#more edge

I will be posting such a post soon, so sit tight

I'm a bomb you can't defuse Might just accept you're gonna lose Can't turn down, I refuse To hold back anymore

I always feel like I have no fucking choice. Like everywhere I go have the illusion of free will. When I’m asked a question by my parents, I gotta go with the obvious answer or I’m gonna get in trouble. Then if I were to vocalize my anger and discontent about that shit, not only will I get into trouble, apparently I’m the bad guy here. I have to act unbothered about everything because voicing my concerns would be a fucking sinful. I can even vent to my best friend anymore because if I were to be crystal clear with her, I would actually be an asshole. So have to internalize my problems until I fucking break down in my house at 3pm and hurt myself. The break in between my break downs is getting shorter and shorter. I don’t know how many more days that I’m willing to throw myself at this fucking wall of life. I feel like my mental problems are puppeteering my fucking life at this point, and I don’t feel like I have much free will anymore.

Me, under a rock: I wonder what the ruckus is. Oh well. Back to not writing lore about my clan that's so disconnected from society that they're afraid of it.

Happy new years everyone! My new years revolution is to be edgier and use more finger guns.