#mod jensen

You do seem to have dysphoria with your chest.

As for coming out - you NEVER, NEVER, NEVER have to come out. Ever. To anyone.

That decision is solely up to you. No one else. Even if they try to make you, you don’t have to disclose it at all.

As I’ve seen it, “ey is.” But you should ask around just in case.

Eeehhh, this is a hard one.

When they typically fashion a penis (by the way, the plastic surgery for a penis is usually absolutely awful as I’ve seen it), they take a large piece of skin from a sensitive area of your body - armpit or below it, usually - and then roll it and stick it on, using a fallopian tube as an extended urethra. Sometimes small tube-shaped machinery are put into it instead.

Going on testosterone before surgery I don’t know about.

The only thing I can tell you, anon, is a packer. There are ones that can function so you can urinate out of them. My fiance uses one and he did have to adjust, but it works apparently. If you go on T, and wish to have a child, you have to go back OFF of it for about six months to a year before you’ve restored your fertility, and even then it’s iffy.

You’re in a pretty tight spot there anon. I can’t say I don’t feel the same way sometimes, however.

Androgynous? Perhaps.

You can be nonbinary and present differently from your identity. Gender expression =/= gender identity.

Gendercryptic is a good word.

Here, check out this list I use all the time. You may be able to find something good.

Genderflux, I’d say!

My advice: Put in your preferred name.

Your employer/interviewer should make note that your preferred name is different, and you request that name used instead of your birth-given name.

If you can, see into the handbook and protections the business covers. Most disallow any trans discrimination, and if you catch people being very exclusive about which name you use, you can take it up with management. The odds of them acting on it I can’t be sure about.

But you wanna know a business that’s awesome with given names? Starbucks. Trust me. Starbucks is LGBT job heaven.

Don’t ever force yourself to be something you are not. It rarely, if ever, ends well.

Your self expression is ALWAYS more important than someone else’s comfort. In this case, you being graygender and comfortable with yourself is far more important than them thinking it’s wrong. You don’t have to conform to their rules, just because you live under their roof.

My only warning is that CPS can only do so much. And if they do intervene, you may either end up in a dozen different foster homes, or with a family member. And in that time, you never know what others may think and the situations you may be in.

So if you’re extremely young - under 12 I’d say - consider alternatives.

Also, just as a disclaimer - none of us are professionals, and cannot give life advice. We can TRY to help, but we’re not going to guarantee everything will work out for the best.