Its really weird to be doing this when I've had this account for so long but I really feel like I wanna keep using tumblr but just not on this account? I've had this account since I was 13 and I wanted to keep using it as a string of continuity throughout my life but also its just, I feel like the person who started this blog isn't the person I am now.

Obviously I'm still *me* , I didn't change my name or something but the mona who started this blog would not recognize the mona today and using this blog has just felt off? I've done a lot of things I love but also a lot of things I hate under this blog and I tried to keep using it by doing things like changing my username but I think the real solution is starting over somewhere else because every time I use this blog I feel like I'm walking in someone else's skin and that's really disconcerting.

I know that no rational person would assume I am the same from 6 years ago but this is less for how people feel about me and more about how I feel about myself? Its hard to put it in a way that'll fully make sense

I also just really want to start over. Continuing to use this blog where I know a lot of people only cared about my old content when I write so much differently now feels like I'm dragging along a giant skeleton. Its suffocating