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ZEN: 

ZEN Hates being away from you, your his love, his life - you gave him a reason to keep going when he could have easily quit because of echo girl. He hated leaving you alone, even more so if you show reluctance and fear from everything with unknown, however, he had just signed a new deal and the agency wanted him to travel with the rest of the cast around Korea. 

At first he turned it down, it was months away at a time and he couldn’t just up and leave you like that! It wasn’t until you managed to talk to him he agreed too, but after the first show he knew this wasn't for him. The hotels were cold without you by his side, and not being able to return to your arms after each show was close to torture! The moment his plane landed back he all but rushed back to the house you both shared.

You had missed him too, of course you did, but you didn’t tell him that. Every little noise made you jump, you rarely left the home without a friend - your eyes searched every part of the street for the man from the apartment. Luciel had told you he was no longer a risk but that didn’t stop your worry. The date of your silly man's return was circled on the calendar and that day you had spent it all pacing the apartment - you had wanted to pick him up but the car had broken, typical! 

The moment you heard a key in the door you jumped up, you expected Hyun but that didn’t stop you having your defences up just in case, you couldn’t be too careful. The moment you saw his hair you knew you needn't have worried - his tired eyes meet yours but the smile that spread across his face as he saw you was enough to distract you from that. He dropped his suitcase and almost ran across the room to you, arms wrapping around you as tight as he could - his lips meeting your forehead as he held you like he had been gone for years, not weeks. You had missed the smell and feel of him, the strange safety that radiated and the way just being near him made your emotions bubble.

He saw the strange look in your eyes and he knew straight away what you had felt the whole time he was away. He took your hand and led you to the sofa, sitting next to you as his fingers gently massaged your shoulders. He hated to know you were so scared alone, he hated to know he could have stopped that but didn’t. He went away, and left you alone! His lips meet your temples as you leant into his embrace.

“I’m so sorry my love.. I won’t leave you again.”

Yoosung: 

You both knew Yoosung would have to travel when it came to uni, his desire and want to become a vet was strong. He wanted to make Rika proud - he wanted to be able to help animals the way he wanted to be able to help Sally. He didn’t count on you entering his life though, full of light and offering your hand without expecting anything in return - this put a halt in his plans. He needed to travel for his studies but he didn’t want to leave you! You gave him a reason to fight, he went half blind for you - it didn’t feel fair that he was to walk away!

You didn’t want him to leave either, but you both had spoken off moving in together eventually and for that he had to get his degree and to get that, he had to travel. You understood that and carefully encouraged him to do it, to travel and see the world - once he got home you could create a home together - one filled with love. With your gentle pushes and promise he left for his trip.

You didn’t expect to feel so lonely with him gone, you didn’t realise how much time you spent with him - walking past Sky Uni caused a pain in your chest. You knew it was necessary but that didn’t stop it hurting. The RFA saw and tried to keep you company, ZEN taking on the big brother role like he had for Yoosung - you suspected your sweet star had asked him to keep an eye on you. On his side things weren’t much better, when he was meant to be studying he felt his eyes going back to the RFA app, trying to see if you're online - wanting to hear your voice. He missed your touch and missed playing games and studying by your side. It was close to hell, he checked in with ZEN everyday to make sure you were okay - but when he said you seemed to really be struggling he knew what he had to do. He spent so much time on his studies that he was allowed to go home early, but he didn’t tell you as much.

The moment he got the news he booked his trip home, he didn’t care that it was going to be past midnight by the time he got home, he didn’t care that it was dangerous to travel that late - he needed to get home and he needed to see you. He opened the door to Rikas apartment, you had given him the code when you started dating with Luciels permission. He expected for you to be asleep, but was surprised to see you stood in the kitchen - a mug of tea in your hands and the same surprised look on your face. You couldn’t comprehend what was going on, you just felt his arms around you, his face in the crook of your neck and the cup of tea pushed to the side.

“I am so sorry.. I will never leave you again! I did it, i passed, our lives will start now!

Jaehee:

Living with you, working along side you and being able to run her own business was more than a dream for Jaehee it was close to a miracle. Everything she had ever dreamt off was in the same 4 walls and everything felt right - she loved you, she loved your work ethic and she loved being able to call you her partner. Life felt light and bubbly by your side, a mirror image of the childhood she wished she had. 

The cafe was a new endeavour for her, she hadn’t expected to ever open one but when she did she used her knowledge from C&R to keep it afloat, but that was limited when it came to running a cafe and you both knew it was important for at least one of you to get more knowledge - you went searching and found a convention outside of seoul that offered advanced knowledge for beginners. It was exactly what you were looking for - but annoyingly only had one space left so Jaehee went alone. 

You both missed each other when she was alway, you spoke as often as possible, albeit you would have preferred to talk more but Jaehee had her head in the books and except for the evenings she was rarely online - what you didn’t know was this was to distract her from how much she was missing you. Use to hard work, it wasn’t hard to throw herself into the books to keep herself busy but man did she miss having you around, cracking jokes or pointing things out to her she didn’t see. You were her soulmate, you made all of this easier, and she hated she had to do this part alone.

On the day she got back you all but rushed to the station to meet her, foot tapping impatiently as she watched train after train come and go - you may have arrived early but who cared? You missed your partner and you would wait for days here if it meant getting to hug her again - the second the train pulled in and you saw her smile you rushed over. Arms flying around her body as she laughed, holding you back just as tightly before you walked off hand in hand. She spoke of the convention, her eyes sparkled as she told you everything she learnt until you made it back to the apartment you lived in.

“I had a good time, but I missed you immensely. Let us use to knowledge i've gathered to make this cafe so good we never have to part again.”

Jumin:

Jumim Han was used to having to travel often - Jaehee watched Elizabeth often and you knew that, however, since your marriage he hadn’t left your side except to go to the office. The penthouse had grown from somewhere he dreaded returning to somewhere he couldn’t wait to go back too. You brought it life, joy, you filled it with laughter and made it feel warm. He pushed back every meeting that meant leaving your side until he couldn’t anymore. 

No matter how often you told him it was okay, to go and you would be fine you saw his reluctance and knew he was pushing it back. It took you putting your foot down and telling him to just go for him to schedule it and even then the night before he left he held you tighter than usual in bed, asking you over and over if you were sure he should go and how he could just cancel it right then and there. You sighed, chuckled and told him you would be fine. 

It wasn’t until he had been away for a few days, you had eaten your meals alone and fallen asleep in the too big bed, did the loneliness hit you, and it hit you hard, you missed having him by your side - reading books out loud or just simply existing in the space next to you. You pushed those worries down everytime you spoke though, trying to keep your voice light and air, however, you were married to Jumin Han, he heard the change in your voice almost instantly and without telling you he booked a flight home - the meeting wasn’t worth more than you and if they were that pressed about doing it face to face they could come to seoul themselves.

A private jet is faster than a commercial, but even so it took too long to get him home - you heard him before you saw him, door banging open against the wall and quick rapid breathing. For a second you jumped - wondering if it was the hacker but your shoulders sagged when you saw it was just your dear sweet husband. You left what you were cooking and ran into his arms, letting the scent of him feel your senses as everything fell back into place. His gentle movements on your back are nearly as grounding as the feel of Elizabeth weaving between both your feet.

“Your back, my hunny” “I'm back my love.. And I will never leave your side again unless it's absolutely necessary.”  

707:

Meeting Saeyoung was a whirlwind of emotions, some good, some bad - all of them unexpected. He had never expected someone to walk into his life so randomly and help bring all the pieces back together. You made his story feel complete, the air feel cooler and the fire shine brighter. You brought his brother back to him - something he never expected to happen, and you also showed him who was his true family and who wasn’t.

Since getting Saeran back Saeyoung had mentioned on and off the idea of taking him out, showing him places who could only  have dreamt off - teach him there was a world outside of Seoul. A world outside of cults, drugs, running and fear - he wanted his brother to feel the good life could bring and most of all he wanted to bond with him again. He wanted his brother to smile in his presence - and this was important to him. He was hesitant to go at first, he didn’t want to leave you alone but he also wanted this to be special. He told him to go, repeatedly - that you would be fine and he was worrying about anything. 

When he left though you weren’t prepared for how quiet things would be, living with two other people meant the house would always be loud, would it be from their arguments or just household noises of dropping pans and vacuuming. The quiet was unsettling and multiple times you went to phone Saeyoung and stopped yourself. He was enjoying time with his brother - you would be fine alone. You were an adult and could look after yourself! Saeyoung was feeling the same way, he was loving spending time with Saeran - seeing parts of the young boy he left behind all those years ago but his heart also yearned for you. On the last trip he expressed this and the brothers came home early - closer than ever.

When he finally got back to his home, a place he use to dread, he was quick to pull open the door and pull you into his arms. Your eyes were wide with surprise from them being home so early, but hearing Saeran chuckle you knew the trip had been worth it and they had achieved everything they needed to do.

“I missed you!! Im never leaving you ever again!! I am staying here with you!!”

“Thats..a little dramatic Saeyoung”

A girls day with just You and Jaehee would be rare, but they would happen! Jaehee works hard, her main focus in life is her work if that's in the Cafe with you or with Jumin I'll let you decide but when you two do get a day off together you spend it well!

Jaehee doesn't always eat well, she tends to let it slip her mind until late into the evenings when she no longer has the energy to cook - her main meals are from convenience stores and takeaways. You would make it your mission to make sure she had enough to eat for the week when you meet, taking around multiple Tupperware containers of homemade cooking - no matter how good your cooking is Jaehee would be delighted. The simple thought that went into you cooking and preparing food for her really touched her heart, and when she had time she made sure to make you something sweet in return.

If you wanted too, you could easily spend the day talking with one of ZENS musicals in the background, Jaehee knows all the words to them so occasionally you'll see her singing along - a small mutter and smile on her lips. You can't help but stare, hoping to not embarrass her too much but no one can blame you. She seems so happy, so content that you wouldn't believe how much stress she faces everyday!

Looking to go out? Jaehee knows all the best spots for a simple walk, near the duck ponds and through a field of flowers - the smells and sights are mesmerising and you slowly get her to open up about her work life. Making her laugh, you just enjoy seeing her smile!! Why wouldn't you do everything you can to see that?

No matter how you spend your day, Jaehee was just glad to spend it by your side and she looks forward to the next time you are both together!

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Prologue: How i ended up in Korea

When a baby is born it's meant to be an event filled with joy, where families meet and celebrate a new life being brought into the world. My birth wasn’t like that, mine destroyed a family and the blame was placed straight onto me, the newborn infant; an innocent soul who did nothing wrong. 

My family was small, just starting when my mother discovered she was pregnant with me. Actually I should say “us” , I had a twin brother. Me and my twins' arrival was meant to finish the family my parents had started - we were exactly what they wanted. They had everything planned, a nursery set up and their oldest daughter, my big sister - Michi had been told and was telling everyone excitedly that she was going to be a big sister. The small town we lived in was buzzing with the news, everyone knew everyone, everyone celebrated everyone else's success and twins being brought into a family was the biggest of joys.

Unfortunately for my parents, a time of joy quickly turned sour - my brother, Dante, he didn’t survive. The boy my parents had dreamt off, the family they had planned had changed in front of their eyes - and it wasn’t helped when my father saw me. To understand his sudden and quick hatred you need to know this, both my parents are blonde, blonde hair and blue eyes and that's the way both their families had been for generations, so, when he saw me - Blue eyes and bright red hair everyone knew my mother had been unfaithful. I was a picture perfect match for the gardener, and that day my family was destroyed - that's how I became their worst kept secret, their biggest burden. This is how I destroyed a family I was simply born from an affair. My father made sure to name me as such and I was christened Daeva Jones. In the Zoroastrian canon Daevas were gods that were rejected, they were born with undesirable characteristics and I guess to my father that was what I was - undesirable and rejected from my family. 

You can probably imagine that's how my early years went, until I was eight I was treated like dirt on the bottom of my family's shoes. My sister hated me for being the reason my parents no longer slept in the same room and my parents hated me for being such an obvious affair child. My needs were met to the absolute basic standards, if child protection ever looked in they had no reason to suspect i was being neglected so i lived my life day by day, i had no reason to believe better was near or would ever find me so i can’t tell you why i continued to fight, i just did. 

I still remember the day clearly, the day my sister's eyes met mine on my 8th birthday, full of hatred like I was used to but it wasn’t any easier to see.

“You’re going to Korea, to live with Nana and Papa”

Nana and Papa, my mothers parents, i had only meet the couple once and the experience wasn’t the nicest. The pair had spent the whole time scolding not only me but my mother too for my existence. Strict was an understatement, they seemed to resent their daughters very existence and made it their mission to make her life hell so when they heard of her mistake and that a daughter had been born of it? They were almost giddy with excitement that they got to tell her off - they never visited again, but I was aware of how much they hated me by the presents sent to Michi and the lack of anything sent to me. 

The idea of going to korea was terrifying. A new country, a new language and most of all people who were worse than my parents standing at the door - believe me when I say in the days leading to leaving England I wanted nothing more than to disappear, to no longer exist. I begged, pleaded with my parents to change their minds, that this was the wrong idea but no matter how hard I cried, shouted and screamed it was met with silence. It was as if they were already imagining I was gone - out of their hair and a secret they could just forget and not have to keep. A secret they hated more than anything.

The day I left England it was raining, it wasn’t uncommon but yet this time it felt.. Sadder than normal, like the sky could feel the emotions of my heart. Like the sky was crying for me because I couldn't bring myself too. The sky cried for me that day I'm sure. A small child, 8 years of age and more alone than anyone would have ever imagined. 

That's how my story starts, standing in front of a broken home in Korea - alone, scared and most importantly stronger than I ever knew.

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