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He can be so sweet, even when he has your hands tied to the bedpost. All it took was quite a few not so nice comments about yourself to get him feeling antsy. It doesn't matter what the cause was, coworkers making remarks about your weight? Your boss making remarks about your face? Men catcalling while you're walking home? He can deal with them all later.

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It's obvious to him that he hasn't been explaining just how perfect you are in morbid detail. Yes! That must be the explanation for why you could be so mean to yourself! Or maybe you'd rather him show you instead? He could do that.

He's had his own insecurities, to which you did nothing but love him for. This is just....him returning the favor, yeah. He has to show more love to you than you've shown him over the last few years. This is his fault after all.

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"You should have just said something sooner..."

Before you could really do anything he had stripped and pinned. Well, not exactly, he was fumbling to get the buttons of your shirt undone. You couldn't really tell if that was because of his excitement, or just his nerves getting to him again. You just knew for a fact he was shaking, you could feel it when he kissed you.

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Before you could even try to comfort you he was asking about pinning your hands.

"I want this to be all about you."

His determined look was too cute to really say "no" to if you had to be honest. He usually only gets that look from- well, you probably already know. This is Shuichi after all.

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Slow and careful hands ran along your sides. His touches always seem to start light, and move to grip onto you. Much like he was when you started dating in the beginning, he's clingy. Any excuse to touch you was one he made. He'd back off the second you told him to, much like he would if you felt uncomfortable now.

"You look so beautiful like this Y/N...."

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Of course he'd be spilling out praise while curling his fingers against your inner walls. Every whine he gets out of you just feeds the man's ego. He's wanting to drag this out for as long as possible, and you really don't have a clear enough head at the moment to finally start being serious about this. He isn't even undressed yet for god's sake! He's such a fucking tease.

That's what you'd think if you didn't know him of course. He's just as nervous as you are in reality, but your happiness is his first priority.

"Stop teasing."

"Sorry..."

Which is why he'll listen to your every word.

Even though this isn't the first time this scenario has played out, he still seems to act like a virgin without direction. Or maybe he's just trying to get you all riled up before actually giving you what he thinks you need right now. Either way, he still seems more concerned with getting you off first.

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He's quick to toss his clothes to the side at the very mention of it, he's been ready since he thought up the idea. He seemed a little more confident in doing that at least, despite his own struggles with body positivity. Becoming one with you is just another moment for him to cherish. This is one of the times when he can actually look you in the eyes. Had he not chose to tie up your hands, he would have entwined yours with his before actually deciding to actually sink himself inside.

A slow pace of back and forth, your comfort comes first. He's too worried about actually hurting you to care about himself. He keeps asking about the ropes. He can be so sweet that it becomes almost sickening to listen to.

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He's always pressed up against your chest, this is his form of affection. Being so close that it almost becomes uncomfortable. This is certainly a time when his behavior is warranted though. He wants you to hear everything he has to say about you. It doesn't matter if you can no longer think straight for him. You'll hear him now, or he'll be happy to do this again, and again, and again until you do.

He gets lost in that feeling a lot, feeling you specifically. He loses control of himself, and if you don't stop him, he can become rough. Not tonight, no, he's waiting on your every wish. It seems like torturous teasing, but it's just his way of getting consent. He can think clearly about what he's doing, the ways to touch, until his head becomes so fogged up with thoughts of you that he can't fucking take it anymore.

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That's when you'll finally get your relief in the form of him actually speeding up, hitting all the right places, and blowing off all the pent up steam he'd been keeping to himself. He doesn't have a lot of stamina in his first round, but makes up for it by rubbing circles into your clit. He makes sure that it's more about you in the end. He couldn't imagine going so off his mark of his goals when it could mean disappointing you.

He has to stop himself from dozing off as he finishes. He's spends just enough time with his head buried in the crook of your neck, drawing little symbols into your shoulder blades, that it makes you feel sleepy. The smell of your perfume is intoxicating enough to have a similar affect on him.

Like a mantra, or broken record he could only repeat "I love you" as he was slowly drifting off.

My face is burning and I blame you so much Alexis! - Mod Utsuro

I hope this is what you wanted because I had to study InvertedPhantasmagoria's writing to get this even close to what I wanted it to be like.