It been a long time folks. I don’t even know what to say or who is even on here anymore or if anyone will read this or remember me. But here we go. 

I disappeared from tumblr and went out of my normal introvert comfort zone in 2018. I had some great times and have some great moments that I will always remember. But in the end I realized that not everyone you allow in your life should be allowed in. Some just use you and then disappear when you’re not needed. And that was possibly one of the hardest things I am learning, especially when it involves someone who has been your life for over 10 years. 

So I’m back. There’s more that happened this past year, and maybe I’ll have the guts to talk about it on here (since I really don’t have anyone in my real life to take to now), or maybe not. But I think its good I get all this emotional stuff out somehow. Try to get back into the rhythm of things before I disappeared from here. Even though I spent most of my time alone and either reading or on tumblr...I was somewhat happy. 

For those who have no idea...I kind of disappeared from social media. Mainly from tumblr. Reason for this is  just life in general. I’ve also grown tired of social media as well and how its turned into a popularity contest and place for people just to be mean and cruel to others . The introvert in me just wants to stay far from that and just read a good book LOL.

So i guess its official...my best friend and I are no more. I know this is going to sound lame...but just found out she unfollowed me on social media. Which I know sounds stupid...but for some reason has meaning behind it. 

now granted we haven’t seen each other for over year because trying to make plans to met with her is impossible (even though I’ll accommodate her schedule to met her when and where she wants) . And I haven’t really texted to her since last March or April when I really needed my best friend and she wasn’t there and I finally called her out on the one-sided friendship. 

I think this will be good for me. She was never really there for me. When she was, she would always try to over take the conversation with her problems making me feel like I should keep my mouth shut. One of those was her marriage. She would go on about how tough her marriage is and how she’s contemplating divorce because her husband feels she puts her family more over the family they have formed and his own family and she finds this ridiculous. I don’t blame him for feeling this...for their 10 year anniversary last year, instead of spending it just the two of them, she brought her family along to some cruse. Ohh and she pregnant with their third child right now....pretty sure if your marriage is going down hill and you’re considering divorce having another child isn’t the route to take....that or you’re a f%&king liar who wanted to seem like her problems are bigger.

Its times like this I wish I had a sister to be open with and figure out if there’s something going on or this just all in my head...

The people posting on the page and mainly in the same click back in school which makes me think this is going to be one giant popularity contest to see what everyone is up to....in other words its high school all over again, but just for one night

WHERE THE HELL IS LOIS LANE!