#miserable old fool

Wow, he looks like SHIT.

Meh.

All I did was say Democrats need to vote, more or less, and it sparked something. Sigh, my “Aunt” said what she usually says, that I never post political posts, which really pissed me off, because you’d think if you’ve had to say that on several of my political posts, it can’t be true, but whatever... She’s a damn broken record, and I’m just going to ignore her for a while.

My Best Friend gave me some good advice about my Competitive Friend (I’ve decided to leave out possessive pronouns, articles in acronyms for my silly nicknames): “Pay him no mind.” My BF is right. I need to do what’s best for me, so I muted our group chat after letting them know my sub ended.

I’m a fucking mess, but I’m trying to get to a higher place.

I went ahead and reinstalled Snapchat. That guy... I’ll go ahead and call him the Dumb Slut--you know, to give him dignity. Anyway, he never messaged me here, and it was driving me wild. So, I decided to cast aside my pride and apologized to him. I don’t think he knew what I was apologizing for, but he might know now.

DS isn’t as dumb as he’d like people to believe. Wanting to be degraded like that can only come from a place of anxiety that is associated with higher intelligence. Maybe he also suffers from low self-esteem, which may cause a distorted reality, but I’m not buying that he’s truly dumb. He told me he’s having a bad day and that he just needs to be fucked to fix a “chemical imbalance.” I warned him that’s a temporary fix, but I wasn’t interested in arguing with him.

If DS wants to have fun and blow off a little steam, then by all means...

I’d just mention... You’ve been getting fucked, and yeah, it makes you feel good. You were elated that night I made you do all those things, but tell me--How long does it last? Of course, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to get fucked, degraded, but it can be easy to lose control and yourself.

Do you even know who you are?

At any rate, I can’t help him, and I admit I’m a bit of a Jim on SC. I’m of a sign that’s known as an initiator of conversation, so it’s weird for me to wait for stories, watch them, and say nothing. I also like to feel important. Oh, this isn’t all my fault, though, even if I’m the one who came back with his tail between his legs. Perhaps our ideas of “dirty” are different, but DS, I just wanna see your cock. I’ve my own doms; I don’t need to be yours.