#mkiran

SUBSTANCE ABUSE RELATED SENTENCE STARTERS / @obscura-mp3 You can feel yourself shaking. You feel sick to your stomach, and you want to heave until there is nothing left. You have tried and tried and tried. You wanted to be clean, you wanted to be able to breathe. You wanted to be able to have the weight of that vice within you but it will never come clean from you. You close your eyes and you feel sick. "Mag..." you start. "Magnus, I'm struggling enough without you saying that." It's the first time you've had a confession like that. It seeps out of you and you feel like you can't breathe. "I'm trying. Honest to god and all-" you are trying to look him directly in the eyes. "i wanted to so bad, believe me but I haven't touched that. I swear on everything I own." it's a plea. a plea for him to hear. you're trying god are you trying and your bones are aching you soul is aching. you are aching. "i can't do it alone.' it finally comes out of you and it feels like a sob. maybe you are you just are too caught up is being scared as hell of telling him that you're slipping when you recover alone.