#mo-ment

Today was a pretty good day. Can't complain <3

Why can't you just get online..... I just want to talk to you but you're so far away. I wish I could see your face. Hear your laugh. I wish I knew you were okay. I wish I could just hold you in my arms and keep you safe. I want to help make your dreams come true. I want to make everyday close to perfect.....but I can't help but think that maybe you just don't want me. Maybe I'm just not what you were expecting. Fuck I'm so fucking stupid and I don't know what to do. Damnit....

Here's the deal. I'm pissed of and I need to vent. I personally do not give a shit if you read this or not. There's this kid in my class that has some serious hots for me (I have discussed this issue with a few of you) and he honestly creeps me the hell out. I'm not a typically rude person, so I have politely been trying to put him down. I don't make an effort to talk to him. I understand that he has some serious issues and I'm not going to turn him away but he doesn't understand that I am happily in a relationship with my boy, and I even have been hinting to the fact that I have a girlfriend (thank you cloud. ) but it's gotten to the point where it's so obvious that the entire class picks on me when I don't even know half of them. AND I have two closer buds that are constantly asking me how my boyfriend is and that I shouldn't be stomping on our true love. FUCK THAT. Im sorry. I don't usually get all pissy over a joke but when I expressed that I'm /not/ okay with them SAYING these things and they continue and then act all concerned as to why I'm not talking to them? Fuck that. Just seriously I do /not/ need that right now. Not when my actual boyfriend is giving me shit and I'm having a mental breakdown over classes. I'm done. Just done. Sorry. I understand that I didn't make any sense. I just needed to let off some steam before I deck someone in the face.

Guys. I'm having a feels attack. I tried to stop it. It was nice knowing you. I need a stuffed animal. And a bucket of ice cream.