Monsterkin stuff again
So like the more I think about my monster kintype, the more I am not surprised and the more it kind of helps me. Plus, I have asked a few pendulum things and have received answers I really believe in.
One of those being my monster kintype being my most recent kintype. I don't know how far or few between it is to my life now, but it is close enough that I am having the most memories and insights about it.
I have always called myself a monster but the more I think about it, the more it doesn't scare me to want to get in contact with that past part of me. Monsters aren't always evil and I don't think I was. I think I was scared, paranoid, and protective. My cat Goliath feels so similar to what my companion was back then, but I don't think they are direct connections ya know? I think he knows about my kintype, ya know? But like I was saying, I was shaky. I tried adapting to a human body and failed then, no wonder it has been so hard this time around.
I suffer from depression and anxiety like many otherkin and therians. In this case, it makes more sense when looking at it with my kintype in mind. Either way, discovering my monster kintype has really helped me the past few days but it has been lonely. No one IRL knows my belief system and none of them know I'm otherkin and it doesn't help that monsterkin are so far and few between.
Oh well...I just need my bear-esque companion back.
