May i please talk to Shuichi?

TW for dissociation (mostly derealization), and just feeling out of touch with reality in general

Lately the world to me just isn’t real, I’ve been dissociating a lot (mostly derealization) and it’s making me feel horrible

It takes me for forever to understand that I’m not part of some visual novel game where I’m the character that just keeps having the worst happen to them

And time to me isn’t real anymore either, I keep getting comments on by my dad that I’m slower (in terms of things like eating quick and such) than I used to be, but I can’t help it because sometimes my grasp on reality just isn’t there or I’m spaced out

I used to not dissociate but now it’s almost a constant thing, I wish I wasn’t so messed up…

I want to get help for my dissociation but as of right now I don’t have the ability to get the professional help…

Sorry if I take up your time…

Also, may I be known as Basil anon?

Right, Basil anon, got it. That’s not a problem, I’ll be sure to address you properly any time you come by.

I’m not too familiar with dissociation, but I’ve heard many stories about it. And how people deal with it differently, but the comments by your dad aren’t really necessarily. Maybe once or twice, sure, but not as a constant thing. Like you said, you can’t help it, we don’t ask for things like dissociation to be a thing.

Professional help is the first thing that came to mind but since you aren’t able to obtain it, I would do my research on other alternatives if possible. Maybe you’ll find something along the way that’ll lead you to getting help from a professional.

When you think about it, we’re all messed up in some way. Nobody is perfect, remember that even if you do dissociate, there’s nothing wrong with that. Take a few deep breaths, calm yourself the best you can. I-I know I didn’t really give you any help Basil, I’m really sorry. B-But perhaps a hug will comfort you?

To whoever. I just want advice. I am trying to start a rp blog because I use rp as a coping mechanism. However I have no idea where to start other than listing my fandoms/characters. How do I get started and/or find active roleplayers without randomly messaging strangers like a creep?

(From @spacedust-rp I can't actually send the ask from the blog because it's a sideblog...)

First of all, that’s very valid of you for wanting to start something because it’s a way for you to cope. There’s nothing wrong with that. Second of all, if you want to find active roleplayers, consider interacting with as many people as you can, perhaps you’ll find mutuals the more you write with each other. And like you mentioned before, listing your fandoms will help get your name out there as well.

Don’t overwhelm yourself with interactions, that could lead to a burn out of not wanting to write at all.

HAVE-NO-FEAR. MONODAM-IS-HERE-TO-COMFORT-YOU-TO-THE-BEST-OF-HIS-ABILIITIES. 

YOU-ARE-WELCOME-TO-AS-MANY-HUGS-AS-YOU-WANT. IT-IS-NO-PROBLEM-FOR-ME. I-ASSURE-YOU-THAT-YOU-ALWAYS-HAVE-ME-WHEN-YOU-FEEL-ALONE-OK? 

NOW-YOU-MAY-HAVE-A-HUG. SO-LONG-BEAR-WELL!

That’s not a stupid idea at all! Actually, you’re doing the mature thing. It’s never easy to have someone toxic tell you something about the people you hang out with, especially when they start filling your head with doubt about the people you spend time with. it really sucks when you’re trying to always look for the good in people, but then you have that doubt in the back of your mind. 

If you ask me, you’re doing the best that you can, if you want to take a step back and figure out how you feel about the connections you have, then that’s valid too! I would suggest letting both sides know just so they won’t keep hoarding you and such. They need to understand that you need time to yourself until you’re sure about how you feel. 

Hey, I know how difficult it must feel to know that there’s this person everyone loves but you can’t bring yourself to well, tolerate. And it can get annoying when you’re trying but you can’t do it, ugh, ok. Now I understand why you’re tired of it. 

It’s seriously lame of your group to do that, that’s a really annoying way to meet- sorry. I know it’s not my place to talk but I would be mad if someone compared me to a world known baseball star, especially if they knew that it bugged me. That would just tick me off even more. 

I’m happy to give you a hug, keep your head up alright? I know it’s difficult, but you’re stronger than your’e giving yourself credit for. Don’t forget about that. 

To anyone.

So, I really enjoy writing, and doing art, and I really enjoy sharing my stuff with people. But, alot of the time, it feels like nobody but a few people actually pay attention to my stuff. I really want people to see my stuff, and knowing that at least one person is able to see my stuff gets me excited and motivated. So when people don't see my stuff, it makes me feel demotivated. I know it may seen selfish, and it probably is, but some advice, and a little cheering up would be nice. And maybe a hug, if you're okay with that?

I think what would help you is promoting all the work you do on the platforms you have and maybe you’re apart of some groups that allow self promoting, nothing wrong with promoting your work. Especially if you’re really proud of it. 

The key to having motivation relies on receiving feedback, what better way to get motivated than to have some people make notes on how you can improve. At least, that’s just my suggestion! It’s simple but easy, right? I don’t mind giving you a hug, if that’s ok with you! You’re creative, there’s no limit to what you can write about.

[Password: I love Sakura... oh, and I also love Sakura.]

Hey. I could be doing better to be honest, but it’s nothing that bad. Just a rough day. Hope you’re well.

hey mondo, shane here again. so uh, obviously some shit's happened. i'll just get straight to the point, i wanted to just end it all man, and i was gonna go through with that. i was gonna do it, but i didn't. because of snowball. she came up and just sat in front of me, put a paw on my leg and stared at me. i started talking to her, telling her about what was bothering me and all that, and the whole time she didn't leave. she just listened, and eventually she was licking my face and cuddling with me. it's like she was trying to tell me that she cared about me, y'know? she wouldn't leave my side after that, always following me and laying on me. i knew i couldn't leave her, i have to take care of her, and ishi and iggy as well. that cheating bitch may have made me feel worse than i was, but she ain't important. it's like you said dude, she's just a gold digger, i shouldn't throw my life away over that. even if life is a bitch most of the time, i still have you and the pups, right? i still have 4 friends who i can trust and who will be there for me, and that's enough to keep me going. anyway, can me and the pups get another hug? i know i ask that every time, but, as long as i have you and my 3 puppies, i'll be alright.

Yo Shane, first of all, I have never been more grateful for a puppy to be in your life, thank you snowball. Now, I don’t know about you Shane, but I hear that pups are good at knowing when their owners are in distress, there must’ve been a reason snowball came and placed her paw on your leg. She knew. It’s crazy how impressive dogs are.

Hell yea dude! Gold diggers aren’t worth throwing your whole life away, it’s going to sting for awhile, but time will heal that wound. And you do have your pups and me, we’ll always be by your side no matter what kind of shitty person tries to take you down. That’s a promise, and they better hope I don’t find them or I’ll show them a world of pain.

Take some time for yourself, focus on you. What Shane finds happy, that kinda shit. I’m not too good with emotional stuff but I hope you know that I mean that in the nicest way possible, you’re going to find someone who loves you and actually treat you right. Until then, focus on your happiness, the pups and of course; you can always come back and talk to me dude! You’re a bro for life now.