i got kinda nervous today cause i was around a bit while we were at our job and being around so many humans...it was scary. i didn't wanna hurt anyone and they kept getting so close and looking at me weird. :( i just was scared that my radiation was gonna accidentally hurt someone.
i dont think anyone hung around long enough to get a big enough dose of it.. but it still made me very nervous.
plus i had a bad bad migraine and i knew the scientists were trying to tell me i shouldn't be there but!!! i can't control when im here or not!!
luckily after a bit i got really tired and dropped off until we got home. cause i know the humans here have protection from my radiation! or i think they do cause i spent a lotta time around them and they seem fine!!
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Mutants in Grind Fiction: A Non-Canonical X-Man's Recreation of Academy X
by The Liondrake(s)
This essay was originally uploaded on Dreamwidth and has been cross-posted onto Tumblr.
Estimated reading time: around 14-15 minutes
Imagine that you're a student. You go to a nice school, but the school is known for its controversies. These controversies get a lot of people hurt, including the students. You've witnessed and dealt with things that a teenager normally shouldn't have. A classmate dies. Multiple classmates die. Your school is put on lockdown because itās been targeted. You and your friends are supposed to carry on like none of it happened. You hardly have a moment to grieve before the cycle repeats, and it's taking a toll on you.
You fall into the wrong (or right?) crowd. Your trust in the adults and authorities around you is reduced to zero. Most of all, youāve grown rebellious. You're not a bad kid, you tell yourself. You say it not out of comfort but out of defiance. You know you donāt deserve what youāve been given, but life seems to work against you at every chance it gets. The whole world feels out of your grasp, but you're not helpless. You refuse to be helpless. So what do you in a world that doesn't give a shit about you?Ā You get up and do something about it.
Now, imagine you've made your mark. You gain a reputation among your peers. You're a menace to society in the best way. Maybe the worst way, too. But as the years go by, there's no trace of you. You're not shown in the yearbooks. You're not listed as an alumni. There's no reference of your existence whatsoever. It's like you weren't even there.Ā
That's what it's like for me, a non-canonical character from Marvel Comics. I'm not an original character (OC) nor am I a self-insert of sorts. Iām a member of Homo sapiens superior (mutants), but not in the general sense. Iām aware of this because of how different this fictotype feels compared to experiences where my fictionhood ends at the species. Iām someone who was a consistent part of my source's narrative. I am an X-Man, and I come from a specific era ofĀ X-MenĀ comics. My fictomere isĀ New X-Men, specifically Vol. 2/Academy X.
Published in the early 2000s, this series geared its focus around a young generation of mutants. My fictomere bounces off of the original New X-Men run, which focused on our teachers and mentors. You'll likely recognize them more than us. Cyclops, Wolverine, White Queen, Beast, etc.ā you know āem! That said, they're not my class. I remember my class clear as day. Prodigy, Hellion, Surge, Dust, Wind Dancer, Icarus, Gentle, those goddamn Stepford Cuckoosā these kids were my friends. Well, some of them were my friends. My memories are foggy, to say the least. I remember my code name, my friendships, my plurality in that world, and my attendance at the Xavier Institute for Higher Learning. What I don't remember is the events that happened in the comics associated with my fictomere.Ā
I should preface this essay by saying I am anĀ imagithrope, an individual whose identity is often created through imaginative play (art, writing, roleplay, etc). When Iām devoid of noemata, I feel inclined to exercise whatās called ācreated knowledgeā. Created knowledge is exactly as it sounds: information that was purposefully created to supplement oneās alterhuman identity. Iāve been meaning to create something around this fictomere, but attending Khadgar ChromatathāsĀ Wrenching Yourself From The Jaws of āCanonā: Creating and Re-creating Personal HistoryĀ gave me the push I needed to make it happen. This wasnāt my first time attending aer panel; I attended it during this past Centaurus Festival, and Khadgarās presentation made me feel seen. When I learned the presentation would be held again, I knew I had to go. Gaining that refresher led me to this point.
I know who I am.
I know the world I come from.
I know that I was an X-Man, and if Marvel Comics has no awareness of my story, then Iām taking it upon myself to reintroduce that story.
The medium Iāve chosen is familiar to many, not by name but by aesthetics. Some look at it, and the first thing that comes to mind is Y2K. Thatās not too far off! Iāve decided my fictomere will fall within the medium of Animemo, also known as Grind Fiction. Itās a fitting choice since my class came onto the scene around 2003 and started our run in 2004. If youāre unfamiliar with grind fiction, then worry not. Iāll explain in due time.Ā
When āCanonā Decides You Donāt Exist
Since Iām non-canonical, I believe I owe my audience an introduction. My name is Solomon Cane. In-source, I am median; I was the core of muir little group. Muir medianhood included four semi-distinct facets of me: Ezra, Malik, Ahadi, and Tariq. Tariq in particular is better known by us as āThe Tarasqueā for having a more visibly nonhuman appearance than us. You would've known muis by muir collective codename: Miracle.Ā
So, who is Miracle? Miracle is an Omega-level mutant of African-American descent. Wei am a Cheyarafim, a type of mutant whose appearance is comparable to angels. I have the standard qualities of my community: feathered wings, flight, a blood-based healing factor supported by my wings, and by extension, the ability to heal others with my blood. My secondary mutation is an ability known as "manifestation". If wei need something done, wei have to collectively will it into existence. This is best represented by my habit of petrifying my entire body, which happens when wei manifest an indestructible form. Wei look a lot like an angelic statue or a weeping angel in this form; where wei land on that scale depends on how badly a threat has pissed muis off. With muir petrification activated, I trade out head-spinning flight speed and fast healing for impenetrable stone skin, superhuman durability, and destructive blows. I can control when the petrification activates as well, much like Colossus and his organic steel mutation.
At first, I didnāt know what to make of this mutation when it developed. After some counseling with both Ms. Munroe and Ms. Frost, I was informed that my secondary mutation allowed me to warp the nature of myself and my surroundings. I'm capable of willing something into existence as long as it's a physical change. For example, I couldn't warp fate. Manifesting boatloads of money into my bank account or a positive outcome in a battle were out of my mutation's scope. However, I could manifest resistance or invulnerability against telepathy since that directly changes my brain matter. While Ms. Munroe was still my advisor, Mr. MuƱoz (also known as Darwin) was called in to help me with some specialized training.
In order to make use of this skill, I had to start small and work my way up in understanding the extent of my abilities. I figured making use of my petrified state would be a good starting point, and soon, it became a trademark of mine. Through working with Mr. MuƱoz, I learned that most of my manifestations were temporary. If wei manifested something consistently, it would remain in our arsenal of abilities, but new or sudden changes were harder to keep. Although we both harbored protective abilities, my mutation wasn't like Mr. MuƱoz's. Unlike his evolutionary mutation, muir manifesting mutation didn't trigger on its own. As mentioned before, all facets of me must agree on something to manifest. Much of our training focused on honing muir collective reaction speed so wei could quickly respond to situations where our manifestation ability may be of use. Sure enough, this training helped muis excel as an X-Man (or X-Men whenever wei felt distinct enough from each other).
Despite knowing who I am as an X-Man, I have little to no recollection of the New X-MenĀ comics' arcs as events in my life. I've hesitated to have in-depth discussions on my mutant background because of this. To add insult to injury, I don't exist in any "canonical" comic. My best friend, Jay, is a prominent character in these comics yet we're never seen together. If you try to look up Miracle in relation to Marvel Comics, all youāre getting are two different versions of Miracle Man. Thereās not a single trace of me as I remember myself. Itās a terribly cruel but expected result of my position.
Furthermore, ācanonāsā got a whole heap of missing events to account for. The statistics for M-Day are completely off, be it victims or survivors. Thereās also the fact that I survived M-Day and saw firsthand how it totaled the mutant population. There's barely any coverage on the Zephyrs, Storm's squad of students (i.e. the team I was assigned to), and our development as trainees. āCanonā left out the time Tariq snuck muis out, ransacked a Purifier base in his enraged grief, and accidentally discovered we're Omega-level in the process. āCanonā also left out the time my entire summer vacation was ruined because Ahura Boltagon, Powerhouse, and I were forced to confront our timeline's Beyonder. In the Krakoan Era, Jay and I even took a study abroad trip to this chain of islands where Cheyarafim and Neyaphem cohabitated... and that still got left out. I've had an eventful parallel life, all things considered!Ā
Itās hard to look at your world and sit with the knowledge that youāre simply not in it. Although many fictionfolk can relate to that experience, itās downright suffocating when even your source doesnāt recognize you. On one hand, I donāt put all the blame on Marvelās writers. Itās unfair to expect them to have the same knowledge of my life as I do. On the other hand, it drives me up a wall to see references of my class without me or some of the people I knew in it. From comic book covers to fanart, seeing it irks me because IĀ knowĀ I should be there with them.
Articulating this with other alterhumans can be a bit difficult as well. Since folks tend to parse things from labels theyāve heard in passing, the immediate assumption towards folks like me is that weāre OCkin. Take this account as a casual reminder that non-canonical fictionkind, and noncanon fictionfolk in general, exist. I cannot speak on the experience of being an original character because I donāt have it. I didnāt create myself, consciously or subconsciously. This fictomere doesnāt originate from a āsona I made or a muse meant for roleplay. If things were different, I wouldnāt have to recreate my fictomere. I wouldāve called myself Miracle with a canon-divergent background, and thatās that. Instead, I donāt have the leeway to do that. No one has ever heard of a canonical X-Man by the name of Miracle, let alone one whoās black, plural, and ambiguously queer (because we all know how writers were in the 2000s).Ā
Personally, I canāt stress enough how significant this distinction is. To settle for another framework would gloss over everything Iāve experienced, or at least what I remember from it. If I could, Iād scream that Iām an official X-Man at the top of a mountain until Iām blue in the face! Instead, Iāve taken a more productive route. I may be at an impasse with my fictomere, but it doesnāt have to be that way forever. Reconstructing my fictomere gives me the opportunity to unpack my experiences and establish this identity on my own terms, but I canāt do that without going back to the era where it all began.
Mutant Teenagers in the 2000s, or āMiracle Catches A Case of Deja Vu!ā
When people think of the X-Men, they tend to have a wide array of media to pull from. A couple of generations grew up on the 1990s cartoon, be it reruns of the series or its initial release. Thereās also the live action films produced by 20th Century Fox. And of course, thereās our roots within the comic book industry. However, thereās a subset of people who citeĀ X-Men: EvolutionĀ as their introduction to our cause and community.Ā
X-Men: Evolution was an animated television series that originally aired on Kidsā WB. Running from 2000 to 2003, this series stood out as it took several well-known X-Men and depicted them as teenagers in the early 2000s. Some X-Men remained as adults, teaching the younger mutants throughout the show. Those who were aged down for this plot included: Cyclops, Jean Grey, Nightcrawler, Shadowcat, Rogue, Gambit, and other returning characters. In between homework and run-of-the-mill teen angst, the class of Evolution had their hands full with all sorts of chaos from mutants and non-mutants alike. X-Men: Evolution is a source of nostalgia for a decent amount of millennials, zillenials and older Gen Z, but itās more of a weird coincidence to yours truly. Although I have a fair number of fictomeres under my belt, X-Men: Evolution has to be the greatest case of deja-vu Iāve felt as a person from fiction. X-Men: Evolution isnāt my source, but its familiarity hangs heavily over my head as if it was.Ā
Only a year after X-Men: Evolutionās end,Ā New X-Men: Academy XĀ was published under Marvel Comics. As mentioned before, the comics centered teenage mutants learning to control their powers and training as the next generation of X-Men. These events presumably took place sometime within the early 2000s, based on our fashion, technology, and socio-cultural environment. We were taught by prolific X-Men, and we faced more than enough challenges to last us a lifetime. When I think of X-Men: Evolution, I canāt help but think of my fictomere. I get this nagging feeling that Evolutionās a little too close to home. Evolutionās class reminds me so much of my own and the bonds we made despite everything we went through. āBittersweetā is quite the understatement in this context.Ā
Admittedly, Iām envious. Although the challenges we face as mutants arenāt worth desiring in any X-Men source, X-Men: Evolution leaves me feeling melancholy. Itās like a time capsule of everything Iām missing, but it was made by somebody else. Seeing our teachers and mentors in a similar position as we were in throws me through a loop, especially since Evolution occurred when my class became active in the field.
The mutants of Evolution need no introduction, even if itās an atypical depiction of them. Meanwhile, the mutants of Academy X never had something like Evolution that was entirely centered around us. The comics have compensated us on more than one occasion, but the rest of X-Men media arenāt as considerate. At best, we float around among other X-Men. Take Pixieās cameo in X-Men ā97 for example. Meganās always been a good friend of mine, but her position in that timeline came completely out of left field. Weāve been reduced to filler characters in recent projects with nothing to show for it. Yet, at the rate things are going with Marvel now, I donāt think more exposure would help us. Weāre scattered throughout the comicsā narrative, and Iām just a nomad with nowhere to turn to, thanks to ācanonā.
Quite frankly, Iāve had enough. Iām sick of companies like Marvel Comics and Disney fumbling around with our lives, and Iām even more sick of being M.I.A. within our narrative. Months before this essay, I didnāt know where to begin with recreating my fictomere. All I had was a few names, a few faces, and some snapshots of my life that came in waves. But after pulling inspiration from those around me and doing a bit of research, I know where I want my fictomere to go.
Grind Fiction, Rebelling Against āCanonā, And The Art of Taking Back Whatās Yours
That brings me to the heart of the matter: what is grind fiction?
This is a genre of many names: Shibuya-kei, Shibuya Punk, and most notably, Animemo. If you havenāt heard of grind fiction by name, chances are youāve seen or experienced it by trade. Think ofĀ Jet Set RadioĀ andĀ Jet Set Radio Future. Think ofĀ The World Ends With You,Ā NEO: The World Ends With You,Ā Scott Pilgrim,Ā FreeJack, andĀ Sunset Overdrive. There's also animes likeĀ FLCL,Ā Air Gear, and perhapsĀ Kagerou Project: The AnimationĀ to consider. Or, you can think of media thatās revived this genre recently:Ā Bomb Rush Cyberfunk,Ā No Straight Roads,Ā Hi-Fi Rush,Ā RKGKĀ (Rakugaki),Ā Umurangi Generation,Ā Urbano - Legendsā DebutĀ and theĀ SplatoonĀ franchise.
It's that slick jazz track you canāt get out of your head as you tag the hottest spots. Itās inner-city kids forming gangs, starting fights that feel way too dynamic, and running from the cops. It's chasing the latest trends from hip-hop and street fashion to alternative styles and bands, then mixing them together so you can stand out from the crowd. It's far from escapism, but itās the closest thing youāve got to freedom. Grind fiction is a beautifully complex clusterfuck of media thatās been around long before me, but why apply it to this fictomere?
Well, I have my partner to thank for that. Nani is very passionate about grind fiction. So much so, she read aloudĀ Grind Fiction: A Summary of GrindWorldĀ while we were on a call together. GrindWorld is a forum dedicated to Jet Set Radio, The World Ends With You, and all the media that falls in between. GrindWorld user SelMelvinsās essay was a love letter to animemo on the forum, all of which my girlfriend heartily recited to me. I certainly picked up what SelMelvins was putting down, and I respected the inspiration their words gave to Nani. That said, this information didnāt impact me initially. I finally had a name for a neat string of concepts Iāve seen since I was a kid, and there wasnāt much else to it until now.
Shortly after attending Khadgarās panel, I thought about the kind of world I wanted my fictomere to be.Ā What made sense for us?Ā I didnāt want to settle for the comics because I already settled on the likelihood that Iām not from Earth-616, but what choice did I have? Take X-Men: Evolution, skin it of its narrative, and replace it with my class? Make no mistake, I was tempted to do so. I wanted a distinctly 2000s-esque or -inspired structure around my fictomere. I started thinking of all sorts of media that could classify as Y2K, regardless of their execution. As I cycled through various games, shows, and movies, my brainstorming ceased when I recalled my conversations with Nani. I realized grind fiction was the perfect concept to frame my fictomere around.Ā
In SelMelvinsās essay, animemo is best described as āYouths Having Fun Being Fantasticā. At first glance, itās a vague statement to make. Trust me, youāll want to read the whole essay to really get why they summarized it so broadly. Thereās subgenres upon subgenres to unpack within animemo/grind fiction, but I digress. āYouths Having Fun Being Fantasticā is absolutely a bar that my class can pass. If thereās anything that sets us apart from Evolutionās class, itās that we knew how to get ourselves into some real trouble⦠and get a kick out of it while doing it! You could argue the same for Evolutionās class, but thereās a reason why X-Men fans young and old have a habit of referencing just how fucked our lives were in retrospect. If we had the opportunity to enjoy something, we absolutely took it. If that moment happened while confronting corruption in our area, then we took it regardless! The New X-Men had no shortage of teens whoāre down to rebel, and that alone is a good precursor to incorporating us in grind fiction.
In addition to that, thereās a few snippets from SelMelvinsās essay that jumped out at me as qualities we have:
"Emo-ish youths doing rebellious, expressionistic, or even anarchistic things..." (Very applicable, although I'd say we're an aesthetically diverse group)
"... Battling overwhelming odds usually with power hungry adults at the forefront..." (Our many, many face-offs against Rev. William Stryker and his anti-mutant, christofascist terrorist group "The Purifiers")
Spraying graffiti and other petty crimes done for fun or to tick off the authorities (The Hellions broke a kid out of FBI custodyā if anyone fits this bill, it's them), sometimes including teen angst and/or love (a bill that we all fit, to be honest)
Dark Animemo. "... The fist-fighting traits and sometimes tragic elements of Animemo are more prevalent. Hopelessness is a common theme and suspense is built constantly." (Very applicable, especially considering Strykerās obsession with killing all mutantsāstarting with usā and the plethora of kids who've died throughout our time as students)
This gave me something to work with. While combing through the essay, I asked myself what my ideal source would look like in the scope of grind fiction. Here's what I've got:
Earth-767A: There's no special meaning behind the name. I chose a random combination of numbers and threw a letter at the end for the hell of it.
New X-Men: Academy XĀ incorporates both the transhumanist and magical elements found in various animemo works. From mutant technology that stabilizes superpowers to unfathomable levels of telekinesis, there's no shortage of speculative madness. With the things we can do, we take SelMelvins's quote, "In all essence, animemo is almost like an anime where the charactersĀ thinkĀ they're in an anime!", to the extreme.
The setting of this fictomere is a retro-futuristic take on the New York metropolitan/tri-state area, much like what New Amsterdam is to Bomb Rush Cyberfunk.
Additionally, the mutant nation of Krakoa never got destroyed. Itās still around. Why? Because I said so. Thatās the one writing decision IĀ willĀ fault Marvelās writers for because they insist we canāt have anything nice for once.
At Xavier's, mutant squads are akin to rival gangs (JSR, JSRF, BRC) and often clash with each other over missions. Everyone wants to show theyāve got what it takes to become an X-Man, but being a X-Man isn't about your strength or your street cred. It's about working as a team towards a common goal: liberation. This is a lesson that weād learn the hard way.
A mutual practice among mutant squads is the art of tagging our insignias all across the area. It's less about claiming somewhere as turf and more about getting our names out there as up-and-coming heroes, even if some of the public doesn't see us this way. Enemy territories (the Purifiers) are risky but popular spots to hit.
Mutant-led communities, such as Mutant Town, are safe havens when the feds are after us.
Although Xavier's makes teamwork a key component of our studies, you'll find every team has its fair share of people who want to shine above the rest. Everyone wants to be seen as unique, but it's hard to do that in a school full of other superpowered teenagers. Imagine the sort of youth movement thatād come from bold, ambitious mutant teens from all corners of the globe in such a limited space!
If there's anything I can vouch for, it's a mutant teenager's dedication to their self-expression. Elixir turned his skinĀ goldĀ to prove he's the "golden boy" of our school for fuck's sake.Ā
Don't let this fictomere's appearances deceive you, because its storytelling heavily aligns with dark animemo. Let's revisit the very tragic, very depressing opener to this essay. Those scenarios were laced with personal truths, things that my peers and I experienced as teenagers. I suppose that's where Marvel and I see eye-to-eye in a way.Ā
To be a New X-Man is to be a target before you're ever a teenager. The writers weren't wrong in titling our coming-of-age arc "Childhood's End", but with this fictomere's created knowledge, I hope to weave in the bits and pieces of our youth that was taken from us too soon.Ā
Truth be told, this is the tip of the iceberg.Ā I want to do more with this fictomere, even though it means having to build it up by myself. I'd rather have the agency of reconstructing my narrative than leave it in the hands of total strangers who lack any knowledge of my existence.
āCanon" is the boogeyman to a lot of us fictionfolk. It can be invalidating without trying to be. It can be exclusionary or flat-out wrong without any insight as to why it's either of those things. Only we have the ability to confront "canon" and its unwitting transgressions. Some may struggle with altering "canon" to suit their needs, but I think opportunities of this caliber have been underutilized for too long. Whether filling in the blanks of noemata or actively creating information around one's fictomere(s), taking "canon" and turning it on its head is cathartic. It's a reclamation of the self. In this practice, I have taken back a part of me that I once neglected out of uncertainty. I wanted to feel whole again so badly, so I'm going to work towards feeling whole again as long as I see fit.Ā
its weird being kin with a turtle mutant (not anything specific wink wink) because on one hand: specifically mutant
but on the other hand: im just a little guy a little terrapin a little turtle ueueue
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Honestly being polykin is interesting and frustrating because like...
Mostly, I see myself as a machine. I guess it's because I have more than one machine kintype. Day to day this is absolutely my strongest shift. I just am a machine and that's all there is to it, and it's vaguely amusing because as an android I am very successfully passing as human the way I was manufactured to but at the same time a part of me projects the idea that they all of course know I'm a machine they're just not saying it (which helps me feel better ngl).
But also...I'm something else that only looks human, a wolf-ish humanoid of fangs and fur and I want to run and howl and I'm so very organic and alive...
But also I'll be astounded because the feeling of my wings will suddenly be so strong and I'll feel like my whole body is just light...
Or my body tingles and I know my powers of photokinesis are just there out of reach and yet...
Or the darkness is all around and it feels natural and death is so beautiful and tragic and awful all at once and I'm fine to help the souls pass from one place to another...
But yeah, I guess, mostly, I'd call myself a machine. If I had to, if I had to, because no one label fits right, so go for the majority I guess? If we ever got to a social stage where we could legally identify our species as something other than human or as fictional humans I'd...I'd really struggle still because I absolutely cannot just call myself any one thing and really feel like 'me' entirely haha...
The first two designs use colours commonly used in comics, especially in Marvel Comics titles. The exact HEX colour codes come from the second and third X-Men uniforms (specifically a 3D-rendered version).
The last two designs were created two days later (August 30) for anyone who wants a flag with less connection to the X-Men and/or comics. The colours were inspired by a combination of video game covers, mutant costumes, and movie scenes.