Good job, you managed to make me hate you again. Why do you do this to me? what did I do to deserve all this pain and drama. All I want is for things to be ok between us. But you keep making it worse. You hurt me unbelievably bad and you don't care. Because you just keep treating me like shit. I guess my love was all a waste and was just a joke to you. I give up. Funny how every time I get mad, you were so coincidentally getting ready to help me, or make things up to me just so you can blame it on me like usual. I don't care anymore. Im done with this. If you were going to make it up to me, then do it instead of saying you were thinking about it. You shouldn't have to decide whether you want to make it up to me or not. If you cared and actually didn't mean to hurt me then you would have no problem with doing whatever it takes to make things right. But you wont do it because I got mad at you. Well get used to it because im going to be mad about it for a while especially when you treat me like you have. Id almost rather you don't try to make it up to me. Because it doesn't make a difference anymore because you'll just keep hurting me anyways because i mean nothing to you and was apparently such a fucking terrible boyfriend. Even though I gave you everything I physically could and you didn't even notice because you were always out with your friends or whatever and you didn't even attempt to try to make our relationship good in that last however long it was you were feeling how you were. It changes every other day so I don't even know. Were you feeling like that for 6 months like it was originally or is it a year or a few years or did you ever even love me. You tell me about how I needed to grow up and bull shit. So I change for you and everything. But you wouldn't change a fucking thing for me. You just continued to hang out with other guys but with your friends so I couldn't say anything. I did everything I could to make you happy but it was not good enough so you had to go talk to other guys and do shit behind my back. Ok so you told me, so what. That doesn't make up for it. You still lied about it and the exact details and shit and treated me like garbage even after I was going to give you a second chance. Which I can tell you now that if you ever did that to someone else they wouldve left you on the spot. Because no one will ever come close to loving you like I did. You completely disregarded my feelings and everything we had for your own lust. I will never forgive you. Don't bother saying you're going to make it up to me if you aren't going to follow through. Im done with the lies, im done with the pain, im done with you. Leave me alone and don't talk to me. Especially if you're going to continue with the way you've treated me.
P.S. don't even try to say something about the fact that I posted this on tumblr instead of emailing it to you. Because at least this way you'll probably actually read it.
