#mpersonay

Just end it, it's better that way. Split then the fights will stop, you will own your own and there won't be anymore ridiculous fights AGAIN AND AGAIN.

People that gamble are so fucking stupid. I mean seriously, you would think that after not just once, but a few times of losing fortunes. That they would realise that it's a stupid black hole you get sucked into. Don't keep it a habit unless you want to die stupid and in a pit full if your idiocy.

I feel so restricted by my mother. It is like I can't live my own life and make my own mistakes. I have to follow what she tells me to do and shit. Seriously I can't stand it anymore, I feel like I can't be alive on my own. I want to be independent, but if she keeps making my own decisions... Then heck how am I supposed to be independent. I know I'm the youngest and she does care and worry about me. She doesn't want me to make the same mistakes as my siblings. I respect that, but I feel like if I end up making the wrong decisions she'll kick me out of the house. The hard thing is that she is a staunch Christian. HARDCORE. I am a Christian too but she just. URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can't stand it my gash! The things she does sometimes drives me crazy, but I can't even complain coz far out. She is my mum. I want her to under stand that I need to live my own life, and do my own things. I don't want to be forced to do things, and end up having an unwilling heart. Sometimes I hate being the youngest, because we never have a voice in the family. Urgh rant over.

I find it hard to communicate with new people. The only way or reason for me to talk to new people, is by my friends. Other than that I'm the most awkward person one will know. I suck at carrying on conversations and keeping new friends. I'm the type that has a hard time with adapting to situations. Therefore I might not look like an introvert from the outside, but if you meet me when I'm by myself... It's a different person and a different story.