#mugglesbejealous

Awwww you have now idea how honored I am that I’m one of your 10 favorite followers!? (also I have no idea how long ago you sent this, because I never check my asks because I never get any) sO THANK YOU <3 

Okayyyy so now for the five random facts…

1. i’ve never cut my hair and I really want to. soon.

2. i LOVE to cuss

3. i want to be a doctor, and i cant decide if that’s because i am obsessed with Grey’s Anatomy or an actual love of medicine/science

4. i belong to so many fandoms but you can see from my posts that I am a massive whovian, supernaturalist, and sherlockian. I breathe those shows. SUPERWHOLOCK FTW

5. it may be shocking(judging from my reblogs) but, i have been extremely “religious” my whole life, thus, the not cutting of the hair thing, i never wear pants, i have no piercings. i go to church twice a week, the whole shabang. up until this summer i thought that was the way to be, i thought i was a part of this elite group of people that would be taken up in the rapture to be christ’s bride and that i basically would be able to judge everyone, and everyone was going to hell basically. yeah, it was a crazy way of being. But that all changed when the fire nation attacked… i mean, that all changed when i joined tumblr and my mind began to open up and it changed my entire way of thinking, I realized that I was a trained homophobe. I now completely support homosexuality and it disgusts me that I was raised to believe that hating people was acceptable. I was raised to believe that women were not equal with men, that women should never be in a position over men; whether that’s in a relationship or a work environment. At the beginning of the summer my pastor really started pushing that and I could not believe I allowed myself to sit and listen to that all of my life. i’m a HUGE feminist. after so many realizations that everything i was taught was a lie, i came to another realization, i didn’t believe in “god,” i am an atheist. which allowed me to see the world in a whole new way, and really threw out the fear that had been instilled in me and bring in a sense of wonderment and love of the universe. so many other things about myself have changed, all because I was able to see these other world views, the views I should have been raised to believe. that’s the reason i will always love tumblr, no matter what drama is going down, it illuminated my life, and it continues to. and i’m sure that if my parents knew about this that they wouldn't see it that way, they would think tumblr has corrupted me. I am still living in the house with my parents believing I am a christian, I still go to that church twice a week(the people there are like family). i’m twenty years old and i don’t have control of my life. you don’t know how badly i want to stop lying to my mom, we’ve always had an open dialogue, we used to be pretty close, I know she’ll still love me but, i just know that nothing will ever be the same once she knows. and will they take my beliefs seriously? probably not. they’ll see me as backslidden, and they’ll pray for me every chance they get, just like they do for my brother, who came out as an atheist a few years ago. my little sister is also an atheist, they raised some pretty smart kids, and they can’t even see it. ANYWAYS that’s my 5th random fact, the most important one as of late, thank you tumblr, and thank you to my siblings, and my brain, and my parents who sucked at instilling “christian” values enough for me to see through them.

Thank you mugglesbejealous, you rock! (i dont think you were expecting this confession haha)