#mod zero update

By gods, I am trying to get content written up for this blog, it’s just, I’m not exactly going through a good time right now. I’m sick, hopefully almost over it cause I’ve gotten sick twice counting this time already this year, and currently trying to get used to something that I never thought I do, but things happened, things that warped and influenced me in bad ways, and I had to do something drastic instead of letting it fester and hurt more over time. I’ll publically explain everything when I feel safe in my own skin and mind again, but the basics is I found out a friendship of mine was highly toxic to myself, something due to me not having many friends was unaware of, and I cut contact without so much as a word. To give some examples of toxicity without any of the more hurtful details, I was shamed for cutting my hair, for cutting my ocs hair as well as for some ideas I had with characters, felt like the person was trying to steal my characters, especially a self insert who is dear to me, and bullied for joining new fandoms as well as not having played Food Fantasy much anymore. The shaming of my hair happened in August last year and the bullying for joining fandoms happened last month to give a timeline.

That’s all I’m going to share, I’m hardly in a good place right now, as I cut contact near the beginning of this week I think and it’s still weird but I had to do it for my own mental wellbeing.I’ve blocked them on all platforms I knew of that I had accounts for, even Facebook as we knew each others FB though I don’t use mine at all. Plus I’m still paranoid that they’ll send their friends to drag me back, so I’m trying to stay low for the most part.

I already have issues with my head that I don’t talk about, I don’t need to be dragged down by someone who only saw fit to use me and hurt me when I wasn’t doing what they wanted and replace me when I refused to do what they wanted.  

The only thing I still have from them is my food soul Strawberry Shortcake, but even so she’s still mine even if she was designed by them as they didn’t care about her at all when they made her which is one of the reasons I offered to take her.

I’m in good company now in several discord servers, one being the whole reason I found out that friendship wasn’t good for me as several kind souls told me and helped me, I cannot thank them enough for helping me as they did. ^^

Anyway, I hope my next post won’t be as down as this one, I’m still doing all the ask memes I reblogged so feel free to send something for those in to give me something to do aside from attempting to write, probably something fire Emblem or Fate Stay Night related ^^