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Wye Oak: “Fortune” (2020)
“The truth is always when it's gone it's gone / but I left you a fortune.”
Wye Oak is right. There’s no denying that when it’s over, it’s over. But the significance of any relationship isn’t the amount of time spent but how much it’s worth personally. I met a follower of mine here and it was three weeks of nervous texts, commonalities, trading pics-, and openness like I never experienced before. It also came with some red flags of hers that I should’ve seen from far away and moved on, but made it all the more interesting. Three weeks lead up into spending four hours of time with someone in the same town as mine on a cloudy June Wednesday, a 20-mile drive to walk around Gardiner State Park and Argyle Lake to reveal our entire hands and have everything smoothed out. We had some moments of awkwardness but seven times that of laughs and smiles. It was an hour-long slow drive back to take her home, but I made the most of our time together.Â
That Wednesday was the definitive end of what was great between us. A week later we were done. She became a totally different person by taking advantage of my anxiety, the very things she suffers from. Texts went silent, her posts to make me see her true disposable intent, and outright lying to me about future plans left me with an awfully disgusting taste in my mouth. The difference is clear as to how we saw the value in this: she was a priority and I was an option. There was more fortune in my eyes than in hers and that says a lot about me still being positive about one of the biggest mishaps I’ve ever experienced. But despite the acrimony we have for each other, I’m grateful for these positive moments spent with her, and they were better than all the nothing I had before it.
