#missing nick

nick is so ia rn oh my goshhhhhh brother get ur ass on twitter and deliver us a hot take AT LEAST!! he's probably been travelling today ik but you know what thats not a good enough excuse for me i miss him

"Goooooood morning" and "Goooooood AFTerNOOOOOON" but in Nick's voice is something i miss desperately

I'm so bad with words so all I can say is that I'm even more of a mess over this today than I was yesterday

I don't know how to live without you. For almost two years of my life you were always there. Of course we didn't talk everyday or every week, but I knew if I texted you and told you I needed someone to be there for me you would have been. It's different now though, you care.. You just don't want me. I get it I messed up, I put myself into this situation, but I don't think it's fair to be that way seeing as though you also gave up on more than one occasion. I just feel like that without you in life I have no clue on how to function. Everything reminds me of you because we have so many insiders. I'm constantly thinking about you and constantly dreaming about you. I don't know how to live without you. You were my rock, my support system. I now have to deal with things on my own because I don't have you. I don't know how to get through this, or how to move on. I know it's better that we're apart given the circumstances, but I just miss you.

Here I am again...on the ground....depressed....