#mogs talks

hey everybody,, for txt’s one year anniversary i wrote a letter. if you read it all, thanks so much~ i figured i should post this because today has been a pretty emotional day for me and i wanted to share it with you :) remember to take care of yourselves 💙💛💚

i remember the days when the introduction films for each member of txt were being released around a year ago from today. i was at school every time, and me and a few of my friends would huddle over my phone at a table in the cafeteria to watch them. i remember being super excited for txt’s debut and eagerly watching the countdown on bighit’s website. i remember the first time i listened to crown. i really had no idea that these five boys would end up playing such a big role in my life one year later. i’ve lost a lot of friends over the past few years, and i’m not friends with all of the people from that lunch table anymore, but i think it’s thanks to txt that right now i don’t feel so lonely.

it’s hard for me to put into words, but it really feels like txt came to me when i needed them most. they gave me friendship when i needed it, and they helped and encouraged me to crawl out of my shell as i met so many other wonderful people through twitter and tumblr, and everywhere else i’ve had the privilege of meeting other moas. :(

of course, being an army has been a very similar experience for the longest time ever for me. however, i feel as though bts have helped me learn to love myself and who i am as a person, while txt have helped me learn how to love other people, and not be too shy to reach out and make friends. :) txt feel like home to me, like somewhere i can go to feel safe. i’m a senior now, but all throughout my high school experience i’ve had really bad anxiety, especially relating to social situations. 

being moa encouraged me greatly to become more comfortable with reaching out and making friendships with people i may not know, and i’m really proud of myself for doing that. i’ve come a long way, and i don’t feel so insecure anymore about the way i seem to others or the impression i leave on them.

txt have been through so much together and i felt as though i could really feel their struggles with them. their passion is very bright and apparent and i’m so glad and proud of how far they’ve come in just one year. i’ve been somewhat of a fan since debut, but i wasn’t really moa until the release of tdc:m. i listened to that whole album the morning it came out on my bus ride to school, and kept it on repeat for days to come. txt are such a unique group, amazing allrounders with so much talent and passion that i couldn’t help but be inspired by them.

since then, my life has changed a lot and i feel like a happier person who has lots of people to talk to and be friends with. i can’t wait to see the way txt grows in the years to come and i can’t wait to grow as a person right alongside them. they’re so impressive, and the fact that they’re just about the same age as me pushes me constantly to do better for myself and work toward my dreams just like they did.