#mjpt

So, like, I should actually upload stuff on here, I guess ?? 🤙✌

Не всегда удается провести неразрывную «нитку» воздушной линии электропередачи между двумя столбами. Приходится соединять два провода СИП ВЛИ (воздушной линии электропередачи выполненной самонесущими изолированными проводами СИП) в пролете. Для такого рода соединений выпускаются специальные соединительные зажимы, например MJPT и MJPB. Как производится соединение СИП проводов соединительными…

I am caught smoking by my relatives.. Not literally caught but its close to that.. They knew it and my parents too..

Here’s what happened:

We decided to go out with our cousin who lives at Australia and came here for a vacation. It’s like our despidida dinner with her.

February 21, 2014.

I’m dismissed at 6pm so I went straight to McDonald’s Nepo Quad. That was our meeting place. When we were already complete we went to NYS and ate there. After finishing our meals, we walked arounf nepo Quad and we wanted to chill and drink hot coffee or something. We obviously didn’t want to go home that is why we were looking for a place to hang out.

We went to 7’Eleven to buy a half pack of malboro black.. Patrick and I smoke. They all knew about us. Danica too, but she does it occasionally. We decided to go to Camalig and we got excited and walked as fast as we could. Walking around past nine is hella scary. So we ran up to a kid selling cigarettes and we asked him if we could swap to a half-pack malboro ice blast because they were my favorite..

We reached camalig and we ordered, Tequila Sunrise. Kathryn loves Teq and does I. I now have my tequila buddy. Who hates tequila??? Anyway, we were chatting like for two hours. I think. While we were talking, Patrick and I were smoking.. Then we asked Kathryn if she’s allowed to smoke one and she said Yes. Her mom allowed her but even though she wants too, she can’t because she has Asthma. I had asthma too! But the first time I smoked, I coughed a lot then it was suddenly gone after a few days.

In the middle of our conversation, Danica took one cigar. She lighted it. Inhaled. Exhaled. That’s my girl. Wait, for the record, I didn’t teach her. Ok? I’m not even with her when she tried it the first time.. But here’s the important part. We were talking to Kathryn and our topic was about smoking. She said, she wanted to try one but she’s scared because her asthma might trigger. We were not telling her to smoke one, I actually tried to stopped her from doing it. I just said don’t do it if you can’t but if you really want to, it’s your decision..

After telling my “club tragedy” story to Kathryn, she took one cigar! I was so surprised and she said she’s really going to try it. I made a big mistake and that mistake was lighting up the cigarette for her. I’m such a big asshole to my cousin. Why did I do that? I should’ve stopped her from doing it.. I got guilty about it! I know we all did a wrong move, not just me. All of us in that scenario.

Because..

This is the worse part.

I think that was monday night and I was busy talking to my boyfriend when Danica surprisingly texted me in an All-Caps text saying:

GUYS WE HAVE A PROBLEM

I was confused by the time I read her text.. I replied. “What?”

She said, “Kathryn and her mom is at HongKong right now because her asthma triggered..” I got nervous, my heart beating faster and faster. My hands were shaking.. My body felt numb. I’m afraid that they might blame me with my irresponsibleness, because I was the one who set up the despidida dinner with Kathryn. I’m sure Tita Irene is ranting about us all the time. She even said that, we were such a “Bad Influence” to Kathryn. Maybe the next time they’ll go here again, she will never allow Kathryn to go out with us..

Here’s the question, how did they know what we smoked that night?

Guess what, my cousin.. HE SPILLED THE BEANS.

He told everything that happened that night to her father. Everything.. Detailed.. We got mad at him because, he should’ve talked to us first so we can make plans.. We can say that, we did it out of curiosity but there’s nothing we can do. He said it all. The worst part is, he even told him that Patrick and I were total-smokers. Which is true, we smoked but not every damn day. I think he said “everyday”.

Hello? You went through our private life and that’s not your obligation to tell them. We were so pissed at you that time.

The morning after we knew what was happening.. We, my cousins decided to have a meeting at Mcdonalds at 9 am. We were complete, even Trisha was there but she wasn’t involved. So we talked to my COUSIN, you said you told everything. You were saying that we should tell the truth to our parents because obviously they already know the truth! I know what you were talking about. Its us, being honest to our parents. Even though we make a mistake..Our parents will never ever leave us. They’d still love us no matter how bad the shit we made. Somehow, you made a point. I still love you, mojan.

I got home and we were still talking about it on viber. We were having a group chat because they said all of my relatives will have a meeting later including us at Patrick’s house. Because Tito Lito (kathryn’s dad) called Tito Jun (patrick’s father) when he knew what happened to Kathryn. Tito Lito was so angry at us and that’s why Tito Jun wanted to talk to us. Luckily, it was postponed..

That night, I took a bath and I was crying.. I was thinking that maybe my mom already knows it. She’s just waiting for me to talk to her because the whole day she was not talking to me. I sensed it. I dressed up and went to my sister’s room and hugged her. I was seeking for an advice and she told me, “Tell mom the truth”

Admitting to my mom would take a lot of risk.. There was this time, we were inside the car and I asked my parents “what if I smoked?” Then my mom answered “I will slap you in the face” and my mom even said this line which hit me the most “tell me who your friends are and I’ll tell you who you are” ….

I finally made up my mind.. I told my sister, go get mom and my heart was pounding really fast.. When I saw my mom, I bursted into tears.. All I said was sorry.. Then she told me, she already knew about it and she was just waiting for me to make a move. So I was right. I explained what happened and told her I was really smoking.. She didn’t get mad but I felt that she hated me that time and she said I should stop smoking. She made me feel realize that it was clearly our fault, we should’ve took care of Kathryn while she was staying here…

I thought she was going to slap me in the face.. I thought she’ll never forgive me. My thoughts were all wrong.. She still accepted me and loved me..

I felt a relief that night.

I’m glad my dad didn’t get mad at me because when he’s mad. He is too physical. He’d punch you in the face.

I’m just worried for myself too, because my aunties and uncles knew the incident. They might view me as the spider in the cobweb, in short, I’m the BI. But I’m not.. :’(

Days passed and now here I am typing my story. I know Kathryn’s family will forgive us too, in time. I am very sorry for what happened. I learned my lesson and I will never ever do it again.

I seriously stopped smoking, I’m three weeks nicotine-free.. :)

P.S Be honest all the time and no matter how bad your mistake is your parents will still love you, kiddo. ;)

"Till we meet again, Malboro Ice Blast."

Joke. I miss smoking. Joke.

Since, nung pumasok akong college nag-iba yung takbo ng buhay ko. Sobrang dami ang nagbago sa akin.. Hindi ko alam ba't ginawa ko yung mga bagay na hindi naman dapat. 

Natuto ako manigarilyo. 

Pumarty ako ng hindi nagpapaalam.

Hindi nako nagdadasal pag-gabi. 

Natuto ako magsmoke ng marijuana. 

Nagnakaw kami sa SM hahahaha

Sobrang pangit na siguro ng image ko ngayon. Pero one time, biglang nagbago yung buhay ko. Eh yung kapatid ko kasi may pagka-Christ Centeredness. Hiningi ko sakanya yung, box of prayers niya. Ayon. Boom. Nagbago buhay ko. Every morning, dinadasal ko mga yon at tsaka pag bago ako matulog. Everyday. 

Mahal na mahal ko talaga si Lord, hindi niya ako pinabayaan. Siguro kung hindi ko kinuha yung box of prayers ng kapatid ko. Adik na siguro ako ngayon. Hahaha, joke lang. Hindi na rin ako napapayosi. Sobrang lakas ko magyosi dati grabe. Pero ngayon nababawasan na. Occasional nalang ganyan pag with friends.

One time, pumunta akong carmelite tapos pinagdasal ko yung buhay ko. Tapos pinagtirik ko ng kandila yung sarili ko. Kailangan ko yon. Tapos bumili pa ako ng rosary bracelet. Yung paglabas ko sa carmelite, ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko! Sana tuloy-tuloy na ito. Ayoko na matukso.. 

Hi ako nga pala si Marielle. 17 years old. First year college. Taking up BS Tourism at Holy Angel University. 

Ginawa ko to para sa future anak ko, para alam nya yung mga kagagahan na ginagawa ko sa buhay. Ayos diba? 

Laking Angeles City, Pampanga ang ate nyo. Kapampangan. May isa akong kapatid, si Kristelle. Tapos may dalawa kaming aso, si Chowder atska si Moshi. Kamukha ko daw Nanay ko which is true. Ganda, check! Pero utak, sa tatay ko. Hindi ako bobo, mahina lang talaga ako sa math at tamad ako sa studies ko. Yung tatay ko highschool graduate lang, nanay ko hindi natapos yung college nya. 

Yung buhay namin simple lang, parehong into business yung parents ko. May tindahan kami sa Pampang, nagtitinda kami ng school supplies, candies na galing china, candies na gawa sa pinas, toys, jolen, beyblade.. etc. Marami ka makikita sa tindahan namin. Dati kinakahiya ko business namin, as in nahihiya ako. Ayoko pumunta sa tindahan dahil sobrang baho doon at baka may makakita sa akin. Ang arte ko dati. Feeling mayaman. 

Narealize ko na, kung hindi dahil sa tindahan namin, hindi ako makakapag-aral sa magandang eskwelahan. Kahit lubog na sa utang yung nanay ko, hindi nya sinusuko yung tindahan namin. Alam ko kaya namin malagpasan ito. Gusto ko ng makatapos para matulungan ko parents. Para ako nalang yung magbabayad sa utang ng nanay ko. 

Nabubuhay naman kami kahit ganito kami. Nakakapag-mall naman kami at shopping. Kapag may sobrang pera lang. Ang problema kasi sa akin, magastos ako. Hingi ako ng hingi ng pera sa tatay ko, kung ano ano binibili ko. Siguro nasa 20k na yung nahingi kong pera sa tatay ko. Hindi ko mapigilan. Demanding ako. Gusto ko meron ako non, meron ako nyan. Kung anong bago, dapat meron din ako. 

Naka-iPhone 5 ako. Hindi ako mayaman. Hindi rin kami mayaman. Tatay ko mayaman. Birthday gift nya sa akin ito. Hindi ko alam saan nya nakukuha yung mga pera nya. Kupit? Ewan. May sariling savings? Ewan. Wala talaga akong clue. Pero hindi siya nauubusan ng pera. Kaya pag humihingi akong pera, 1,000 agad bibigay sayo. 

Pasaway ako. Bad girl. Laging napapalo sa pwet. Linalabanan ko nanay ko. Ang sama ko no? Pero mababait ako. Promise. Hindi ako nangangagat. Kamot lang. Charot. Kahit ganito ugali ko, mahal na mahal ko ang mga taong nasa paligid ko. 

Wala nakong alam sabihin pero, yan. Totoo lahat yung mga sinabi ko. 

Dito muna, 

January 2, 2014