#muse rant

“Can I for once not get a porn blog interacting with my shit?”

“...I was mad at myself. I was mad for everything that was happening around me. I just felt completely powerless in the face of a stage that was completely beyond me, and no matter what I did, nothing seemed to prevent that. I had lost Iori because I was powerless. Evie had erased herself because she felt that everything that had happened was her fault... had I been able to do something, I might’ve done something to stop her from disappearing. But I couldn’t... All I could do was sit back and watch as guys more powerful than me take the center stage and do whatever they pleased. I hated it! I hated it so much! I wanted to do more... I wanted to stop the catastrophes that were happening around me no matter what stood before me, but even with the training, the experience, and the people who stood with me, I couldn’t do a single thing! What the hell was it that I was calling Misfortune?! What the hell was it that I saw at the end of this crazy tunnel?!  I just wanted the people around me to be happy, I wanted to be happy with them, and I wanted everyone to be safe too! I wanted to hold onto that sense of normalcy that I had up til this point, but everything kept happening that prevented me from having that outcome!

I... I don’t want to fight anymore. I don’t want this non-stop spiral to go on any longer. So... So... just this once, I’ll give myself to the Devil Inside, and bring everything to a close. And once he’s done... I’ll do just what Evie did and erase myself too. I wanted to have fun with everyone a little while longer... I kept all of this buried deep inside so that I wouldn’t worry anyone and disrupt that happiness. After all... Kamijou-san’s role is to help others right? I’m the one that should be saving others, not the other way around. So please... Gaelion... just end everything and be done with it. It’s time for me to finally raise the white flag and embrace non-existence....

"This never ending paradox is truly stunning. Are their heads this dense, or simply in denial? .... For the sake of givng even the slightest benefit of the doubt, I will assume the latter, for now."

"It's always the same. Whenever us Fates smile down on them, be it mortal or God, we are praised with blessings, or at the very least, sighs of relief. But, when even the slightest of things go array, when they learn the truth of this world, that Fate is not on anyone's side, not even their own, they lose themselves. Cursing us and everyone around them and even falling to ruin."

"They only worship us when it benefits them, but Ananke forbid if the smallest aspect of their lives doesn't completely go as they would like, if we don't cater and spoil them to their every single whim, they lash ou like a helpless child, before forgetting about it, moving on to the next phase in their life, and doomed to repeat. The few who do bother to learn and grow from their experiences are the ones that are truly worthy of Fate being in their hands, not the other way around. Those who fall victim to, well, making themselves nothing but hapless victims, will of course fall prey to us."