#monstersmuses

she stands with her back against the wall, watching as he moves around the kitchen. her feelings for him have made a home in their chest, but she's too afraid to say anything. she's too afraid to ruin their friendship. "you missed a spot on that plate," she teases, head canting to the side. "carmen texted to ask if we're going to the bar tonight with them... did you wanna go? cause i'm not feeling it."

“and i love you enough to always be honest with you.” patting his shoulder, as she failed to hold back her laughter. “mm... but you knew that already.” scrunching her nose slightly at the mention of being evil. “for one... we’re going to need to go outside. thought it’s been a while since we had a repeat of the night we met, and the pool just wasn’t the same without you.” reaching over to press a kiss to his cheek, she let her head drop down onto his shoulder. “there was something i thought about while you were gone. but it is your welcome home party, so do you want fun or to talk first? pinky promise it’s not a bad talk. least... least i don’t think so.” 

as it turned out, avoiding your own home was easier said than done. she’d studied more the past few weeks than she had in her lifetime. visited more people than she had before. went out more than she had been lately. all of which somehow seemed easier than talking to demarco. they were working on communication, but she’d ran into a problem - she had no idea how she felt in order to communicate that. ever since he’d told her about running off to chase down their problems, it was as though her mind had shut down. unable to tell whether she was more pissed off or terrified - so she felt nothing instead. she’d taken to keeping herself awake at night, and napping when he was training to avoid him noticing the increased frequency of her nightmares. she missed him, and she’d made a promise to herself to wise up and talk to him - after one more night where she got to drink herself stupid and forget everything. a plan that had been going well until veronica got a little concerned and started saying they should go home. it had quicky been dismissed, and she’d made some vague threat about not calling demarco to come get her either. a few more drinks in, and she found herself talking to someone she vaguely recognized when her eyes landed on someone she definitely recognized. ice cold eyes turning to veronica, her friend simply shrugged. “you made me promise not to call him, i didn’t. i called luke and asked him to pass along a message.” with a pat to her shoulder, veronica walked off - stopping to say something to demarco as lilly turned back towards the bar ordering two shots, taking one before placing one down next to her as she felt him behind her. “if you’re here - the least you can do is have a drink and not sour the mood.” 

" mckay? " she's finally found the courage to return home after the time spent at mckay's apartment. nate seemed to have finally given up harassing her. it's prom night, her parents are gone, and she'd expected to spend the night alone. but she stands at the front door of her parents' house and he's in a suit and... " i- what is this? " tone is soft, awed, amazed by a sweet gesture. she'd never expected kindness from any boy beforem but mckay was different.

lani's silent, careful as she's being carried in his arms, lightly snoring. soon after, being placed on her bed -- seeing him walk away, she grabs his hand, eyes silently begging. " hey . . don't go. " she whispers, nearly glossy as she's trying her best to not seem so weak, but she's exhausted from working, from keeping herself intact. " there's room on the bed for the both of us, " she's saying, hoping that he's going to give in & lay with her, it's all she needs, at this point.

her cheeks are stained with tears as the door opens. arms crossed over her chest, isca is evidently underdressed for the weather, as though she'd left in a hurry. she bites her bottom lip, tries to look like she has it together but a soft sob escapes her lips. "i'm sorry, i had--- i didn't have anywhere else to go."

         “   i....  wait....   “  voice  is  soft  and  a  giggle  leaves  her  lips,  can  feel  the  high  beginning  to  settle  in.  “  you  know  i’ve  never  done  anything  before...  never  been  high,  right  ?  “

           “  my  parents  would  kill  me  if  they  knew  where  i  was.  “