#misc ship stuff

He starts her smoking again. It has everything to do with being around him while he smokes/tasting the tobacco on his tongue tempting her back into the habit, and nothing to do with the smell and taste reminding her of him when he's away. Nope. Not at all.

Sweet merciful Talos how her mother disapproves. Her Da, as with most things, tries to be supportive. He disapproves too.

They rarely resolve arguments. They just get tired of fighting and mutually agree to drop it. And then fuck. Which makes it all better, right?

Speaking of fucking, they have a thing for public sex. Or as public as they dare be without getting caught.

They get caught sometimes. 

She knows she's great and if someone'll take her well

She's going to stick it out until there's some reason not to

The only ships so far where she's felt inadequate are Auri-El and Elenwen.

Auri-El 'cause.. well jfc it's a God

Basically, Lydia is obsessed with the idea of this ship because it's something she can't have. They will never be together outside of sneaking into a back room to fuck whenever she's in town. She does care for Elle, in a way, but even if they were to somehow magically find a way for this to happen, they would both fight and be miserable all the time. They are, outside of a little short-term banter, wildly emotionally/situationally incompatible. It's just an all around bad idea. Lydia knows this deep down, but chooses to deny it, while ALSO denying how badly she wants it, unless drunk. 

It's a very selfish sort of thing she feels and it all only serves to make her miserable over all, but she pretends like she doesn't care. If she were to talk to a friend about it (sober), it would basically come out as "Haha, yeah me and the High 'n Mighty Emissary got a thing goin' on on the side. I know it's fucked up, but she's so hot and you would not believe how good she is in bed."

If she talked about it to a friend while drunk, it would come out as, "Fucking Mara, why can't we be together? No one would ever treat her better 'en me, I'd worship the ground she walks on, I'd kill a thousand dragons in her name."

Each time they require less and less alcohol to work up the nerve.

But sometimes they just get blackout drunk anyway because it's fun. And because of the guilt.

Lydia trying to break into the embassy, completely shitfaced and crying about how she and Elle are meant to be together.

Elle trying to come up with some reason not to have her thrown into prison 5ever.

Lydia getting incredibly jealous when she learns about Elle sleeping with anyone else, even though she sleeps with other people too.

Lydia and Farkas sparring and teaching each other new fighting techniques they learn, but everything always seems to end in wrestling and makeouts. 

Lydia learning that Farkas is a werewolf and offering to become one too to make it easier on him.

Lydia beating the shit out of someone who puts a spider near Farkas as a prank in her presence.