I've been reminiscing about seminary and the things that convinced me of their willful ignorance.
There was one time they brought in people for us to ask questions to. I wrote down questions about intersex people. Asking if there were intersex people married in the temple. Saying that some people went their whole lives without knowing they had an intersex condition. So couldn't people have been married in the temple that by some people's definition of sex would've been a gay marriage. I asked how they could draw the line between gay and straight marriage when intersex people existed.
I was disappointed by the same schpiel about it being rare and a disorder, how someone in that position should seek personal revelation before getting married. They didn't have a real answer. They had said something about how I should seek personal revelation if I myself had the condition. And then I felt like everyone was looking at me like a freak for possibly being intersex or for even bringing up such a question.
There was another time when I heard that Spencer W. Kimball said some terrible things about gay people, which were written in The Teaching of Spencer W. Kimball. I wanted to see an official physical copy of the book myself to see if it was real. So I asked people at Seminary if they had a copy of the book. They had such disdain for me, not wanting to lend me the book, asking what I wanted to use it for. It only made me more suspicious and wanting to read it. My freshman Seminary teacher was nice and let me see a copy during lunch. And later I found the book on archive.org. All the filth that people said Kimball said was real.
There was a time when the people at Seminary made us take some kind of multiple choice test. One of the questions was about the requirements for temple marriage. One answer was about being legally married and another answer was about people loving each other. Apparently getting legally married was the "right answer". I was so angry. I was telling someone that it was unfair if anyone lived in a religiously oppressive country. I wrote my complaints all over the test paper only to realize it was a test sheet meant to be read by a computer. Only the filled in circles would matter and they would be sent to someone above in leadership. And now I had more reasons to doubt the authenticity of prophetic revelation if they were gathering test answers that were basically polls about the youth's opinions about doctrine. I hope all the people answering that happiness is what's necessary for marriage actually convinces the prophets to change their teachings and not just double-down on legality as a requirement for marriage.
