#modelling industry

Yachting selling , of people

Since breaking out of the matrix slowly, since 2014, I have noticed the sinister undertones and also while listening to certain podcasts and certain blogs, I realise that a lot of these actresses, models, singers, and many others in Hollywood , move them into a certain place in Hollywood, when new stars come to live, I can’t remember the name of the place but it’s like an apartment block.

In fact, what made me want to write this?, My favourite model Bobbie Jean brown.and find in out she was actually with rob Pilatus, of Milli Vanilli , and I thought was a odd pairing , but it’s were they all meet , and do modelling , sadly rob died in 98 , I can’t remember what Bobbie said of him ,but they both are almost one hit wonders , which are the people , I having more respect ✊ for, as they don’t seem to sell their soul?

Anyway, said entertainment Entertainer, comes here to get a life of glitz and glamour, only to hear about stuff like yacht, and escorting, and you see it for what it really is the picture, or Photoshop?, Being very sexually provocative., or having or having the ,undertones of it, and you see it there bared for all.

Massive example is, Sydney Sweeney she seems to be that girl, the girl that is just a sex object kind of like what they did with Kate Upton, but didn’t make it she’s just a girl with a massive pair of tits that fodder and wank over , i’m not a lot more , which is very unfortunate for her because since being in euphoria that’s all she seems to have her focus on , sadly a lot of actresses have had this , Marilyn Monroe being one they didn’t take seriously , obviously I don’t put her in the same class as Marilyn because nobody is .

Models , TV stars sexy women in the industry.

Obviously, it’s not gonna make you like completely susceptible for things like this, but it’s gonna fucking help because like when you’re sexy and you’re on TV and you’re accessible to all these men and women out there and people think they know you because of what you’ve been in or over even be porn or a beach television like people can stalk whoever and I just wanna give a moment for these women who probably injured terrible things during their career one I was thinking of these. I think Linda Evangelista was married to the guy who did form Ford models or elite models John Casablancas I’m sure she went through so much with him like treating her badly treating other women in industry badly and I’m sure it fucked up a lot of relationships she had to other people because of what she went through.🫣🧚🏽‍♀️🦋



Like these are high value women and don’t you forget it they’re strong in their faces. They’re powerful. They’re more powerful than the member behind them which I make them for feel bad by saying you wouldn’t be anywhere without me. A typical line for many douche for a man even 10 in a relationship with you’ve done fuck all to do anything before you LOL sorry that made me laugh cause I’ve already said to me like oh where would I be clean and healthy? So yeah that line sorry just choke me out but yeah these women could be any situations for fucking years without like people really understanding or knowing why and these bees can be so clever that they always treat you into the relationship part as I think a lot of women nowadays stay single like the stats of their so this girl pulled out the other day like single women are happy and I have noticed it it’s so much happier like I think I’d be more turned to walk away from my relationship. If I had friends I don’t really have friends anymore .

and that’s okay like I’ll get there eventually we’ll get there eventually but it just like it hurts in the time being well I know people who deserve to be happy obviously, but why don’t I deserve a good close friend? It just seems like now I’ve hit my face. It’s really fucking hard to make friends and if I do my friends online on that isn’t the kind of friend I want I don’t want an online friend,

but maybe I won’t be too good at like the commitment side if I don’t know now I’ll probably go into overdrive and that’s what people know even my best friend I think finds me too much. But to be honest with her

, I think it’s more of a family like she’s had caravans for year with her mother and her mother is almost like my dear is like quite terrifying and I haven’t been invited to one of them even though I absolutely love caravans I don’t think my mate realise how much you upset me until the other day like when I sort of slipped it in in a bitchy way but pretended not to if you get what I mean. Please tell me you understand the news on the same thing and then be like oh no, I didn’t mean that. No I didn’t mean that because you got really shitty like what you haven’t been invited to the caravan is that what you meant that sort of thing and she’s not allowed to like confrontation at all which made it more funny for me anyway because I thought you’re gonna sit there and pretend that you know I love caravans you’re gonna act like I don’t you’re gonna act like I couldn’t give a shit about it and you know there’s nothing further from the truth.

so okay are we playing that game? I’m not here to play games tonight if you wanna be my friend then be fucking truthful this is what I messed with friends as you were like Aries or cancer is there his truth is I make friends with anyone Libra or Sagittarius base that says lies I’m sick of it be truthful for fucking once I guess they’re trying to spam my feelings I don’t know but I’d rather eruption you felt the wrath of age be honest because if you’re lying in your 20s and you’re reading this you’d like shocking especially since I’ve known this girl since I was like 19 and we’re both right now she’s two years older than me so we’re both right now. I’ll be 36 in July and she’ll be 30 fucking hell not 39 3838 should be 38 too much should be 38 July 37 we like seven days apart as well. It’s like similarities with me like boys but I’ve gone place to 2 of the boys especially in the middle child but the youngest child, I don’t even know if I’m being honest. I think I might be something to have a cold. I don’t know something teens I’m gonna do your son anyway at the end of that to be honest a lot of it just had enough of it. I’ve just had enough of it but yeah, the way she’s cheated with that whole situation that she really hurt badly and like my brother said to me who has more in my friend so it should be more direct but a Libra of being a chart ruler he was like maybe she just doesn’t want you then was that fucking sense? She obviously doesn’t she obviously doesn’t want me to ever total and that hurts doesn’t hurt anyway let’s talk about these women who get treated so bad in Hollywood that is unreal. It’s crazy and I don’t know how it even gets away with the people who keep their mouth and don’t say anything about anything and I’ve said that over like too much violence situations I live now hopefully we just won’t get involved in it really fucking out instead I’ll do stuff like bang through the ceiling like yeah I don’t wanna get involved because it will get them in trouble so you’d rather see someone like literally hurt themselves so this is why these women felt so fucking helpless because they’re getting a man in power so I can’t imagine what they literally felt every day and I bet they had to take a lot of drugs to Cope with that trajectory and a coping mechanism because he sadistic out there you just wanna treat you like some piece of meat piece of shit and different with these women like a piece of me how beautiful they are and men like this face if they weren’t or didn’t have their money lined in their pockets would not have the chance of any of these Women as now they wouldn’t have chance so true they have the respect for these beautiful women that they chose to sign up for their own, whatever deal probably written in blood .

I live in a box. I stay in a mansion, but I live in a box. 34” 24” 34”. Not an inch more, quite possibly an inch or two less. High fashion doesn’t mean high self esteem. High fashion is being hungry. High on drugs, high on adrenaline, high on success. Those apply, give or take. But they don’t truly capture the essence of an agency model’s life, or lack thereof. You create a home in the form of a dollar bill. You create self worth in the form of another job well done, another meal avoided. You sustain yourself on the compliments of strangers.

I live in a box. 900 calories a day, with exercise. Nothing more, quite possibly a meal or two less. Close to the show, we only drink liquids. But sometimes, I can’t stop myself. Sometimes I get high on a plate. Binging isn’t the answer, binging doesn’t solve my problems, and it sure as hell doesn’t fix every time wrong with this industry. But it feels so good in the moment, yes, it’s euphoria. I reminds me of a a time before I was obsessed with perfection. And then, in a moment, it’s done. And I know what I have to do to fix it.

What was Victoria’s secret, anyways? I don’t think it was the lingerie. I think it may have been a tendency to purge when no one was around. Or a nasty amphetamine addiction, maybe? Or, the fact that no matter how much success she got, and how much money she made, she felt awful inside. Maybe she lived in a box, as well. Or, on the contrary, her secret was how much money she makes off of the exploitation of susceptible young girls.

My agent told me once, ‘whoever said cocaine isn’t a meal obviously has never done any good cocaine’. He said this, and he offered me a cigarette. For the cravings, he said. Nothing more, nothing less. I told him, I’m exhausted. I’m tired of living in solitary confinement in the form of a measuring tape. In the form of a scale. In the form of his critique. He told me, ‘Suck it up princess, that’s business!’. He was right, of course. Every time. But he didn’t see what we went through. He doesn’t understand how disgusting I feel when I look in the mirror and I see ribs that jut out like nails. ‘You chose this life, you can leave at any time’. But he was wrong, of course. I don’t know how to be a person anymore. I only know how to be a pretty face.