2. How does your OC remember their childhood? Is this an accurate reflection of what their childhood was actually like?
25. What is your OC's deepest desire? Would they ever ask for this?
How does your OC remember their childhood? Is this an accurate reflection of what their childhood was actually like?
Dalamus remembers his childhood as tough but fair. Everything his parents ever did was justified, to prepare him for the cruelty of the world. To toughen him up. To make him strong. To make him independent, and resilient. To make him a proper drow of Lolth.
The reality is he was neglected and abused. Punished harshly for perceived failures, and rarely encouraged for accomplishments. This ultimately led him to believe he cannot rely on others for support or help, and asking for it would be met with ridicule or scorn at best, punishment at worst. His "usefulness" determines his worth, so being a tool mattered more than being a person.
Nilaufein undoubtedly is the reason Dalamus survived the neglect as a child, being a barrier between his two brothers, and bringing Dalamus food whenever he was isolated as punishment or medicine when he was quarantined for illness. Giving Dalamus even just a fraction of the childhood he should have had, helped a lot.
What is your OC's deepest desire? Would they ever ask for this?
Another of Dalamus' deepest desires is just, to belong.
With his worth being tied to his usefulness, his career as a gemcutter and silversmith was the linchpin holding his "value" together, and without it he feels like he has lost everything. He thinks, as a Lolthite drow, the only place he can belong is Menzoberranzan.
But he has plenty of people in his life even now willing to prove him wrong.
Belonging is not really something one can ask for, but something one must cultivate. In time.