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She still loves her baby ❤️ #moothecat #tysonkitty #acatnamedtaco #catsofinstagram #catcuddles

Mosley turns 11 today. Happy birthday, you old cow! 🍰🎂😺 #moothecat #birthday #birthdaygirl #tortiesofinstagram #tortiecats #catsofinstagram

I have been in a very dark place for a few months. I'm not going to spill my guts on Instagram but I just feel like I can't catch a mental break. The first half of the year was anxiety central and then just when I thought it was getting better my depression kicked me in the face. It sneaks up on you so slowly that you don't realise that this hole you suddenly find yourself in is one of your own creation. Day by day, using my sanity as shovel. One of the problems that I need to address is that I have been too much in my own head. The last 17 months, for obvious reasons, have been very self-reflective. What am I eating? What is it doing to my body? Why do I feel like this? How much do I weigh? What are my measurements? What happens when I do this? How do I feel about this? In short…me me me me. This was an important part of my journey; you cannot change your lifestyle/life without putting yourself first and being your own catalyst. But I am so bloody tired of myself. I didn't realise that it had reached the point where I am annoying the living daylights out of myself. And of course, I am an emotional tornado - so I have been very thoroughly reflecting this off of everyone around me. My bad. So I need to change some things, and Instagram is one of them. I'm not going to vanish, but I do feel like my account needs to change direction a bit. I started this for accountability, I no longer need that. I am going to stop posting every single meal I eat. I'm not going to stop entirely, and don't worry, the meal pictures will keep coming but I cannot keep this up to the same degree I have done in the past. There will be more life posts, more recipe posts, more #MooTheCat posts, more writing posts and more weight loss related posts. If I eat something awesome - I will post it. When I bake new things, you guys will know. The food photos will mean more. But 10 000 pictures of boiled eggs is going to make me crazy. I hope you guys stick around to see where this part of my journey goes.