#mun's problems

Also me: *remembers this is a Sniper blog and it would be very ooc for him to give or receive affection to or from nearly everyone*

Update under the cut.

I don’t know what to do.

My wife and I can’t afford to get her a green card and I can’t afford to take care of two people. I don’t know what to do or how to say it to her but she needs to go home and we need to do this the right way. Unless we come up with $2000 in the next month or so, I going to go completely broke and possibly be homeless by Christmas. I feel like the path we’re going down will tear us apart as well. I don’t want to subject her to this at all. I fucked up, this is my fault because I thought I could do this. I would have been able to at least afford both of us if I’d kept my job but I’m a huge mess physically and mentally so I really can’t. I broke down yesterday and had to stay home from work today because I need to sleep. I also cut ties with my mom completely because she’s done nothing but make my life more difficult since I moved out (probably before that too but at least she paid for my stuff then). I am sad but not because I lost her. I’m sad because I never had a mom, a real mom who supported me, stood up for me and made those sacrifices I see mothers everyday making for their kids. I see why my dad was so furious with her all the time and why she so badly triggered him. She doesn’t have a motherly bone in her body and it makes me sick. I can’t do it anymore. I work for my stepdad so I’m not sure how he’s going to react or if he will renew our contract at all so I have 0 certainty on whether I’ll even be able to afford my school soon.