#modtalking

(fair warning, ive remade this response many times. i apologize if something seems unclear)

I have no idea what to do with this blog, honestly. I’ve poured my heart and soul into this project; I did rps with wonderful people, I spent days trying to make art, I met so many amazing and heartfelt people nearly worldwide that have helped me get out of my shell online and offline (in a way) so to speak. If it stays, it will only stay up as an archive, so people can still find what they loved and save it even if it was tainted.

Isaias was my favorite character, and he was tainted by the horrible actions of people who frankly don’t deserve anything nice from anyone. They know what they did and the people who were complicit did too.

That being said, I don’t want to leave Isaias’ story on a cliffhanger.

In my eyes, Isaias goes into Rehab. In an attempt to clean his life up following his brother’s return (and wishes from his family) despite the trainwreck it derailed to. He has his brother, who he has always and will forever love, and a new family member in the form of a little AI. Isaias loves the lil guy too—they draw together. He has John, a father figure to him, who he and Yukino Sato will always run to if things get bad, if he wants to see his dad again, or he relapses and can’t go home. The Void will always be there, a constant reminder of what happened to him, but healing isn’t a quick process. It never was, and it never will be.

Isaias, in my heart, gets his happy ending with time, and I encourage the other RP bloggers to do the same. I’ve seen a couple people want to make a community-lead pressure even, and I support the idea.

I also have a message for the outer audience there, even if you’d heard this before.

If you are a victim of anything, it was never your fault and you should never feel guilty about speaking up.

The man in question that caused all of this harm to Ren/NoLongerNull was manipulative, two-faced by all means, and someone that doesn’t deserve the praise he received for so long for making his game accessible to many and acting like a “good example” of a Roblox Developer. In a way, Zeal only separated himself from the Forsaken and Grace Dev teams to make his look better. This fact alone is why Ren’s story hits so hard. We expected so much better of Zeal and the team.

The overall message still stands. Fuck Zeal, Zerum, Kat, anyone who was complicit in the horrific actions done to Ren.

They, not Ren, ruined something we cherished because they could not take a second in their life to fathom being good people towards their own staff members by all means. Zerum herself is a hypocrite for claiming she had no idea about the assault done to Ren when there is definite proof that she knew fully and did nothing.

Pressure was special to me.

It got me into ULTRAKILL, letting me meet another dear friend of mine. It made my brain swirl with excitement each new update, and it let me meet people who I consider as close as family sometimes (I can’t even lie, some of these people in particular have genuinely me feel very cared for and heard. I’ve never really had so many people willing to listen to my odd interests and actively encourage me.) You guys are all so special to me, you’ve given me a place I can talk about things that are sensitive to me without it blowing up in my face IRL.

I love you all so much. Thank you for everything you’ve done, thank you for letting me have such a special few months of my life running this account.

mizuwater day 388!! this mizuwater is from leaks from the mizu6/reaching out to a tomorrow that won't come unraveled 3dmv!!

its like im walking through a graveyard when i look at my following list on here its so scary. last updated 6 months ago. last updated 5 weeks ago. last updated a year ago. entropy has claimed their souls.