#ms. chu

It has been 2 months since our break-up. I hope we are fine at the moment. I am happy and contented of what I have right now. Broken pieces are placed back to its place. I found new stuffs and it helped me move on. I have been bitter towards you before for the reason of misunderstanding everything you've said. I've been bad to you recently. I thought I could face you again without feeling any sense of guilt. I thought I can handle the pain easily but I was wrong, I got everything wrong. After our break-up, I became miserable. I cried almost every night, sometimes when I wake up in the morning. Everything has been hard for me.

Our relationship was not too long unlike others. I would consider it long. It felt like being with you for years. I loved you. I really loved you. I've been stupid and lame for you, I set aside my pride for you, and most, I loved you. I did everything that I can to win this. I proved to myself and to you that I can do this, we can do this. I fought for it even though it's at stake.

You broke up with me and to me, it's hard to take. For both of us, it is hard but a guy like me has done so many things to make this last long. I've invested a lot. I gave everything and then, it lasted. You said you're going to live in South Carolina, together with your family. I supported your will. I'm ready for this, I said to myself though, It's hard. I made a deal of 25/75 chance. I know I'm going to lose but I still bet for it. I didn't let the situation fear me of leaving you, to let our relationship die. But I was wrong.

A month ago, I acted strange to everyone even to myself. The light you gave me slowly darken. I'm began to see the reality. I start to move on. I see myself free. The things I found helped me. The sulky aura has been replaced. That's when I realised that I was meant for something/someone else. I want to thank you for everything. Being a part of your life is an opportunity I took.  want to say sorry if I blame you for things and more. I loved you. I really loved you. I really did.

Loving yours,

Bat ganun? Lagi na lang ganito? IIyak pag gabi, makikinig ng malulungkot na tugtog. Di ako sanay. Gusto ko ibalik ang kung ano ang meron kami dati. :( Di nga talaga madali makamove-on. Mahirap lalo na at di ka makatiis sa kanya. Bat kailangan humantong tayo sa ganitong sitwasyon. Mahal nga natin ang isa't-isa. Sana lang talaga maibalik ang nakaraan. :(