#mswalker

keeps me lost throughout this difficult time 

weighing the options that rest gently on my heavy mind 

as if they could flee 

any second leaving just me 

what i fear one day i must choose to live with 

and satisfy the need to just be 

a choice not worth choosing 

yet i find myself in a constant dispute of over this life 

in all this time i have not been convinced 

that it is actually worth living

so i leave myself in this quite debate 

to escape my own troubling mind 

by getting away 

to a happier carefree time 

where i am not me and you are not you 

what i can only imagine 

in a worse case scenario 

becomes the best of both me and you 

to leave this place now 

when so much is going on 

in this blissful quiet that does not dare 

whisper a sound 

but i am pulled back into a world of chaos 

where i among the many have little, if any, control 

my actions are just reactions 

to what motions have been made 

and my ability to cope with such things 

becomes a concern