wasteland, baby! ; morpheus.
track fourteen of WASTELAND, BABY!
pairing ; morpheus x bast!reader (gender neutral pronouns)
synopsis ; morpheus followed you as if he were your shadowâsilent, yet ever so loyal.
words ; 6.3k
themes ; angst, fluff, egyptian mythology, bast au
warnings / includes ; reader is based on the egyptian goddess bastet, starts before the events of the show but ends right at the beginning, heavy angst, death of an unborn baby (not reader's), blood/injury/pregnancy (again, not reader), allusions to sex, mentions of the other sandman characters, mentions of other egyptian gods, khonshu is your half-brother, dream is the epitome of (-_-), they love each other lots <3 perhaps i'll write a part two to this !!
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She was dying.Â
There was raw terror within her eyesâuncertain of what was happening to her. She was youngâfar too young to die, but it seemed that Destiny had other plans for her beyond life.
With gentle movements, you shifted into view, greeting her with a soft beam and kind eyes.Â
âDo not be afraid. Iâll protect you,â you whispered in their plucking human language. One of your hands extended towards hers, slick with her own blood. âItâs time, darling.â
The faded blue of her eyes warbled. A hot tear meandered down her grimy cheek.Â
âCan I say goodbye? I⌠my childrenâŚâ The words caught in her throat upon seeing your apologetic expression. With a resolute nod, she took your hand, and you helped her spirit onto her feet.Â
Once she was up, she glanced at her physical body on the ground. âCan you keep my children away from the body? I donât⌠I donât want them to see me like that.â
A protest was on the tip of your tongue, but upon seeing her pleading expression, you couldnât find it in yourself to say no. Your expression faltered, softening. âIâll do what I can,â you reassured her, offering a small smile.
And as you guided the petrified womanâs spirit across the threshold between the realm of the living and the Sunless Lands, you let go of her hand, and she began walking into the next part of her journey. You observed for a minute longer, brow creased with worry. That had always been a weakness of yoursâyou cared too much for the mortals and often found yourself attached. Though, perhaps, affection was not a weakness, but a defining trait of who you were. It was what made you their protector, after all.Â
The feeling of an unfamiliar presence appearing beside you jarred you out of your thoughts. You turned to see one of Deathâs siblings staring straight at you, eyes boring into your very soul.Â
âWhat are you doing?â he asked, rather bluntly. His voice was deep and honeyed, soaked in sea water and nestled within the richest of soils. You found yourself blanching at his sudden question, unsure if youâd done something to offend him. He certainly looked offended. Or perhaps that was just the way he always was. âThis is Deathâs job,â said Dream.
After a considerably long pause, you tilted your head at him. âDeath is busy at the moment. I am merely helping her guide souls into the afterlife. Iâm a God to themâa protectorâthe humans, they call me Bast. But my friends call me Y/N.â
Morpheusâ expression remained ever unchanging. He dipped his head, suddenly all the closer to you. You blinked at him with wide eyesâeyes that Morpheus refused to meet. Stoic, he spoke once more, âDo you know where my older sister is?â
âSheâs dealing with affairs in Hell. Lucifer has stirred up quite a bit of trouble, Iâve heard,â you told him, pursing your lips at the thought of the devil wreaking havoc in the underworld. âWhat do you need her for? Perhaps I could helpâ?â
With naught a sound, Dream brandished a pouch from his dark, draping coat, and disappeared in a flurry of sand and dust. You stepped away with a grimace, waving the particulates away from your face.
âRude,â you huffed as you brushed sand off your shoulder.
She was hurt.Â
There was a long, jagged gash splitting her shin open. A pool of dark ichor formed around her leg and soaked into the hardened earth. You stood over her, your chest constricting.
She couldnât see you, but you knelt down beside her anyways, murmuring a protective incantation, gently running your fingers over her wound. A soft golden glow appeared over the cut, before slowly disappearing. The injury wasnât completely healed, but youâd made sure it wouldnât get infected by warding away any diseases and bacteria.Â
The woman wiped away her tears with the back of her hand and found a cloth to bind the gash shut.
You tilted your head, smiling down at her, before stepping away.Â
This time, the presence of the Dream Lord wasnât as much of a shock to you, but still a surprise nonetheless.
âDream,â you greeted, eyes brightening when you turned to see him. He looked just the same, though not nearly as sour as last time. âWhat brings you here?â
âThe girl you were helping,â he said, slow and cautious, âsheâs been dreaming of you.â
Warmth seeped through your form at his words. A grin etched itself beautifully across your lips. âIâve been watching over her since she was a young child. Her name is Nubiaâgold in their language. She saved a family of kittens from drowning in a river when she was merely nine years of age. And me being a God of cats and allâsheâs earned herself a special place in my heart. I donât often show myself to mortals, but I have with her, on occasion.â
Morpheus regarded you with a shielded expression, but it was evident that he was curious in you and your endeavors.
âWhat do I do in her dreams?â you asked, stepping closer to him. Morpheus seemed unbothered by this, slowly tilting his head to sweep his gaze anywhere but you.Â
Perhaps it was a trick of the hot Egyptian sunlight, but you couldâve sworn the beginnings of a smile traced over the corner of Morpheusâ mouth. âYou do the very same in her dreams as you do in the living world. You help people. You are kind to them.â
Stunned, you let your eyes travel back to the sweet girl youâve grown so fond of, who was rinsing the blood away from her leg.Â
âWhy?â asked the Dream Lord. It was a tentative question, so simple yet would never have a clear answer.Â
You glanced back to him, finding his piercing blue irises fixed on you, hardened and stormy as the sea.Â
âWhy what?â you replied, knowing full and well what he was asking, but wanting to goad him on. You rather enjoyed speaking to him. He was a mystery to youâand you loved mysteries.
Dream was silent for a long moment. It had you briefly wondering if heâd just chosen to completely ignore your retaliating question.
Finally, he asked his in return, voice thick and viscous, as if his throat were laced with honey. âWhy do you show the mortals such kindness?â
âBecause I love them,â you told him simply, an elegant smile gracing your features. âThey are beautiful beings, and I wish them nothing but happiness and peace. It brings me joy to be their protector.â
Morpheus didnât seem too satisfied with your answer, as if he couldnât quite wrap his head around what you said. How could one as eternal and powerful as you love such simple and fleeting life? Despite his evident turmoil, he remained silent.Â
âIf youâll excuse me,â you said, brushing past him with a hand on his shoulder. Morpheus stiffened beneath your touch, and you were quick to draw yourself away from him, not wanting to anger one of the Endless. Desire had once gotten angry with you centuries ago, and that hadnât gone down well. The last thing you wanted was a repeat of such events. âI have other duties to attend to. I hope to see you again, Dream.â
Morpheus dipped his head in farewell. From your peripheral vision, you saw him disappear in another whirl of sand. You shook your head in amusement, before heading off to help another precious soul in need.
She was heartbroken.Â
There were scalding tears dripping down her sunken cheeks, following the curve of her jaw, and falling from her chin onto her blanket. Sobs wracked her skeletal form, and there was a pallid color to her skin, as if completely drained of energy. You watched from beside her bed, feeling thorns crowd about your heart at the sight. You sensed great despair rolling off of her in large tidal waves, nearly overwhelming you into the same feeling.Â
Morpheus was there, you knew, but you had yet to speak to him. Heâd been following you for a while, silent as the night, merely watching as you went about your day helping women, children, and people alike. It seemed that heâd taken a keen interest in you and your duties as a protector of the mortals.Â
âThis is the doing of a man,â you said to him without turning around, anger clouding your expression. âShe professed her love to him and he did nothing but scoff. He scoffed at her, Dream. I mean, look at herâsheâs beautiful and sheâs kind and sheâs so very intelligent. Men certainly are the bane of my existence.â
When you finally turned your head, you were surprised to see Morpheus right beside you, not having registered him stepping closer.Â
He had his eyes trained on the weeping woman. âShe is tired,â he observed calmly.Â
A soft sigh fell from your lips. âShe hasnât slept a wink in three days. The poor thing has been doing nothing but lament over this buffoon of a man. Iâve tried consoling her in many ways, but her grief is strong. She loved him very muchâthough I canât quite understand why.â
âPerhaps,â said Morpheus, pulling out a pouch that you were now well acquainted with, âall she needs is a bit of rest. Three days is far too long for a mortal to go without slumber.â
With that, he blew a fistful of sand into the crying womanâs face, and her raucous sobs began to subside, and eventually slowed down to deep, rhythmic breathing.Â
You looked to the Dream Lord, a grateful smile to your eyes. âThank you.â As ever, he stared ahead and nodded, avoiding looking at you.Â
With fleeting, soft touches, you gently shifted the woman so she wasnât curled in an awkward position and wouldnât wake up with aches all over. You laid her back against the bedâs springy mattress and adjusted her head onto the feather pillow. The pads of your thumbs gently wiped her tears away, and you murmured a quiet protective enchantment to keep her safe through the night.
âCome along now,â you told Morpheus, getting up and striding out the door.
He looked at you, finally, mild confusion painting over his features.Â
âYouâve been following me all day,â you said, a laugh caught in the back of your throat. âI have much to show you.â
There was a twitch to his jaw, as if he wanted to say something. But still, he remained mute, before striding forward to join you by your side.
She was sick.Â
There was an unusual murmur to her heart, disrupting an otherwise perfect beat. It broke your own to realize that Death would be coming to visit her soon. You could only hope that the journey to the Sunless Lands would be kind to her.
With little else you could do for the beautiful, sickly girl, you leaned down to press a gentle kiss to her forehead, brushing a stray, wiry curl of hair away from her face, softened with sleep. Your kiss made her stop twitching and sweating so badly, and you were glad you could lessen her suffering in some way, even if it was minute.
You werenât at all shocked to see Morpheus behind you when you turned, and you crossed your arms with a teasing grin. Itâd been several decadesânearly a centuryâof constant visits from him, and you werenât ashamed to say that youâd grown very fond of him.Â
âWhy, if it isnât Dream of the Endless,â you greeted, taking a step closer to him, so that he was forced to look at you, and no longer avoid eye contact. The blue of his irises seemed even sharper up close. âIs there something you need this time, or are you here to follow me again?â
There was a crack to his stoic facade, a small smile whittling into his expression. A thrill spidered up your spine.Â
âIâm intrigued by you,â he finally professed, albeit still guarded and wary, even after all this time.
Much to his surprise, you reacted fairly lightly to his statement, throwing your head back as peals of laughter fell from your lips, the corners of your eyes crinkling with mirth. âDream of the Endless, intrigued in me? Itâs truly an honor,â you said, slightly breathless. Morpheus carefully watched the way you beamed so wide it was a wonder your face didnât split into two.
Dream hesitated for a moment before saying his next words. âCome with me.â
You faltered for a moment. âWhat? Where?â
âThe Dreaming,â he said simply, as if it were obvious.
You blinked at him owlishly. âYour kingdom?â
âYes,â he said, already drawing out his pouch of sand. âIâve seen what you do on Earth. Now I want you to see what I do in my realm.â
âTheyâre beautiful,â you said, watching in awe as Morpheus fashioned dreams and nightmares out of thin air, brow creased ever so slightly in concentration. Bits of earth and bone and something far more ethereal floated around him as he assembled the piecesâcreating an entirely new being.Â
Dipping his head graciously, Morpheus stepped away from his craft, still in progress.Â
âCome,â he said, without a glance to you. âI shall finish this later. I have much else to show you.â
He took you to see the House of Mystery, also known as Cainâs home. There was a sweet gargoyle thereâGregory, his name was, and he seemed rather fond of you, constantly nipping at your ankles and grunting in delight when you tossed a ball over for him to catch. Morpheus watched from afar, with only but a shadow of a fond smile gracing his face. He took you to the House of Secrets as well, and introduced you to Abel, who was ever so kind and refused to allow you to leave without drinking a fruity, nectarous tea first.Â
The two of you strolled through the Dreaming for a while after that, discussing everything and anything that came to mind. More accurately, youâd be the one animatedly telling stories and Dream would listen with a fond glint to his gaze. Dreams and nightmares alike stared at the two of you, partially because theyâd rarely ever seen their King out and about, much less with somebody, and also because they were merely curious to know who you were.Â
After, he brought you to the library and introduced you to Lucienne and Mervynâthe former a spectacled librarian and the latter a pumpkin-headed janitor with a cigar wedged within his mouth, who both seemed pleasantly surprised to see Morpheus bring in a guest.Â
âThere will be a celebration in the Dreaming tonight,â said Dream, quiet and contemplative. Then, he looked at you, and this time, you were sure it wasnât a trick of lightâhe smiled at you. It was small and fleeting, but youâd caught it nonetheless. âSeeing as Y/N is a God of celebration, joy, fire, and musicâhave all those ready for our guest, Mervyn.â
âYessir,â the pumpkin coughed out a plume of smoke, before saluting with two gloved fingers, and strode away with his hands shoved into his overalls.Â
Once Mervyn left in a hurry, you turned to Morpheus, eyes wide. âDream, really, you donât have to throw a party or anything for me, youâve been more than kind enoughââ
âI am merely repaying you for all youâve done for mankind,â said the Endless, which made you step back just a bit in shock. âI must deal with some private mattersâfeel free to stay as long as you wantâyou are now a welcome guest in the Dreaming.â
âI⌠okay, thanks, Dream,â you said, trying your hardest to contain your excitement.Â
He nodded, before turning on his heel and marching out of the library.
Shelving the books in her arms, Lucienne interrupted the silence with, âThere hasnât been a celebration in the Dreaming in centuries.â
You blinked. âReally?â
âNone at all. In fact, this is the happiest Iâve seen him in quite a long time. Youâve really done a number on him,â said the librarian, regarding you with a curious look.Â
âThis is him happy?â you gasped, feeling bad for laughing slightly. âI wouldnât want to see him angry, then.â
Lucienne scoffed at the thought. âOh, I doubt it. Heâs taken quite a liking to you.â
Your mouth opened and closed as you tried to reply with a coherent response, but found your tongue void of one. Morpheus liked you? All this time, you were only assuming that he was just tolerating youâinterested, perhaps, at the very most.Â
âWell, Iâll see you at the party, then,â said Lucienne, finding your stunned expression mildly amusing. She sent you a kind smile. âLet me know if you need assistance with anything.â
Not even three hours later, the castle was brilliantly lit with floating candles and dewy bubbles that emitted hazy, multi-hued light. There was upbeat music echoing throughout the expansive chambers, a rich accompaniment of wind instruments and chiming bells and thrumming beats of drumsâthough none of said instruments were anywhere to be found. Along with that, there was a large variety of snacks and nibbles arranged on a long, intricately designed table, including dates, cheese, and buttery pastries that practically melted in your mouth. Golden chalices overflowing with wines and honeyed ales alike were passed around like a contagious flu. The castle was packed, dreams and nightmares and gods (yes, even some that you recognizedâDionysus drunkenly greeted you with a hug and a slap to the back) were milling here and there chattering excitedly. From what you gathered whilst mingling with everybody else at the party, the entire ordeal was hugeâevidently, Morpheus wasnât quite the partying type. It came as a shock to everybody when they received prompt invitations to the castle.Â
Speaking of which, you hadnât seen him at all since the celebration commenced. Which was strange, considering he was the one that set it all up in the first place.Â
âMy, my, my, arenât you a beauty? Have we not crossed paths just hours before, Lord Bastet?â a nightmare purred into your ear, roping you out of your thoughts. His name was Corinthian, one of the many that Morpheus had introduced to you on your little tour through his realm. You turned around, a flirtatious grin to your lips, hooded eyes flickering over to meet a pair of black shades. You were well aware that Morpheus would most definitely not be pleased with you seducing one of his nightmares, but he wasnât even here at his own party, so you didnât quite see a problem. âNo wonder the Dream Lordâs gone full outâheâs aiming to win somebody over, ainât he?â
A hum fell from you, and you stepped forward, cocking your head. âDo you always speak in questions, my sweet Nightmare?â
âOnly works if you answer them, doesn't it?â he retorted, a handsome grin to his features. Corinthian was well aware that you were flirting around with him and had no issues with reciprocating the energy, but he also knew that it was all fun and gamesânothing serious. Besides, he wasnât particularly keen on getting in between whatever it is that Morpheus and you had going on.Â
Rolling your eyes, you huffed, âSpeaking ofâdo you know where he is? Donât get me wrong, heâs thrown a splendid celebrationâand this is coming from the God of celebrationsâbut I do have to admit that it puts a damper on the mood if the host himself doesnât make an appearance.â
A laugh rolled off of Corinthianâs tongue. âWhy donât you turn around, darlinâ?â
When you did, you were met with the sight of the Dream King, draped in his long coat, hair as scraggly as ever. He was watching the two of you with a sharp gaze, jaw squared. Though he let little slip past his guarded features, you were beginning to read him very well. He wasnât angry, noâin fact, he was amused, but was furiously trying to hide it. âIâm pleased my presence matters so much to you, Y/N.â
You bit down on your lip to stave away your growing grin. âYouâre late to the party.â
âI wanted to allow you space to enjoy it,â he graciously said. âThe rest of my subjects would hardly speak to you freely if I was glued by your side.â
âTrue,â you admitted. âThough, I wouldnât really mind being stuck to you.âÂ
Morpheus offered no reaction to your words, save for a glimmer of mirth behind the blue of his honed irises.Â
âWere you waiting for me?â he asked quietly, barely audible over the raucous upswing of the celebration.Â
Feeling bold tonight, you could only sidle closer to him, the cold golden jewelry of your party attire brushing against the very front lapels of his dark coat. Morpheusâ gaze flitted downward, soaking you in your entirety, before returning back to your face just as quickly. âYou threw a party in my name and disappeared without a trace! Of course I was waiting for you, Dream.âÂ
For a moment, Dream had the gall to appear mildly apologetic. He didnât seem to mind that you were much closer now, watching the way your searching eyes reflected the fires of the floating candles, like burning stars within the vast galaxy. âI am sorry for keeping you waiting, then.â
âNothing a couple drinks canât remedy,â you assured him, about to reach out to grasp his hand and pull him to a table of self-refilling refreshments, before hesitating and pulling your hand back.
Whistling loudly, Corinthian suddenly pulled both of your attentions away from each other. If you had to be completely honest, youâd nearly forgotten that he was there. In fact, youâd nearly forgotten there were hundreds of other beings in the room. He was grinning wolfishly, hands propped on his hips. âWell, arenât you two a swell pair of lovebirds? It was lovely meeting you, eh, Bast? Take care of dear old Dream, will you?â
You waved him away with a grin before he sauntered off into the crowd, disappearing amongst a throng of boisterous dreams.Â
The party had waned away to a couple of drunken gods (which took about a pondâs worth of fluid to get them to such a state) stumbling about in the halls, and a few straggling nightmares still trying to squeeze out the last remnants of the party. Everybody else had gone back to their respective homes or realms, exhausted and in need of a long rest.Â
Much to your delight, Morpheus hadnât left your side once the entire night. He stuck by you as if he were your shadowâsilent, yet ever so loyal. However, you found that heâd been rightânearly all of his subjects that had initially been so friendly to you were now intimidated by their creator stonily staring them down. It was worth it, though. You liked Morpheusâ company, even if it was mostly silent and warded people away. Lucienne, however, practically immune to Morpheusâ temperament, spoke to you for a lengthy amount of time about the most interesting books sheâs come across in her library, and you made her promise to lend copies to you whenever you returned for your next visit. Morpheus seemed to just barely smile when you mentioned that you were keen on returning to his realm.
Youâve spent far too much time away from the living realm, and you wanted to return back to your duties, you really didâbut you were finding it hard to say goodbye to Dream. Especially when he was watching you with such attractive, hooded eyes.Â
Had his eyes been like that the entire time, or was he just looking at you like that now that the two of you were alone, in front of his bedroom? How in the world did you get up here without realizing?
âWhat is it like? To have your subjects love you?â asked Morpheus, nearly startling you out of your dazed reverie.Â
The question was an unexpected one, but you were quick to respond nonetheless. âIt is perhaps the best part of serving them. I do not exist without them. I am nothing without themâand for that, I am grateful.â
Morpheus dipped his head, as if in thought.
âThe humans have named you a God of many things, because they love you so,â he said. âIs it not tiring to juggle so many conflicting duties at once?â
âItâs not tiring at all. I like a bit of variety in my work. And I love them just as much for it, if not moreâafter all, I am a God of infatuation,â you replied, lips slanting up at him.Â
Something changed within his scrutiny. It was minute, but you still noticed it. His jaw relaxed just a bit, and he angled his face to better look at you. Suddenly, your first few meetings where he had completely refused to meet your gaze whatsoever felt so very long ago. Not at all subtly, Morpheusâ stormy eyes glossed down to your lips, which were just slightly parted with want.Â
Your breath hitched within your throat.Â
Emboldened, you spoke again, voice an octave lower. âI am also a God of pleasure.â Ever so slowly, you reached out to graze your hand over his. His eyes remained on you, unblinking. When he didnât jerk away, you threaded your warm fingers through his frigid ones. âPerhaps I can show you?â
There was a stormy grumble to Morpheusâ chest when his arm darted out to snake over your waist, pulling you close. He swallowed your pleased gasp when he sealed his lips over yours, noses bumping against one another amidst your vigor. Finally, finally, your hands reached up to bury within his unruly dark hair, sighing into him. There was a furiously desperate nature behind his touches, and you were nothing if not a match to his intensity. When you softly bit down on the bottom of his lip, a dangerous color melded over his features, and he made a suppressed noise of torment in the back of his throat, before kissing you againâharder this time. You most certainly didnât mind.Â
In tandem, you stepped back into his bedroom, and he kicked the door shut behind him. It closed so loudly, the very walls rattledâno doubt the entire castle had heard it. Neither of you seemed to care.Â
She was screaming.
There was a long litany of crying pleas falling from her lips, hair plastered to her quickly paling skin with sweat. Tears rolled down her plump cheeks as she cradled her swollen stomach, where her unborn child was slowly dying within her.
She was losing her baby.
You were standing beside her, casting as many protective healing enchantments as fast as you possibly could, breathing labored. The very beginnings of panic seized your heart when none of it was enough. You werenât enough.
âPLEASE!â she screamed her voice raw to any God that would listen to her. âPLEASE, HELP ME! I BEG YOU! I BEG YOU, PLEASE! I canât lose them, I canât lose my baby!â
âIâm trying,â you croaked, strained, even though she couldnât hear or see you. You were tryingâbut it was too late.Â
Death appeared in front of the bed, serenely calm, resting a comforting hand on your shoulder.
You only shrugged her off, hurriedly casting more enchantments, more incantations, more protective shielding. You were a God of fertility, a protector of women and childrenâhow could you let this happen?
âY/N,â your old friend said, not unkindly.Â
You ignored her.
âY/N,â she repeated, a touch firmer. âYou cannot bring back the dead.â
Another enchantment. Another incantation. Another spell. A scalding tear fell down your cheek. Your hands began to shake.
The child was still dead. The motherâs wails echoed shrill in your head.
âIâm sorry,â you hiccupped, your vision obscured with unshed tears. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorryââ
You didnât even register when Dream gently pulled you away from the woman, so his sister had some space to properly do her job. Because you had failed at yours.
A sob thundered through you, shaking you to your very core. âIâm sorry,â you cried, turning away from the body. This wasnât the first time youâd gone through this, but it only seemed to get more and more painful each time.Â
Morpheus, grim-faced and solemn, brought you closer to him with soft touches, guiding your head to rest into the crook of his neck. You cried against his skin, fistfuls of his coat gathered tightly within your palms. He murmured a short sentence of comfort into your ear, but you didnât quite catch what he was saying, ears filled with static.Â
âIâm sorry,â you repeated over and over again. Morpheus tenderly stroked the back of your head, falling silent, and tugged you all the closer to him.Â
She was asleep.Â
A man laid naked beside her, his arm thrown loosely over her waist as he snored so loud it was a wonder she didnât jolt awake.Â
With a beguiling smile, you looked over your shoulder to Morpheus expectantly. A miniscule glimmer of amusement warbled within his eyes, and with a flick of his fingers, the slumbering manâs arm fell away from the woman, and he turned over with a grumble, falling deeper into a dreamful sleep.
âThank you,â you told him, affectionately grazing the tip of your nose to his cheek. âYou should come along with me more oftenâitâs fun having an assistant to help me with my duties.â
âIâm only but a call away, my love,â replied the Endless, an unmistakably doting edge to his words.Â
Your grin grew double its size. Morpheus slowly gestured to the sleeping couple with his head, reminding you of your duties.
âTheyâve been trying to conceive for months,â you told him, waving your hand over the womanâs belly. A soft aureate glow touched the ends of your fingers, and fell to her in periodic droplets. âTodayâs their lucky day.â
With a final protective casting, you stepped back, satisfied.Â
âShe wonât know sheâs pregnant until two or three weeksâ time,â you said, making your way back to him across the room. âIâll be back by then to make sure sheâs doing alrightâwill you come with me, Morpheus?â
The Endless regarded you with a soft, fond gaze, one that was reserved for you, and only you. He gathered your hands within his.
You arched a brow when he didnât answer your question. âMorpheusâ?â
âMarry me,â he cut you off quietly, voice saturated with feather-silken endearment.Â
There was a beat of shocked silence, and you had to pause for another two to make sure that he wasnât jesting with you. Then again, Morpheus was never the kind to jest in the first place.
Then, your expression cracked into one of joy, positively radiant. The moonlight streaming through the window cast mellow shadows over the slopes of your features, shifting as you smiled ever so brilliantly.Â
âOn one condition,â you murmured, drawing yourself closer to him and dragging a glowing finger down his jaw.Â
âAnything, my love,â whispered Morpheus, his lips but a hairâs breadth from yours.
âYou must know that my duties to the mortals will always come first and foremost.â
The Endless dipped his head in understanding. âEvery passing moment with you is only something to be all the more grateful for.â
âYou certainly have a way with words, donât you?â you whispered, amused. Morpheus stole your smile away with a kiss, indulgent in nature and devastatingly gentle.
Khonshu thought you were a fool. A mindless, bumbling fool.Â
âYou married Dream of the Endless?â your half-brother harrumphed. âWhat of your courtship with Ptah? He is in love with you, sibling-mine.â
At the mention of your previous lover, you bristled, glaring witheringly at his bird-skulled form. âThat was centuries ago, Khonshu. Perhaps if youâd bothered to keep in touch, you would know that. Besides, Ptah is madly in love with Sekhmet, and she with him. I have no interest in rekindling whatever it is we had in the past. I love Morpheus, and that is that. Now Iâm very much glad you didnât bother showing up to our wedding.â
âThere was a wedding?â he snarked, which made you square your jaw.Â
The two of you had always had a love-hate relationship, as most siblings often did.Â
âEven Anubis showed up,â you retorted, mind wandering back to your first love from long ago, and the awkward introduction between him and your husband. âThough, Morpheus wasnât particularly happy about that.â
âAnubis has always been a sniveling, groveling simpleton,â your brother snidely remarked. âI am ever so busy, as you can seeâI have no time for frivolous events such as weddings.â
Knowing it was pointless arguing with him, you simply blew out a sigh, and watched as he carefully shifted the moon into appearance amongst the stars of the night sky.Â
Suddenly, out of nowhere, a sharp, searing pain tore through your chest, and you let out a choked groan, falling to your knees at the sudden sensation. Khonshuâs large head rounded to look at you, a litany of sharp, berating words on the tip of his tongue, but he held them back upon seeing you on the ground.Â
âY/N?â he asked, deep voice bellowing.Â
It felt as if a dozen knives were plunged within you, twisting, twisting, twistingâ
Morpheus.Â
You didnât know what was going on, but something was happening to him. You could feel it. He was in danger. Panicked, you called for him in your thoughts, and received no response. With a trembling voice, you called for him out loud.
Nothing.
Khonshu was beside you by then, helping you up, asking you about a dozen impatient questions at once, but you had no time to answer any of them.
âI have to go,â you told him, before stepping away, determined to get back to the Dreaming to find your husband.
âLucienne!â you called, running into the library after scouring the castle, finding it completely empty. The librarian looked up from her book, a smile on her face upon seeing you. It was quick to melt away when she noticed your terrified expression. âWhereâs Morpheus? Where is he?â
She looked taken aback by your frantic nature, before she calmly replied, âIâm not quite sure, he was here recentlyâI thought he was with you?â
âSo heâs not here?â you asked, breath hitching. âOh, no. No, no, no. Lucienne, I have to find him. Iâm afraid somethingâs happened to my husband!â
Concerned, she tilted her head. âWhat makes you think so?â
âI justâI felt this searing pain within me, and for a moment I could feel him, like I⌠I could feel his pain, as if it were mineâI felt his anguish. And then it was just gone.âÂ
âAlright, letâs not get ahead of ourselves, Iâm certain heâs perfectly fine,â Lucienne placated, a comforting hand on your shoulder. âWe can wait until nightfallâMorpheus is sure to return from wherever he is by then.â
He didnât return.Â
Not at nightfall.Â
Not the next day. Nor the next week, nor the month after that.
Not for years, not for decades.
The living realm was in shambles without him. Some went for days without sleep, collapsing only out of pure exhaustion, and others slept in a comatose state for weeks on end.Â
Dreams and nightmares looked to you for guidance at firstâbut you werenât equipped to rule an entire realm on your own, much less one that wasnât yours to begin with.Â
And not long after Dreamâs disappearance, they began to leave the Dreaming, in search of something else.Â
The kingdom was crumbling apart, and you tried your best to keep it together at first, you really did. But with so much of your time devoted to the living realm, you began to weaken, and you couldnât uphold both strenuous duties at once. With time, the Dreaming began decaying and breaking down, until all that was left was ash and rubble.
Lucienne was one of the only ones that stayed in the broken realm, and it shattered your heart to see her so dejected, living amongst the ruins that she once called a home.
And what made it all worse was that you missed him. You missed your husband. His comforting presence, his smooth, melodic voice, his muted kindness, despite his cold exterior. You missed him, terribly so, and to see his world crumbling away filled the cracks within your chest with a thick, tar-like despair.
During your time in the living realm, when you werenât helping out the frantic mortals, you spent your time scouring city to city, country to country, tribe to tribeâand nowhere was Morpheus to be found. Youâd even gotten so desperate to ask your brother, Khonshu, to help, and heâd reluctantly agreed, using his poor sleep-deprived avatars to help search for him. Perhaps you didnât search hard enough.
Or perhaps⌠perhaps he was simply gone.Â
No. No, it just couldnât be.
Morpheus wouldnât up and disappear like thatâhe loved his subjects, his dreams, his nightmares, all of themâand he loved you, more than anything else.Â
He wouldnât do this to you on purpose, you knew that. He was somewhere out there, in the vast cosmos.Â
And he needed your help.Â
âIâll find you, my dearest Dream,â you whispered, still trying ever so desperately to reach him through thought. âWherever you are⌠wherever youâve goneâŚâ
Iâll find you.











