#my random personal posts

I may have lost a friend because of something I did and I feel like writing it down might make it easier to handle. 

I’ve heard people say their political views shouldn’t effect their friendships and other relationships in any way and that people can vote for whoever they want.

there was a girl at my gym today who had shaved almost all of her hair off and she looked so cool! She noticed me looking at her and in a momentary attack of braveness I told her I love her hair.  Now I keep wondering if she’s queer. I know, it doesn’t mean a woman is queer if they have short hair, but somehow I think an average straight woman wouldn’t shave almost all of it off. Not that I know that many straight people. :P What do you guys think?

Sometimes I’m just so frustrated and tbh pissed you know. The reason for these feelings may sound like nothing, but it’s something my life seems to revolve around these days.  I have constant cold-like symptoms, including fatigue. I mean they’re seriously constant. 

That wouldn’t be such a big deal if I didn’t have daily problems with my back and the only cure/relief is regular exercising. If I can’t exercise at least 3-4 times a week, my back problems won’t let me sleep properly.  And I feel like my depression and anxiety make insomnia feel worse than it actually is. But the worst thing about insomnia is that it makes exercising the next day difficult.

i gotta admit i think i just kinda outdid myself. i went for a long walk even tho i was so tired i just wanted to cry (haven’t been sleeping so well lately) 

reeeaally hoping this will help me sleep tonight 

*crosses fingers*

but like.. i’m feeling .. a bit accomplished? good for what i managed to do? almost even proud of myself? 

Just my random thoughts so under the cut

I was at the gym today and saw this nice woman I hadn’t seen in a year or possibly even longer than that but anyway, we talked and she said I’m about half the size I was when she last saw me!!!!

I struggle with weight (haven’t managed to lose any in a while) and it felt so incredibly good to hear someone say I look smaller anyway!!!  It’s not always just the number that your scale shows you that matters, so I shouldn’t stress about it so much!