#moveonmoveup

Hello.

I just wanted to say about my weekend. Friday I told my son that my boyfriend and I broke up and he won't be around as friends as originally planned. It is so hard to see your child heartbroken because they loved that person very much.

On Saturday I had a great day. It was full of fun and laughter. Had fun with a friend and met new people also. Had great fun with family. It is memories that I will hold forever.

Now today (Sunday), I had a great morning. Then this afternoon I got a few hours to myself. I should have done something productive, but instead the depression set in. I tried sleeping and I couldn't even do that. I have this empty spot inside. I just laid there, unable to move, my mind racing a mile a minute. My heart, I could literally feel it breaking. I just don't understand where relationships go wrong. I love so hard, I just wish I got that same kind of love in return.

Even though I am hurting, and struggling to move on with my life, I know I need to take this time and find me. I need to do things to help myself. I need to get back to my writing, my art, my knitting. I need to get back to my reading also. I want to learn new things. I am learning guitar, but I don't want to stop there. I want to find out what it's like to actually go out on dates before settling in to a relationship. I want to have fun. I will take this time for that, because let's face it, I am not getting any younger.

My point of this blog post is, I may have good days, but I also have dark days. I am just going to pray and keep moving along.