think it’s old but real men knows , that don’t get old , it feel new , everytime I hear their names , I see their faces, I see you . Reminded everytime of how you went against me and you. For other boys it may be easy they may be used to , but men like me ? Naw ! Men that give their all and live with moral and integrity , the alpha ? All he ponders is How could you ? Knowing I’m good to you , knowing I’d kill for you , I’m real with you, how could you ?
How could you care but yet you lie , time after time right in my eyes ? Year after year , lie after lie , I can’t find the truth at any time, But I guess that’s the double you. When I met you I fell for you , now I feel stuck with you , I don’t want to leave because I love you but how do I accept the foul in you?
How can I progress if I can’t understand the last two ? I can’t understand how you can love me and care but you do what you do. Lie after lie , time after time , trips tricks and dicks , but I still I want to accept you. If I didn’t love you it was something I’d never do , the only cope I find is that we know I’m not innocent too, but never like you. Never close to you because I love you , I cant hurt you , never people who could embarrass you , I can’t do that to you and most of all I vowed I can’t lie to you . That’s when one cares about not only you but themselves too, they tell their truths right or wrong and give you the choice to believe or leave, they don’t manipulate you, they don’t disgust them selves , they value and appreciate you.
You sacrificed for us , so that tells me there’s something more in you , or maybe you did it because you knew I would fight for you . Maybe you planned it so we’ll be here , aiming to strive once more . If you manipulated that your colder than before , is that my fault . Or maybe it’s genuine , maybe you just don’t think , maybe you need me and you’ll be your best for me . Maybe you can , maybe you will, but I know what you can and you will do . What your capable of , ive seen it oh so clear . So how can I believe in you ?
No matter how many times you say never again, I know inside of you there’s a double you. Is that the devil you ? Can you rid the double you ? The double you done things to even him I can’t believe , I remember nights you having me , I’m in his place in your face , his car outside and I seen it clear but the lies you told had me blinded near, and then you did it to me . As true as can be , over a year I had my way with you and not a sign of remorse on you , but you was going home with him to be. That’s dark capability, your cold , your bold , and then you did it to me.
It’s in you , it’s the double you , something is broke because how can you be so cruel , the excuses you told for why you’d do it to him don’t stand for me. So it’s not the what , it’s The Who , The Who is you , the double you. How can I trust you ? Give me a way and I’ll take it because I want to , how do I kill the one I fear ? The one whose capable ? How do I kill the double you ?
