Current gender expression: exhausted.
In some aspects, COVID19 has given me a break from having to interact with the public, (and thus be subjected to hegemonic gender nonsense for 10+ hours a day) and has gotten me out of several grossly gendered celebrations,
I miss not feeling like I am entering a dystopian Mad Max landscape when I go on my weekly grocery run.
I miss my monthly LGBTQ happy hours even when older gays misgendered me.
I miss Sunday Suppers with my family members that live across the river, who I can't go see till this is over.
I miss the Easter Sunday mass. I miss my little nephew, and all my common-law neiphlets. I miss my best friend and her/our Mamma.
I miss my cousin's dog. I just want to scritch her fluffy shoulders.
And I miss getting a paycheck