#mrpockets

I don't believe I've ever cared until now. At least not in the sense of another's happiness outside of my kids. In previous relationships, I just wanted to be in a relationship instead of BEING in the relationship. I merely wanted to be seen as someone that was desired, which meant I needed to be in a relationship to prove that a man found me desirable. It's different now because I desire to be with him. I crave his affection and touch. I catch myself smiling when I think of him. I love to look at our photos to stare at his smile. I take pride in the fact that he is happy in our pictures. It's the simple thought that he's possibly smiling because of us, which is mentally and physically stimulating. He pushes me mentally in ways that no man has ever done. So yes, I am addicted to his smile. And the thought of creating it. I am addicted to him and his overall well being. #somethingsabouther #mrpockets #hisloveisstimulating #imnotapoet (at Avondale, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnC8CQgHWMP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1riidp4ar19it

One year ago today, #mrpockets slid into my DMs and stated: "you are absolutely beautiful." 😍😻😍 __ It probably wouldn't be such a big deal, but if you knew how anti DM I was you would understand this post. Plus on top of the fact that I am a hopeless romantic, this post makes sense. __ I am thankful that I let my guard down and allowed our friendship to grow. #happydmanniversary #somethingsabouther #oneyearofknowingyou #itgoesdowninthedm (at Avondale, Arizona)

H.I.M - Makes me think about eating melted ice cream on a hot summer day, sticky and wet. #somethingsabouther #hegetsme #loveus #mrpockets (at Avondale, Arizona)

From "Oh" to "I love you." Typically when I say I love you to Ash he says Oh. But last night he sat in my lap, asked for a hug then said I love you. He melted my heart. He's growing so fast. I swear if I could afford it and my tubes weren't tied, I would have more children. LMAO. I love being a mother to my wonderful kids. 📷#mrpockets #purejoy #somethingsabouther #blackboyjoy #iloveyouquotes (at Arizona Museum of Natural History)

Happy Saturday! What's on your reading list? I haven't been posting about books lately because I've been focused on the relaunch of @reveldancewear. However, this book is highly recommended by my love, #mrpockets. It looks like it's a quick read since it's roughly 100 pages. What books are you reading and why? I hope you have a wonderful weekend. #somethingsabouther #blackliterature #themiseducationofthenegro (at Avondale, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/BmD32lpntZl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ttaffadlgkdj

If you're into fat shaming or the imperfect body freaks you out, I would bypass this video. For everyone else, thank you and welcome. __ This is the first week that I've completed three workouts. I'm extremely proud of myself. Consistency is something I struggle with so I'm pushing myself to hit the gym at least three days a week and to wear my @sweetsweat band. I honestly don't know how it works but the sweat dripping at the end makes me feel like I've accomplished something. One of the areas I've dealt with since having children is losing weight around my stomach. I am hoping with @lindseykee help and my workouts, I will see some results in a month. I also started lifting today, so this was the highlight of my workout. I love and prefer to lift weights over cardio. __ I am also using my workouts to help me with other avenues that I struggle with. I feel like I'm building muscle and willpower to overcome various aspects in my life. The only things I have to do is show up, give it my all, and take it one day at a time. I was telling #mrpockets that I needed to workout. I NEEDED to know that I was capable of pushing myself and sticking to it. I needed to feel that I was capable and worthy of nothing other than my own self-worth. It's amazing how getting healthy pushes you in so many aspects of your life. On a side note: I struggle with consistency but ask for it in my relationships. Go figure. You cannot receive what you're not willing to do for yourself. Working out and sticking to it will be a pivotal turning point in my life. It will prove that I am committed, capable, and willing to do whatever it takes to love myself. #somethingsabouther #sweatsweet #blackgirlsworkouttoo (at Avondale, Arizona)

Last weekend's activities. 📷 The handsome #mrpockets. #somethingsabouther #missinghim #familydayout (at Arizona Museum of Natural History)

H.I.M.: I believe that you should date someone that expands your way of thinking. In this photo, he was teaching me how to hit the golf ball. As I was playing, I kept thinking that I should hit the ball hard to reach the furthest point on the field. #mrpockets informed me that it is actually the reverse, you do not have to hit the ball hard to achieve your goal. @official_anastasiamarie was proof of that. Between #mrpockets and Tay they cleaned up the board. __ As you very well know I use every encounter as a learning opportunity. I wouldn't be myself if, I didn't reflect on the experience. In this game of TopGolf, I learned that in life we tend to hit the ball hard, but there are times when we need to use a gentler approach to obtain our goals. For me, this pertains to communication. There are times when I'm speaking, and I have this all or nothing attitude that the recipient "must" accept, which tends to make my points invalid. However, in reality, I should have taken a different approach to be heard. I know you're saying to yourself, it's just golf. I wouldn't be myself if I didn't view it as an opportunity to learn something new. When was the last time a game turned into a life lesson? And what did you learn? #itsjustgolf #somethingsabouther #lessonlearned #itstheweekend (at Topgolf)